SARAH!!!

you'll always be my sunshine-

2011-02-11T23:56:00.002+08:00

this week's so tiringggg. the most tiring so far.

but life still goes on, even when you're half-asleep in class.

i'm juggling o levels, syf, and violin grade 5 pratical exam now.
it's really tough, if i want the best out of all of them.
playing the violin is barely easy.
i needa be in perfect pitch. perfect. it's so hard because its a string instrument.
but it means i'll be better than those who play instruments that don't need tuning constantly, like pianists~

and
because change is inevitable,
self-identity matters.

this weeek left me serious thinking.

2011-02-08T20:13:00.001+08:00

suddenly.. i don't wanna pursue this dream of mine.

and it's all about you

2011-02-07T21:17:00.002+08:00

I'M SO PROUD OF JUNSU OPPA, HE DEBUTS AS A SONGWRITER TODAY!!!

i've been waiting for this since forever!!! i've always wished he'd go solo but stay with 2pm, and that wish will come true on March 9th when his solo album releases. but for now, i'll stay in love with this song:
Don't go - written by my dear JUN K., vocals by JUN K. & Lim jung hee

another incentive of my day:

the way he directs her is so AWESOME! so serious! and he turns cute/funny when he smiles at jung hee succeeding at the recording :)
hehe but he kind of reminds me of my violin/handbell teachers, the way they all direct us.
which means JUNSU's professional ^-^
i'm not being biased.. >:)

wheee i was dead jealous of jung hee, until the video showed they didn't record it together so :DDD i'm not as jealous now, but eek ok i'm jealous that she gets to duet with junsu!!! and her voice is so powerful.

you left and now i'm so afraid.
something's gonna happen.
it scares me. it haunts me.
that i think of you everytime.

2011-02-05T15:41:00.002+08:00

gonna revamp my blog!
or move to lj?
WHUDDA YA THINK? hmmmm?
wait for the change.

Ariana Grande finally reached 200000 followers on twitter, so she uploaded her cover of GRENADE!

like FINALLY!!! she's been going on about it since... ages.

i followed her at first cuz i saw a retweet of her 200000 followers request, and i was like "WHUT..SUCHA BIGHEAD", then i realised OMG she's "CAT" on "VICTORIOUS"!! love that show! and i compared her to my sis cuz they're both dumb and redheaded.

HAPPY CNY!!!

2011-02-03T22:55:00.002+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

hardly feels like it! maybe cuz you're far away LOL KIDDING.
went for usual visits to grandparents' houses~
at ah ma's house our pretty cousin and her family came! i think she's super chio, but she's my indirect cousin, and they only came since last year~
this year shane's not here D: so sad, he's all the way in aussie~

ye ye and nai nai's house is as usual. no other visitors, and this year we didn't go other houses like we did last year! last year was so fun cuz for the first time we visitied someone else.

went grandma's house for dinner! cousins didn't come but we ate dinner with them yesterday so :D wheeee

i feel lazy today. tired? i slept alot though o.o

WATCHING EDWARD SCISSORHANDS NOW!!! i watched nearer to the ending lasttime and i loved it <3 love the plot! i love shows that involve unnatural things, fantasy much :D that's why narnia's my top fav movie series~
OMG i was just wondering, it'd be so cool to marry edward scissorhands! and i don't mean johnny depp xD i mean like the character in the showww.
oh shoots does liking this genre of art clash with my spiritual belief?
but ultimately i don't believe in this real life so i guess it's ok~

WHEEE oh it's midnight now O.O so tired.

so many things happened these days. can't remember what i wanted to say. so
BYE!
enjoy the new year~

SUPER SHOW 3!!!

2011-01-30T22:59:00.003+08:00

SUPER SHOW 3 WAS AWESOME!!!

SHINDONG TOUCHED/SHOOK MY HAND TWICE!!!
LEETEUK TOUCHED MY HAND ONCE!!! AHHH!!
KYUHYUN TOUCHED MY HAND ONCE!!!

EUNHYUK SPLASHED WATER AT ME!!! I ALMOST TOUCHED DONGHAE!

I CAUGHT YESUNG'S BUBBLE BOTTLE BUT THEN ANOTHER FAN SNATCHED FROM ME!

YESUNG, RYEOWOOK AND SHINDONG KEPT COMING TO OUR SIDE!

AND I'VE SEEN ALL OF THEM UP CLOSE IN FRONT OF ME, LESS THAN A METRE AWAY! HEHEHEHE

it was awesome! the only reason why i could do all these was coz i ran from my seat to the front of the terrace for almost every song!! and i witnessed the TEUKCHUL moment in BONAMANA smack in front of me!!! so super happy!!!

hahahaa and cooking cooking was awesome, i was so happy when they sang that song because it was that song that made me like LEETEUK, which led to liking suju ^-^

and ms chua was sitting a few seats away from us!!! haha and she waved at us, she recognised julia and jo coz she taught them before! but she also waved at me!!

i think ryeowook saw my fanboard, but teuk and chul like never see D;
overall it felt rather dreamy but i know its a fact that i've seen them and TEUK TOUCHED ME!!! THAT TOUCH MEANS SO MUCH TO ME!!
HE WAS SO REAL!!!

haah i think leeteuk is so super epic real life and super funny!!! the way he walks/runs is so epic like he's hopping and then he does alot of funny actions OMGG SO HAPPY HHEEHE I LOVE HIM FOR BEING SO DORKY!!! and heechul also!! also he's more 'act cool" but he's super funny too HAHAHA love them!

ZHOU MI IS HOT! SUPER HOT! i didn't know he was so hot!! hahaha henry is cute but not my type :)

the people that confirmed saw me were yesung, ryeowook, shindong! haha

oh sungmin's solo was OMG he touched the female dancer until so AHEM!!!

it's kinda sad, because i think that me and teuk are not fated :( there's no that feeling that i felt when it came to junsu! i didn't lock eyes with teuk :(

because teuk kept hopping around, it's like he can't focus at one single spot xD at least not at me ;(

this is how freaking close i was!

SUPER JUNIOR!!

LEETEUK!! I'M SO PROUD OF MYSELF FOR CAPTURING SUCH A LOVELY PICTURE OF MY LOVE!!!

sarangheyo super junior!!! :)

IT'S HOBUTT DAY!!!

2011-01-25T16:48:00.004+08:00

today in class liying and i kept singing to DOOWOON'S "when the door closes"...
must be because i listened to it in the morning, it got stuck in mah head and i started humminggg.

plus the song's so nice T-T so touching until even dongwoon cried singing it T-T
must be tears of happiness :)

DOOJOON :DDD mah fav in beast!!

I'M SO HAPPY. it's like all the pairings that i like are REAL.
ONKEY- there are so many pics and vids to prove it~
doowoon-"WHEN THE DOOR CLOSES"!!! who would think they'd form a duet? :)
teukchul- OMG OMG OMG THEY'RE SHARING THE SAME HOTEL ROOM IN TAIWAN AND HEECHUL TWEETED PICTURES OF IT HEHEHEHEEEE (last night)

i'm so lucky~
to make things better:

HEHE JUNSU AND DOOJOON HOLDING HANDS?!?!!! awesome~ my two favs!!!

EEEEEEK anyway, life sucked the past few days. but i don't give a damn anymore.
i shall just live life as it is.
i think i'm sensible.

oh ya, TODAY IS JUNHO'S BIRTHDAY!!! it's HOBUTT DAY!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUNHO OPPA!!! yay but i don't feel the excitement i felt when it was junsu's birthday n_n

AWESOME PEOPLE

2011-01-22T20:05:00.005+08:00

HEY HEY!!! sooo, american idol's airing on channel 5 now, and there are some people who are soooo amazing!

ROBBIE'S SO AMAZING!!! not only his life story, his voice captured mah heart. HAHA i mean it, when i watched him on tv it was OMGGG. i like how he variates the notes, omggg and he's only 16.

PARIS! i was touched by her story of her baby, and i'm still amazed that she actually kept her baby! her personality is so nice, and her voice is so nice too!! she's awesome!!!

melinda!! another sad story again, but this time i watched her sing before i watched her story, and her voice is amazing, love how she variates the notes too!! and she can hit so high and control it!!! AWESOME!!!

i want robbie to win american idol!!! that was what i thought when i watched the first ep. haha but seems like there's alot more talented people too!

jacee! he's talented! but kinda remind me of justin bieber's voice. haha but still, awesome!!! and he's so young!!

AHHHH I CHANCED UPON 2PM'S FANMEET VIDEOS IN SINGAPORE~

^-^ i totally melted when i was there. EHEHEHEHE junsu's awesome.

eeek i found fansign videos BUT WAE, CAN'T FIND ANY WITH ME IN IT!!!

today i met someone.
this person could help me find what i've been looking for.
maybe this is God's plan.
i'm hoping for the best! :)

OMG I FINALLY FOUND ME!!! AT 7.28S I'M THE ONE THAT WENT TO JUNSU!!! hhehe you can see my brown backpack!! i look retarded -.- BUT YAYY!!! i hope i can find a close up one!!! memories~
fansign with junsu was the best moment in my life! plus shaking my hand!! :D

sighh. life these days are kinda packed, tiring. thursday was the most tiring. handbells was O.O cuz mr lim refined our song, and made it faster, and my notes have alot of quavers so it was really intense. then at night violin was o.o too. intense music.
feel like i let my violin teacher down. but imma work harder and get my distinction!! gonna make him proud of me!

OHYA on wed went shopping with sis and isabel! it was half day~ and so we went bugis, orchard, somerset HEHEE. and i kept putting clothes on isabel to see, HAHA. it was fun but tiring. and i see so many juniors! tsk tsk they should change out of the uniform before going out...

KAY BYE.
you don't know but everytime you're on, i feel kinda relieved :) knowing you're safe somewhere out there...

ENJOY. it's part of the fanmeet! i'm putting up cuz you can hear the whole part of junsu singing ^-^

i ended up spamming 2pm videos during MNET...

2011-01-18T16:09:00.005+08:00

:D

ysterday was KISEOP and KANGIN's BIRTHDAYS!!! and also shan from 98.7fm, and 2 people celebrated in school too! haha so many people shared yesterday as their birthdays!

hahaa and i realise i used to like kiseop too! as in if you ask me to choose who i like in ukiss, i'd say kiseop. HAHA. if i had to choose from ukiss. X) and i realise he's also born in 1991.
ANYWAY. nothing beats #junkayday~

EEEEEEEEEEEEKKK GNA!!! i liked her when she debut, but EEEEEEEEEEEEKKKK SHE ALWAYS PICK MY FAVOURITE GUYS TO BE IN HER MV!!!
FIRST DOOJOON, NOW JINWOON. if next is junsu, i might turn anti. HAHA kidding.
BUT EEEEEE of all people, if she had to pick from beast or 2am, WHY MY FAVOURITES!!!

haha but i must say. jinwoon looks so cute here!!! n_n and i still like GNA, but i think she looks old. her voice is not bad, but her previous song was nicer~

TEEN TOP comeback stage! i watched it on tv~ LOVE THEIR NEW HAIR!!! AND MAH FAV HAIR NOW IS CAP'S HAIR!!! that little bit of blue at his fringe is cool!! and as usual its mainly only NIEL and CHUNJI singing -.- and chunji looks like he's lip-syncing.. L.JOE LOOKS NICE WITH HIS PINKISH HAIR TOO. haha

AHHHHHHHH JUNSU IS AWESOME!!! heheheheheee "I CAN'T"- I LOVE THIS SONG, and so does 2pm! and i approve junsu's ad-libs :)

omo OMO keke i just watched fancams AND AND AND for the MNET concert in thailand, junsu didn't wear red for "i'll be back"!!! BUT HE WORE RED HERE~ haha kk just saying...

yesterday, handbells was fun!! because we perfected our second song, and yay i feel so happy playing my FG bells. almost every bar has my note though, need to memorise so much D;

yesterday was a happy day too. maybe it's because i used a RED LIGHTER to start my bunsen burner during chemistry~ HEHEHE kidding lah.

tmr's half day! YAY. still haven't decide how i should spend it. these few days i keep wanting to go marina bay, yknow around that area, walk around MBS, walk on the double-helix bridge and just see the nice nice scenery there.
the first time i walked on the double-helix bridge was after MNET concert HAHA. and it was so nice, lighted up at night!!!

lol. AND I WANNA SHOP, although i told my mum i won't buy any more clothes this year cuz i bought so many last year T-T

EEEEK. ok there's alot of homework today. SEEYA.

editted 5pm:
OMGGGG ok i mustered my courage to watch the mnet concert fancams haha. I'M ALWAYS SCARED OF WATCHING FANCAMS cuz i might feel sad that i missed some parts HAHA.
WATCH THIS:

THIS ANGLE IS AT THE SECTION WHERE WE WERE STANDING. and i'm in front of this fan who took the video, if i'm not wrong the JUNHO lightstick you see at the start is selina's!!! so i'm standing nearer the left and more front than her, AND IT WAS HERE, WHERE I THOUGHT JUNSU MIGHT HAVE BEEN STARING AT ME!!!
SEE SEE from the start until this fan moves the camera to the screen, JUNSU KEPT LOOKING IN OUR DIRECTION!!! i seriously could swear that he did look right at me!!! it's not illusional!

and during "tired of waiting" TOO!!! see, nearer the end when junsu sat on the chair again, he pointed towards our direction!!! somehow i remember looking at him while they sat down, and he looked back, but i can't rmb which performance T-T
although i have a strong feeling it's this!

i think one of the many hands in the air belong to me ;D hahaha especially at the ending where junsu sang~

HEARTBEAT!!!

clearer, but not where i stood.

I'LL BE BACK!!! if i'm not wrong, the person whose finger stuck up at the start was charlotte's(2pm fanmeet friend) and i was next to her!!! HEHEHE AND JUNSU REALLY DID SAY "LET'S GO"!!! :DDD

IF I'M NOT WRONG, the blue and pink lightsticks at the start are once again selina's and my sis's!!! but i was more front and nearer to their left. AHHH so you can't see me jumping like mad for junsu HAHA.

clearer version of i'll be back ^-^ JUNSU'S "LET'S GO!!!"!!! hehe so hot.

1.40s-2.00s JUNSU TALKING ABOUT WHEN HE WAS YOUNG HE STAYED HERE!!! "sentosa park..sentosa park" HAHA HIS ENGLISH IS AWESOME!!!
"ARE YOU READY FOR BEING CRAZY TONIGHT?" awesome..

HERE FINALLY I FOUND IT!!! HAHAH OMGGG JUNSU WAS SUPER FUNNY. they were singing LIKE A G6 out of nowhere, then junsu made funny noises HAHA SUPER FUNNY. but i thought it was when they were intro-ing...

CONTINUATION!! HEHEHEE "are you guys having fun tonight?" OFC JUNSU!!!

FOUND IT!!! OMG IT'S "I CAN'T"!!! IT WAS HERE JUNSU HAD EYE CONTACT WITH ME!!! this fan is from the other side, so you see junsu keeps looking to the right? THAT'S WHERE WE ARE!!!

CAN YOU SEE AT 0.13S JUNSU STARES!!!

ONLY YOU + ANGEL! it's ok, i'm not jealous of the fans who got junsu's flowers.HAHA although i almost catched it :x this fan is from the other side! but she keeps turning the cam to our side hehe so you can see our side~

from 3.06s-3.10s JUNSU POINTED TO THOSE BOARDS THAT HAD HIS NAME, AND THAT WAS MY SECTION OMGG BUT I FORGOT TO BRING MY BOARD D; but at least i showed it to him the night before :D (maybe he was looking for mine) HAHA

lastly, they'll forever be

my 10 POINTS OUT OF 10! i didn't scream much because junsu doesn't have any lines HAHA ONLY ad-libs! there's a story about it HAHA.

Miracles?

2011-01-16T23:01:00.002+08:00

Hey hey just wanna post a short post :)

The most amazing thing happened last night!!!
Just before JUNKAYDAY ended, 3 awesome things happened.

-onkey
I found a pic of onkey and key was the one who posted it on his me2day and omg it was real onkey ok!! Can't share the pic now cuz I'm using my touch, but omg it was key and onew in Australia and they were standing behind those cardboard human figures and key's head popped out of the female figure, next to the manly figure were onew stood!!! And key actually uploaded it.
Seriously onkey much!!! n_n

-teukchul
Omggg Jo tweeted to me saying that heechul deep kissed leeteuk during super show 3 in Bangkok!!! This is so unexpected okay!!! And it's my two top favs in suju!!! I know it's kinda sick but haha I'm still happy!!! Gonna find fancams of it :)

And now the most important thing ever, that's a small miracle to me, is that junsu may have seen my tweets!!! One of my tweets to him was to upload a pic or video of his birthday, haha because as you can see from my previous post how eager I was to know how he spent his day.
And to my amazement, he really posted a pic awhile later!!! I was so shocked okay because it was really a pic of him and his friends and hd birthday cake ^-^ oh and jinwoon was there too!!!:D

At first I thought maybe it's just he wanted to upload for fun, then Julia tweeted to me saying that junsu responded to my tweet hehehe then I started to believe maybe it's true!!! Plus before the photo tweet, junsu thanked fans for birthday msges too!!!;)

And the photo was abit blur, so normally people won't unload a shaky photo right? But he did!!! Kekeke ok anyway I was over the moon with 3 awesome news in less than one hour.

I think it's because i sat on red chairs! Haha just kidding,

Everything happens for a reason, and I thank God for that!:)
It's amazing how it's especially my biases that I'm talking about in this post. Key, teuk, chul, junsu and jinwoon!!' amazing right!!!

Hehehe maybe junsu may not have seen my tweets, but somehow my intuition tells me it feels like we've a connection somehow.
And left-hander's intuitions are spot-on.
^-^

Kay gonna sleep now! Hehe nothing much happened today.

IT'S JUNKAYDAY!!!

2011-01-15T20:48:00.004+08:00

it's been terribly long days the past 3 days including today, but today is my happy day because...
IT'S JUNSU'S BIRTHDAY!!!

생일축하함니다 준수오빠!!! 사랑해요!!~ o(^▽^)o
keke that was one of my tweets to junsu last night :)

and it's JOANNE'S BIRTHDAY too!!!
kekeke so i'm especially happy today!!!

ok wanna know how tiring my life is? i shall summarise the past few days' events.
thursday:
had school, then had physics NUS presentation after school, then cca, then reached home around 7pm, ate dinner, do homework and then went for violin at 9pm and reached home at 10pm. then had to finish homework after that. DAMN TIRED OKAY. cca and school is tiring enough, plus my violin ;_; and had to prepare for physics and english tests the next day!!!
but i survived! and it wasn't as bad as i imagined. i learnt REVERBERATO on my violin!!! so freaking happy ^-^ i've been dying to learn but i scared to ask my teacher, and he finally taught me for my exam piece!! YAY!!!

friday:
had school, english test in between, then PHYSICS DIAGNOSTIC TEST at 2pm-3pm which was immediately after lessons because we have to go for CCA at 3pm-4pm, so we skipped lunch ;_;
and it's tiring to rush here rush there... and we ended cca late ughh but i left earlier, cos i had CHINESE TUITION!!! i reached home at 10pm plus omgggg and i didn't have dinner as well
T-T sad life. so many things to do!!!

today:
walau. I ONLY SLEPT 5 HOURS LAST NIGHT OMGGG because had to wake up at 6am today to go to school at 7am!!! we had to perform for sec 1 induction, luckily i woke up in time!!!
i decided that no matter what happened i'm gonna be happy today because its JUNKAYDAY, so i was happy all the way anyway.
i was happy when we performed, not because of junsu, but there's a reason ^-^ so awesome, so coincidental(not really, but can't think of a better word). okay just that what i wanted happened :)

after that we left school at 11plus, went to NEX to eat lunch/celebrate joanne's birthday :D, then yj and i went back to school again, reached at 1.3opm to go to river valley high for PHYSICS NUS PRESENTATION. omggg my life so many things on right?
and meredith was also at river valley(her school). haha and we kept trying to meet each other but then both of us couldn't leave wherever we were!!! so sad we were both sad ;_;
stayed in river valley high until 5plus, then school bus-ed to pp, ate dinner there then went home. 23 groups presented, and we were the only sec school, THE REST WERE FROM JCs!! and it's only our class people that went for it HAHAHA. we are too pro~ and 2 of our groups won the prizes! GOT MONEY!!!

AND THE BEST PART ABOUT TODAY, WALAU I FORGOT MY KEYS. I GOT STRANDED OUTSIDE MY HOUSE ONCE AGAIN. i always feel like slapping myself whenever i forget my keys. i get especially angry at myself UGHHH. so waited for my family to come back at like 7plus.
but then i cooled down while waiting downstairs, because the night breeze was awesome and i remembered it's JUNKAYDAY~ and i read my book and there was internet hehehehe so i could check on any updates on JUNSU.

i was so happy last night that it's junsu's birthday that i couldn't sleep because i was smiling to myself xD I DON'T KNOW WHY I FEEL SO HAPPY UNTIL LIKE THAT.
i feel happy for him, maybe because this is the only time of the year i can feel happy for him? excluding when they win awards.
AND AND AND I SUPER WISHED I COULD SPEND TODAY WITH JUNSU!!! SIGH. i wanna know how he spent his birthday so badly that i'm checking his twitter every hour and tweeting to him although i don't wanna spam his mentions, but EEYER.
it's like some additive disease. I'M ADDICTED TO JUNSU.
sigh sigh sigh i'm really itching to have some updates of pictures or videos of his life today. EEK.
but it's just like how on teuk's and chul's and key's bday last year i was itching to know too.
HAHA. WHY AH? i feel like i'm so weird.

oh oh but i know se7en has a cake for junsu, kekeke because he tweeted a pic of it.

OKAY I SHALL HOPE HOPE HOPE JUNSU UPDATES ABOUT HIS DAY TODAY. SOON. AFTER ALL, IT'S JUNKAYDAY!!

and i'm not itching for joanne's updates because I'M SPENDING IT WITH HER!! KEKEKE HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN MY AWESOME CHINGU~

AND IT'S MY LUCKY DAY TOO. I SAT ON THE ONLY RED SEAT DURING LUNCH, AND ON A RED SEAT AGAIN DURING DINNER. and i saw someone, unexpectedly near, who saw me too, as i wanted. :)

2011-01-11T16:31:00.005+08:00

FEELING DOWN?

your argument is invalid.

everytime i feel frustrated or gloomy, i stare at junsu's pictures and smile again, HAHA. since that's the advice people give me.

keke anyway, celebrated sis's birthday on SUNDAY!!! ;D awesome, she's 17 now!!! so damn fast.

got back our O LEVEL RESULTS YESTERDAY! for me, its CHINESE, and for my sis, it's everything! haha and YAY I GOT A1!!!
thank God for everything :)
my sis did quite well too, i'm proud of her :D

and last night isabel stayed over at our house! with jie haha. and they're planning to go ac, which is not bad :)

yesterday was so tiring after cca, which ended 6plus, we went out for dinner UNTIL LIKE 9 PLUS omggg. i still had homework to do, was so freaking tired!!! in the end i forgot to do maths and went to sleep. lol but then i still completed before 3rd period today -.-

hmm what else? life's normal, if not, stressful.
i got headache but it's mild and going away..

zzz ok i shall poof.

OH OH OH I READ SOMEWHERE THAT JINWOON IS PREPARING FOR HIS SOLO ROCK DEBUT!!! MY JINWOON!!! kekeke and zomg, just when i'm interested in rock music.
he totally suits rock, there was once he sang a rock song i think during gayo daejun and he totally stunned me -hearts-

hehehe. and i realise LEETEUK and JUNSU have some things in common.
- they like pandas.
- they are funny.
- they are the oldest in their groups.
LOL. and they associate themselves with my favourite colours!!!

and i realise either i like the oldest person in kpop groups, or i like those born in 1991 in those groups. OMG HAHAA.

when life gives you lemons, make lemonade.

2011-01-07T20:33:00.003+08:00

the first week of school is over :O
time passes fast? and everyone's fretting over o levels! eeeek.

i don't think i wanna continue studying after o levels yknow? but it's important so. yeah.

i know what i wanna be when i grow up, i just don't know if i can make it. and i don't know exactly how. eeek.

anyway, this week's been super suay or what. i kena 2 "disciplinary" scoldings in just one week.

one thing i realised this year is that adults are not stupid. and they probably think children are immature and all that, and we think we are right, but sometimes, adults are wrong, and children are wrong too.

idk, ughh why. i hate it when adults think they are so great and demand authority over children. even among adults the same thing happen. i mean like, who are you to order me around?
it's my life isn't it?! eek i don't know, adults will probably think this is immature.

WHY WHY WHY. annoying.
i hate how i feel that sense of restriction when someone reprimands me.
eeek. ok i shall not care.

the thing i look forward to wake up every morning is hearing my alarm. heh, it's junsu's voice!! in i'll be back. and so far i've not missed his part~ and then when i off my alarm i'll see his face staring on my phone xD
okay this is creeepy haha i hope no celebrity ever reads anything i write.
i'm not obsessed. i just feel happy listening to junsu's voice~

btw i love her!!! as in, i think she's awesome!!! before she became a star, the covers she made were amazing. i love her voice and her looks she's just so perfect!!! everyone support ALYSSA BERNAL!!! and this is her debut song "cali cali cali"! :)
really like how she's so humble, when her voice is so amazing!
don't ya think so?
i'm just so happy she became a celebrity :)

awesome. kay and i feel happy listening to bruno mars's songs.

OMGGGGGGG. lucky little girl, she's AWESOME WOWWWWW. pure talent.

this though, i think for a 4 year old, it's fantastic, but, she can't really sing yet. some notes were outtt. hehehe but she's only four so ;)

DO YOU CALL THIS SINGING? I DON'T KNOW. TELL ME, IS THIS SINGING? (its not a rhetorical qn, i really dk) TO ME, IF IT IS, then justin bieber is awesome.

i'm brimming with aspirations, because i'm different.
i know it, i feel it~

WHEEE. just thinking about a fresh new day tomorrow makes life seem so naise~

FIRST DAY OF SEC 4 LIFE

2011-01-04T16:50:00.004+08:00

HELLOOO. school was.. O.O T-T XD

O.O because we spent 6 freaking periods with mr tan. HAHA. and he thinks mah hair is of "unnatural colour". so weird, suddenly just shout my name when he was talking about hair "rules"..

T-T because I'M THE ONLY ONE IN 4C TO GO 4S FOR HIGHER CHINESE. i'm okay with it, just yknow, -forever alone-... hehe but at least i know yizhen and got vanessa, ing yee, algae also.
it's kind of a blessing i guess, to have mrs han as my chi teacher, so i'll improve, :D
gonna change that C5 to A1, just watch me.

XD because hehe back to laughing with mah friends!!! super missed all of them!!! and also because HEHEHE WE ARE SENIORS NOW, i'm so happy being a senior gosh, it's like, you can boss everyone else. OH YEAHHH, watch me, new sec 1s. :P can't wait for juniors to join our cca. MUAHAHAHAA.

OMGGGG tmr we have BIO, ENG, EMATH, MT, CHEM, PHY AND AMATH. THAT'S LIKE EVERY SUBJECT EXCEPT HUMANITIES.

hmm, i don't like the new whatever rubbish periods, like R&P and having assembly on thursday and some whatever shit thing after school on weds. and the fact that we are released later on weds. walau.

RAINY DAYS by ONE WAY (feat JUNSU OF 2PM!!!)
AWESOME!!! i like the song, not just cos junsu's singing it (actually maybe), but it sounds nice ;D one way has potential~ AND HEHEHEHEEH JUNSU SO HOT HERE. /hopeless
his voice is so sexy, i can hear it harmonising with one way's voices. -hearts-
the english version he has a short solo at the end, SO HOT.

KAY, imma go now.
day 1 of sec 4 life is over.

i'd catch a grenade for ya~

2011-01-03T12:09:00.003+08:00

since i'm on the net, i just came here.
hmm, i guess i won't update much starting from tmr, or maybe i will, hehe idk.
i'm excited to start school, see all mah friends, know who mah teachers are, and learn as much as i can.

wheee finally the last year, ain't everyone excited? i wish 2 years ago, i didn't do so well for science, so that i'd go into another stream. if only i took pure lit... stupid right me? why didn't i discover what i really liked back then?

but it's ok, i still love science.
God has a reason for everything so.. :)

Black, black, black and blue
Beat me till I'm numb
Tell the devil I said "hey" when you get back to where you're from
Mad woman, bad woman,
That's just what you are, yeah,
You'll smile in my face then
Rip the brakes out my car

sounds familiar? it could relate to my life but i'm not as mean as bruo mars. lol.

Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes you did
To give me all your love
Is all I ever asked
Cause what you don't understand is

I'd catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, )
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, )
I'd jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah, )
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, ) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for you baby
But you won't do the same

still, DA SONG IS STUCK IN MAH HEAD.
this is the only bruno mars song i like. :D hope he produces more songs though!

kay. BUHBYE.

2011-01-02T23:59:00.000+08:00

TODAY'S BEEN SUCHA BIPOLAR DAY. IT WAS AWESOME AND SUCKED.

went church in the morning, and finally the 4 of us (me, mer, christie and janene) met up in a long time. the last time 4 of us ever were together was the last lunch before christie left for aussie. but it felt the same, no one's changed :)

after church went to celebrate ahma's bday by eating lunch with the whole family :D
and shane came back from aussie too!!! :D it's been a long time since we saw each other. and nothing's changed as well ;)

after that, oh gosh our house was crazy-ly messy!!! ARGHHH. because mum called some people to paint our walls, so we hopped from ahma's house to our house to ahma's house to our house, and the weather was so hot today it was terrible ;_; i was super tired and had a headache that's whyy.

then when we came home, i was confined to my tiny room with no internet or any form of entertainment T-T and my room was cluttered with things from other rooms coz they were painting only the living room, parents' bedroom and toilets. it was so stuffy and squeezed and i was tired so i became super annoyed and felt super horrible T-T

then they finally left, but we had to clean the house which was super in a mess with furniture everywhere and cables plucked out and oh gosh, it was just terrible.
but all ends well. and we had "dinner" at 10pm.

anyway, the day was really weird and i don't know if it is a good or bad day. but i know i am so confused.

am i to smile because of the moments shared, or am i to cry because you'll depart?
one small action, can mean alot to someone like me.
so what am i supposed to think?
of that you came crashing into my life with all that to leave right after.
what is this?
am i delusional or is this real?
you should stop this foolishness, before others become fooled.

all the little things you do, are not normal. not normal at all.

FIRST DAY OF 2011 YEAHH!!!

2011-01-01T15:43:00.004+08:00

WE ARE OFFICIALLY IN 2011!!! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? ONE FREAKING YEAR HAS PAST.

and let's watch MBC GAYO DAEJUN:

CN BLUE VS FT ISLAND!!! YEAHH!!! hahaha black vs white!

THEN COMES ONEW, JUNSU, LUNA AND IU!!! YAY I'M SO HAPPY JUNSU AND HONGKI SINGING TGT IN ONE STAGE YO!!! junsu~~

KHUNTORIA!!! luckily i'm not a big fan of nickhun, if not i'd be so sad HAHA. BUT THEY'RE AWESOME!!! they'd make a good couple, dancing like that!!! SO COOL!!

I'LL BE BACK IS SO COOL!!! JUNSU B) he should wear what taec is wearing :x xD

TSK I'M SO MAD, THEY SKIP MAH TEUKCHUL MOMENT!!! and that leaves no solo for mah teuk!!! :(( but still, they're dashing :)

SHINEE!! hohoho still the same.. :)

THIS YEAR'S GAYO DAEJUNs, all can't compare to LAST YEAR's! last year's was epic, creative and awesome!!! OH WELL. :)

yesterday was WHEEEE. went to charlotte's house, her end year party again!!! played guitar, sing songs :) then ying yi came, then after awhile her tj friends came. then we played taboo, card game, watch movie, EAT :D and talk hahaha.
it was quite fun, but so sad chel and cia can't come T-T last year was so funny hehehe. anyway, it's so awesome that char still keeps in touch with us throughout this one year :) we shall keep that friendship lasting!
one of her tj friends like JUNSU too, hehehe and faith was there, so we talked abit about MNET concert again and lalala, junsu just kept popping in mah head.
i still remember his handshake okay, i'll never forget. his hand is so soft and warm. ahhh.

haha left char's house at 9 plus then went to church for watchnight. not many people went and i went only cuz CHRISTIE IS BACK!!! and to pass present to meredith hahaha.
gosh, first time seeing christie last night since she left for aussie, and nothing's changed! so it felt like as if she never left. she's really still the same.
so we talked, and yay i'm so happy she's back. church felt empty without her, but me and meredith bonded more haha. anyway, i'm excited to see her again tmr!

okok, enough about the past, LET'S TALK ABOUT THE FUTURE! WE ARE FINALLY IN 2011, AND I AM FINALLY SEC 4. there will be many many things to do this year, it's gonna be hectic and tough but as long as i put my faith in God, i know i can move through this year smoothly.
IF EVERYTHING GOES ACCORDING TO PLAN, THIS YEAR, I HAVE THESE MAJOR EVENTS:
- O levels
- violin GRADE 5 practical exam
- violin GRADE 5 theory exam
- SYF

pretty tough don't ya think? i'm skipping grade 4, and barely covered my grade 3 syllabus, and i'm taking grade 5 exam this year, HOW? and as for theory, I'VE NEVER TAKEN ANY THEORY EXAM BEFORE, and i'm only at the grade 3 book now also. HOW?

whatever it is, i need to plan mah time well this year. i don't wanna end up breaking down everyday lol.

looking back, 2010 was a really hmm, eventful year for me, and i did many things for the first time:
- i pierced mah ears~
- wear contact lens
- dye hair
- went for kpop concerts
- stalked idols in hotels
- first FANSIGN with mah fav idol!
- first time SHAKING HANDS WITH MAH FAV IDOL!!!
- passed grade 3 violin exam with DISTINCTION(one of my goals)
- dance classes
- vocal classes
- first audition
- first time playing in an orchestra
- drank a whole can of beer
- got baptised
- first holy communion
- disneyland?

pretty...interesting? LAST YEAR, was a really big change in my life. i changed. became less hyper with mah friends, became more crazy over idols. LOL.

WELL, i anticipate this year, i hope something interesting happens :D
some goals i shall set for the new year:
- 6 points for o levels!
- distinction for grade 5 violin practical exam
- hone mah musical soul
- be more patient
- be a better friend

YEAH. ok 5 is enough.
HAVE A GREAT NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!

KBS GAYO DAEJUN!

2010-12-31T00:14:00.002+08:00

JUT WATCHED KBS GAYO DAEJUN ON TV!!! KEKEKE AND I HAVE HD BECAUSE WE RECENTLY GOT MIO TV!!! it came with the internet~ OH YEAH BABY!!!

AND I MELTED... oh gosh but they look so uncomfortable wearing the army suits!!! but now even cutie wooyoung looks MANLY. :D AND JUNSU AHHHHHHH MY MOUTH WAS WIDE OPEN THROUGHOUT THE PERFORMANCE OHGOSH I DIDN'T EXPECT THIS AT ALL ^-^ so love this performance!!!

go watch the other performances, on Unknowncarrot 170's channel! i lazy post all. but suju was awesome!!! ok shall post sj.

8D for da first time in mah life, i think that HYUK and KYU are HOT. haha but no one beats TEUK and CHUL in sj ;) THE TEUK LOVE HAS COME BACK! it was sorta drifting ever since junsu shook mah hand. /hopeless

heheheeheheeeeee today is sucha junsu day. srsly. LOL cuz i was spazzing to zhuo en about MNET CONCERT today, and then i went high and all i could think of was junsu while playing mah bells in cca. LOL

then on facebook shermaine tagged a JUNSU pic for me that was taken during MNET CONCERT, KEKEKE. and da memories came floodin back.

and then KBS GAYO DAEJUN, where i see mah awesome junsu! kekeke.

eek i'm srsly high over da JUN K. NOW YO!

should shake outta mah trance.

lunched with yj and jo today, then borrowed books, and went for facial. HAHA first time doing facial, mum's idea~ went with sis. EEK and it was pain but i can bear pain ;)

TMR'S DA LAST DAY OF 2010!!! HOW YA GONNA SPEND IT?
i shall make it a good day.

zzz i'm so tired, ytd slept at 2 plus woke up at 7 UGH UGH.

OH OH OH another thing to add to mah JUN K. fandom, i woke up to his face on mah phone and his voice on mah alarm~~~ actually i woke up to wooyoung's voice -.- totally missed junsu's part in i'll be back!!! tsk.

tsk tsk tsk i wonder how long mah fandom will last. teuk's lasted for like a year, key's lasted for about 6 months...

the only celebrities i went madly in love with were TEUK, KEY AND JUNSU. the rest were small small likes. i'm serious.
LOL. and i see no resemblance in any of them.
idk, i like funny guys. and i like how junsu speaks dialect!

zzz kay. imma stay up awhile den sleep.

GDNIGHT.

TODAY

2010-12-29T23:47:00.003+08:00

WOAH WOAH WOAH.. today should be called "coincidental day" or smth like that.

SO, at first supposed to watch NARNIA with sis at j8 at 12pm, BUT, wtf i woke up at 11.30am, like wtf srsly -.- so we decided to watch the 1pm show at nex!

bus-ed to nex, bought tix, ate lunch and went to watch movie~

THEN, after the movie omg, DEEPA suddenly shout "ESTHER!" then we both turn, and isabel was there too!!! SO WE WERE WATCHING TGT ALL ALONG OMG HAHA super coincidental.

then we went to isabel's cafe there to eat :D brownie and marshmallows on sizzling pan with fudge, and one freaking big jug of lemon tea with mint leaves thingy :D

HAHAHA. wheee, once again, i'm with seniors!

and and an OHMYGOSH FREAKING LOVE NARNIA!!! narnia's always been my favourite, every single narnian movie *hearts* hehehe and thsi one's the best coz it's really SUSPENSE and funny at the same time, and heartwarming sometimes. and it's so adventure-ish!!!
i realise i like movies that involve mythical creatures+magic+all those fantasy things, like spiderwick chronicles, harry potter, narnia ;D

ANYWAY.

THEN THEN THEN, just now we went to ikea for dinner coz mum need to buy some things and OMG we bumped into auntie angie and my cousins and auntie renee, both my dad's sisters OMG hahaha. so coincidental once again!!!

it was really like as if God was planning smth for my sis and me today, to bump into people everywhere we go.. xD

ikea was fun coz my little hyperactive boy cousin started playing catch, and tagged us and run around the furniture like some happy kiddo. HAHAHA. and we ran too.

zzz, came back and missed gayo daejun ;_; i wasn't planning to stream anyway, i always feel that watching uploads is better coz its clearer and you get to choose when you wanna watch :D
and i'm going to watch now!
coz koreans, upload freaking fast.

BYE.

2010-12-29T00:04:00.001+08:00

the past few days were horrible, oh wait, it was only two days, but finally, there's peace, so much peace today.

i feel freed, but the bruises still remain. and they hurt. can't she ever cut her nails? and why must she sractch my left body and not my right?
next time i will use my right side to defend myself. just seeing the bruises on my arms, legs, fingers, and one horrible streak behind my ear, i feel so angry. i feel so hateful.
my left hand, which i depend so badly on in my life, to suffer because of me, it must feel so hurt.
and my left arm, which is still in pain from the pinches. for a scawny person like me, a scratch is like ripping my body apart. that's why i screamed so loudly, because it fucking hurt.

but my anger, hate, and hurt went away the moment she said her heart aches more than these bruises on my body. i was so happy to hear that. why? because she was more hurt than me. i'm sorry, but a child that has been physically abused time and again would develop such a mindset like mine.

you will never know how much it hurts, to have nails dug into your skin until you bleed, hair being tugged until you cry, and being caned continuously, having one BIG TIGHT FUCKING SLAP ACROSS YOUR FACE, your ear being pulled and the back having one long deep fucking scratch, your legs also not escaping the scratches and fucking pinches.

you know how fucking hurt i felt? physically, emotionally. and it's all because i asked one question.

and after the beatings, she throws my things and confiscates them.
until today, yes, she returned them.
and yes, she became so nice, so nice, to me.
and i was nice to her.

but you know what? i will never forget all the beatings i received, and all the pain i felt. wrong i may be, but she's more wrong than me. everyone who knows her will know what kind of a person she is. and she's not nice. not nice at all.

i questioned myself time and again why am i so defensive towards people sometimes. after that day, i realised, maybe, maybe these bruises made me who i am.

this is the first time i've been beaten up this year i think. but when i was in primary school,oh, you'd wish you weren't me. and the worst thing is, i get beaten before school starts, and go to school with a pinch bruise on my arm for the world to see.

but it's ok. it's ok now. i just needa watch junsu and i'll be happy as ever :)

and i was just watching

it's been more than a year since this song. time flies.

so funny haha someone actually compiled the endings xD

oh gosh i love 2pm T-T

8D jaebum. haha i think if jaebum still stayed in 2pm, he'd be my 2nd fav cos he's so funny on wild bunny haha.

eek junsu's coffee date!!!:)

kekeke ok wait, just in case you were wondering, i'm not bipolar :)
i know this post is angry yet happy.

eek. i'm normal. BYE.

2010-12-26T13:01:00.002+08:00

the verse that i picked for my baptism was being preached about today, by the pastor who baptised me yesterday! so cool haha.

i picked that verse because it comforts me, because i used it during the toughest moments in life, but i didn't really think about the words until pastor talked about it today. "I can do everything through Him who strengthens me", it meant EVERYTHING, and nothing is beyond this scope. i didn't think about that, and now i feel happy knowing this promise is so great. and i didn't know there is also a song with this verse in it!

i took part in my first Holy communion today! i didn't know it was real wine that they used! haha so cool, i feel so happy.

i'm so glad i got baptised this christmas, because next year, i wouldn't be baptised by the same pastor. pastor's stepping down, and i feel sad :( he is a great pastor! and makes sermons interesting :) but God knows, and God has plans for everyone.

God is great, and we share secrets :) small little reasons to things that happen in my life only God and i know. as in, i think i know some. and i'm happy :)

you know, what am i doing here? on this sunday afternoon, i'm alone at home. i refuse to go out, after coming back from church. i feel like i'm on this path alone (physically alone, because i know God's with me. ) it's so hard to tell anyone anything sometimes, and i end up feeling so hurt inside. i realise i'm actually so sensitive, and i always try to put up a strong front. it's not that i don't trust my friends, i just don't know what to say, why am i always feeling so hurt.

hurt. always finds it's way back to me.

i wanna wish you a merry christmas~

2010-12-25T18:55:00.003+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!! i've said it so many times today ^-^ and i still can't get enough of it!!! kekeke SO, went to church this morning and...

I GOT BAPTISED!!! YAY I'M SO HAPPY!!! :DDD and and and joanne, yunjie, my parents, my sis, my grandma, my aunt and cousins came to witness it!!! so happy!!! hehehe my grandma's so nice, she wrote me a note and gave me extra presents last night to congratulate my baptism! haha make my sis jealous ;P

WHEEEE i've finally affirmed my faith in Jesus Christ, and what better way than to do it on Christmas day, Jesus's birthday? hehehe i feel like going swimming now that i've been immersed. i like it ;D

hmm, this year not so many people in church :( and meredith and christie are far away from me ;( first christmas spent without each other's company..

still, i love today! :) after church i went to yunjie's church with joanne! city harvest church! 2nd time going there, and it's still so big XD their service also more interesting haha ;)

after that came back home! and watched music core and christmas videos! so here's my love to everyone:

2PM- LAST CHRISTMAS!! from last year xD but specially for this festive season! JUNSU STARTS THE SONG, AND I'M SO HAPPY FOR THAT ^-^ and he said 'let's go!" somewhere in the middle!! AHHHHH melts. MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

JYP NATION- THIS CHRISTMAS!!! wheeeee i'm annoyed that min gets her solo but junsu doesn't D; but it's ok, ENJOY!!!

SHINEE!!! the creator of the video kindly compiled everything about shinee & christmas!!! enjoY!!!

now music core:

SISTAR!!! all i want for christmas...is YOU!!! love this song ;)

MY LOVES!!! hehee

MY LOVES TOO!!! :)))

LOVE HOW THEY DID A SMALL transition!!! hehehe and ohgosh key's so cute and onew's so hot!!! WOAHHOHOHO!!! awesome performance!

FELIZ NAVIDAD!!! CN BLUE!!! yonghwa's pronnounciation is not bad!!!

JINGLE BELL ROCK!!! i can hear junsu's voice~~~

super junior, snsd, big bang wishes you a merry christmas too!!! :)

once again, MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

all i want for christmas... is YOU! :)

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

2010-12-25T00:40:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!
it's been a slow day, made cookies with jie for half a day, and went grandma's house for CHRISTMAS DINNER just now ;)

SO SWEET I LOVE IT!!! DONGWOON keeps closing his eyes haha but he's so into the song!! DUJUN's voice is sexy :DDD and whee they're playing pianos!!! hehe love how they bring out the emotions of the song :) so awesome, MAH FAV PAIRING IN BEAST!!!

today is finally JYP NATION concert!!! i'm so jealous of miss a /they get to perform with 2pm, so lucky, somemore they just debut. ahh lucky girls, with junsu. and they get to spend christmas tgt!!! so lucky!!!

anyway, was kinda stressed just now UGHHHH my dad did smth to my laptop and i was so pissed.. he doesn't know how to change it back and it's really annoying!!! then suddenly my *ahem* come, UGHHHH. i hope it's like a false alarm or smth. and i still had many things to do before the night ends.

but all's well now, except mah laptop's still screwed UGHHHH.

joanne cheered me up HEHE.

kay imma sleep. getting baptised tmr, must wake up early!!!
i'm so essited!! wheeeee

and i hope everything goes well tmr, after all, it's a MERRY CHRISTMAS!

CHRISTMAS EVE~~

2010-12-24T01:19:00.003+08:00

HELLO :)

HAY IT'S 1.23AM NOW!! kekeke MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE!!! imma make this short.

went for MOB concert at ARTS HOUSE!!! before that met with handbellers to eat dinner at raffles city :)

we were late for the concert -.- we went in after the first song D; and made a fool of ourselves zomg cos the place is so complicated and we walked straight into the centre of attraction, there wasn't even a stage for the handbellers so we were walking like right past them and in front of the speaker and all that T-T

anyway, we had to walk out and walk in by the 3rd floor and sit there. SHEESH. the songs were okay okay, somehow i think our arts fest performance was way better than them... idk, i mean, it sounds nice, but if they made it look nice, if they had a stage or something orderly, it would've been way better. anyway, the songs itself are not that great.

they played "under the sea" though! and it reminded me of us playing that song.. lol.. MOB=ministry of bellz, they should be better than us~

mrs aw was a guest conductor, and we talked to her outside! she couldn't really recognise me, but after i told her i played the bongos she remembered. HEHE i think i look different from last year so..
she conducted a song called "a thousand winds" and i was thinking back to the times when she conducted for us, and i kinda felt tears well up but lol just abit(also bcos the song was quite nice, if it was in a minor key it'd be sad)and i remember all the scoldings particularly I HAD, ME, EVERY SESSION.. i was so fearful to go cca back then.

yeah anyway, oh i was happy that they played 'santa claus is coming to town" at the end!! with percussion etc HEHEHE.

after the concert me, chel and yj went ORCHARD ROAD~~~ and see beautiful nightlights and christams trees and live bands, and more buskers, and also the CCIS booths :D and roman soldiers walking around the roads! WHEEEE took pics~
I LOVE LOVE LOVE IT!!! the shopping malls should blast christmas carols, and it'd be perfect~~~

other than orchard road, no where reminds me of christmas when i was young. idk, this year somehow there's no christmasy feel. maybe as we grow older we snap out of our happy bubbles and become less child-like. lol whut eem i sayin'?

i'm not sleepy. THEN LET'S GET "HIGH HIGH" WITH G-D & TOP!!!

still can't deal with TOP's hair :/ kay G-D looks kinda weird too. eek i've never been a big bang fan, i shall continue to look up to them..

whut am i waitin for? you?
why? thought ya wure long gone.
just stay that way. away from me.. i had enuf

HAPPY DONG ZHI!

2010-12-22T14:40:00.003+08:00

spent the morning making TANG YUAN!!! from scratch ;D because today's "dong zhi", chinese christmas..
TA DA:

being playful, i messed the tang yuan up :B

HEHEHE there's an odd one, white & pink colour, can you see it? :P

JUNSU -heart-

G-Dragon -heart-

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! this is a christmas tree ;D

after cooking it :D

wheeee~ it became my lunch.
RAWR i loathe my laptop for not reading ZIP files >:( getting music now.
BUH BYE.

everytime i'm missing you

2010-12-22T00:32:00.002+08:00

HELLO :)

today doojoon and dongwoon released a duet "my story" and the lyrics are so sweet T-T the whole melody though, i feel, is not to my liking :X but i still love it since its DOOWOON!!! MA FAV PAIRING IN BEAST!! and i like both of them ^-^

went cycling today, WHEEEEEE. love the wind blowing on my face.

Look at my eyes
You see my eyes
You see my lips
Listen to my heart
If you're listening answer me
Kiss me on the cheek
My memories
Yes my heart
Yes that be all I say
If our lovingness continues a lot
Then we'll never break up, trust me
I'll make love to you

Every time I come close to you
(every time I'm kissing you)
Feel like I'm gonna dream every time
( I get butterly)

-from butterfly

~~ so sweet, g-dragon :D

watched "Oh! my school" today on KBS and HONGKI WAS SO SWEET!! he took the punishment for the girl instead and kneeled outside with his hands up. AWW so nice!!
my love for him has been coming back, ever since i dreamed of him...

currently i'm luving junsu, hongki and g-dragon!!! i feel so bad, liking so many at once KYAHHAA. /hopeless

you know you can never get over someone you thought of fondly, no matter how long it has been, how short the memories were?
why? doesn't the heart know that the human wants to stop?
weird.

gosh ok i feel like sleeping. it's coming to 1am.
sweet dreams.

butterfly~ G-D

2010-12-21T00:25:00.002+08:00

KEKEKE EVERYONE GO WATCH THIS!!! this is the first part of the show feat. 2PM!!!
i watched the remaining parts last night and couldn't stop laughing!! HAHAHA okay, and i'm so happy junsu talked so much and was the most featured in this episode xD

actually you can tell he's funny just by looking at him right? i thought he was funny from the start, hehe and he's secretly funny in some videos, just people don't see, and that's why i (like) him HAHA, because he's funnyy.

lalala. went cycling yesterday! and it was so tough, we cycled up steep slopes and i kept enduring it, it felt so horrible like jogging, but i persevered! hehe anyway the reward is that you get to SWOOOOSH down after that :D

there was one morning in hong kong when my mum suddenly called our room and told us 2PM were on MTV. and we immediately woke up and on the tv HAHA but then aiyah, it ended already -.- but it was effective in waking us up, cos she kept calling but we kept sleeping after the calls HAHA. anyway, instead, we woke up to G-DRAGON'S BUTTERFLY :

and i really LOVED it. i don't really like G-D, but this song is different from his other songs, and i like this type of music!! and the MV too!!
and he looks really cute here xD he kinda looks like hongki..

speaking of hongki, i dreamt of him last night, i dreamt that he piggy backed me!!! and he sang LOVE LOVE LOVE while doing that -.- but i know i was so happy. still, it's so random!! i also dreamt two other people piggy backed me, haha but i shall not say who :X sigh, don't wanna dream of idiots.

okay back to G-D. in the past i used to look up to him, as an artiste i like his style, kinda eccentric, his MVs. but now i kinda like him :D abit.
i think about music and artistes i know everyday. and i personally feel that G-D is musically talented. like FT ISLAND. among korean artistes i think i'd rank both of them on top for quality music~
hehehe.

why am i so... idk, i've been thinking alot. really. about music, friends, myself.
friends, have i lost one of them? i don't wanna lose you, just in case you think that i don't care, i do. i'm not gay but yeah, my life feels weird without you.
it's when you feel that something's missing that you know that person actually means something to you.
so yeah, you mean something to me. i hope we talk soon.

GDNIGHT. it's coming to 1am, imma sleep!

2010-12-20T14:19:00.002+08:00

PHEW!!! FINALLY! i was editting the new blogskin hehe i changed the font sizes and font families :PPP now it looks nicer :D i credit the person who created this anyway..

i didn't delibrately wanted to put 2PM as my blogskin, but i found it so :P haha i think i'l change it soon though -.-

lalala. i'm uploading my hong kong pics on fb now..

IT'S (so fly like) YONG JUNHYUNG'S B'DAY YO!

2010-12-19T20:28:00.005+08:00

HEHEHEEEE D; they cut short NO OTHER so much :(( but nvm, it's not their time to perform anyway! memories come flooding back... TEUKCHUL!!

it's mirrored D;

so watch BEAUTIFUL HERE:

DONGWOON AND YOSEOB ARE SO SWEET!!! prepare stuff to promote JUNHYUNG'S birthday!! HEHEHE SO NICE!! junhyung was so happy ahahah!!
and i wished him happy birthday last night!! WHEEEE on twitter :D

CHURCH!
had baptism "interview" today. it's not really interview, but it wasn't so good. anyway, they still "passed" me, since they signed on my paper. MEANS I'M GETTING BAPTISED ON SATURDAY!!! christmas day! :D i'm excited~

the kind of life i want, is tough, is stupid, is weird.
i have split personalities.

i'm the type of person. that likes to do things different from the rest. that's why sometimes i feel so idiot, but most of the time i still do it. that's why some people think i don't care. HEHEHE. but sometimes i feel that i'm doing it the wrong way~~

bleh, anyway, i wanna be someone great when i grow up. not in an infamous way. i wanna be like... (that woman). no, even better than (her).

ah well, but i shall see what God has in store for me :D ~~~ i think i know, idk. at least i know i was meant to do something. not just anything, but something.

afterall, i'm the 1 percent.

2010-12-17T22:20:00.003+08:00

YO!

hehehe went NEX yesterday with jie and vijaya cos vijaya wanted to pass me something, so we ate at pizza hut, and walked around. :D

AND AND AND hehehe, VISITED ISABEL AT WORK!!! xD at first me and jie stood outside her cafe, then can't spot her, then we went away first. then after lunch selina said she was there, so we went to her workplace again and spotted selina and her friend (also sec 4 from our school), and they were about to go in the cafe so we joined them HAHA.

the food is quite ex lor, that's why we didn't go in at first, but HAHA anyway, so funny, so isabel served us HAHAH MUAHAHAHA!!! she took our orders :P

and and and then suddenly i spotted ENRICA!!! ahaha another senior~ i forgot they said before she worked there too. hehehe!!!

anyway, so i was in a cafe with 4 other sec 4s and 2 of my seniors serving~
the cafe qutie nice lor, haha they so lucky got that job.

then jie bought shoes for tonight's prom night!

yeah, she's out now. just now felicia (her classmate) came to our house and they put on makeup etc to get ready for prom night~

i had violin class today. OMGGG the grade 5 exam pieces are killer man. i saw them, so many freaking bloody semi quavers and i even spotted demi semi quavers T-T

for someone who hasn't even completed the basic grade 3 book(which i should have before i took grade 3 exam), this will be tough. my teacher now keeps saying "HOW CAN YOU HAVE TAKEN YOUR GRADE 3 EXAM WITHOUT FINISHING THE GRADE 3 BOOK?! ALL MY STUDENTS FINISH BEFORE THEIR EXAM!!!"

then i say "but i could play, and i got DISTINCTION!!"
muahaha i'm so proud of myself, for not learning before i took the exam and still get DISTINCTION~ which i bet those who actually finished studying did not get :P

I'M SO PRO!!! neh neh hehehe anyway, skipping grade makes it worse. now i have to complete the rest of grade 3, 4, and 5 books in one year?! but i think my teacher wants to skip that? cos anyway i proved i could play what.

it's so funny, now i'm learning "third position" but i already played it for my exam scales. HAHA.

anyway, tmr got violin class again. at first mum wanted us to go for some church thingy but i really didn't want to go cos she keep forcing me and giving me that threatening look. i hate it when she does that, it makes me go against her.
and she finally let me not go~ and she's not even angry~ she's finally thinking, yeah, violin class is more important?! i gave my teacher alot of trouble, this month every week cannot go.. then keep changing the dates.

OHOH MUSIC BANK TODAY WAS FREAKING GOOD.

WITHOUT YOU 2PM!! JUNSU IN RED, CHANNIE'S HAIR?! AND JUNSU KEPT LOOKING AT THE CAMERA AND SMILING!!! *melts*

SHINEE!!! taemin looks like a GURL omgg eee, key's smexy, wassup with jjong?, onew's HOT, minho's HOT HOT.

KEY LOOKS GAY, KIKWANG'S STILL MAN, KWANGHEE I DON'T CARE. y key no mickey?

kinda like son dambi :D

FT ISLAND!!! HONGKI'S HAIR :D HONGKI'S VOICE! SEUNGHYUN! JONGHUN'S GLASSES. keke

SUJU!!! TEUKCHUL MOMENT NO UNFF :( CHUL WORE SHADES :( but the song overall brought back memories! :D AND CHUL'S HAIR IS a nono..

DUJUN'S SPOCK! DONGWOON'S BLONDE. JUNHYUNG'S HOT. wheeeee

kay, needa practice violin. eek must wake up so early tmr UGH UGH UGHHHHH. and my mum told my teacher I WANNA GO FOR LESSON zomg no. (i just don't wanna go church :x)
BLEH.

BYE.

HONG KONG TRIP!!

2010-12-15T23:02:00.002+08:00

HELLO :)

WE'RE BACK FROM HONG KONG!!!

shall type a summary of what happened.

11/12:
spent whole day at airport/aeroplane.. nicole(from 2pm fanmeet) saw me at changi airport HAHAHA!!! apparently we were flying off the same day and around the same time, and our gate no. is beside each other!! cool~

hmm, we reached hotel at night, i forgot what time. then we went to eat supper~ first hong kong meal~~~ hong kong food-big bowls of meaty noodles~ :D i like their small food roadside shops hehehe

AND OMG LOVE THE NIGHTLIGHTS/ LIGHTED UP SHOP BOARDS!!!

btw, we were at KOWLOON ISLAND. not HONG KONG ISLAND. yeah parents bluffed. we were not in hong kong T-T

12/12:
went SHOPPING the whole day!!! not so fun though, cos the place we went the streets were ALL FREAKING BRANDED SHOPS. bought face masks at H&M though HAHAHA.
walking around the big outlets was fun, but not shopping was boring..

went to the "avenue of stars"(stars meaning idols) and roamed around there/the sea when we got bored of freaking shopping. passed by the museum too.

around mid afternoon, we went to MONGKOK/ladies street!!! another shopping area, thankfully it's our type of fashion. WHEE bought stuff.

ate dinner at some nice hong kong style place.

and we sat on the MTR (which in singapore is MRT)!!! so fun HEHE!!!

13/12:
we changed hotel to one at HONG KONG ISLAND, also near ocean park. :) nicer than the first hotel!!!

OCEAN PARK!!! it wasn't fun though.. it was kinda old, and scary because of the BIG BIG PICTURES OMG.. i think i overcame my fears man. the fun thing was that we watched a show at the "ocean theatre"!!! IT WAS DOLPHINS/SEALS!!! HEHEEH the love of those animals back :)

umm, we didn't ride any rides, COS THEY LOOKED SCARY. there weren't many though.
and the tourists (i think from china idk) were so annoying O.O if singaporeans have no manners, idk what those people are. they seriously keep pushing and they don't care if they step on you/push you or what. actually it's only those ajummas walau. and they talk so loud.

other than those annoying women, it was quite interesting i guess. OH we saw many underwater fishes!!! interesting ones!!! some weird fishes with weird big eyes, stingrays, turtles, BIG FISHES, LIKE SUPER BIG and stuff. there were 3 levels of that big tank hehe.

OH OH OH WE SAW PANDAS!!! WHEEEEEEE ma fav part yo~ (actually cuz junsu likes pandas )XD HAHAHA there was a cute creature idk what it is but it was with the pandas. it's orangey though :D

and we took a cable car to get across to another side of ocean park haha.

OHOH after ocean park we went shopping again!!! at causeway bay! we walked there from hotel haha, it was super long walk. AND WE SAT ON THE TRAM!!! it's really cool, we took a random tram and sat all the way to the end thinking it loops but nooooo, so we took another random one and rode back to our original spot lmao haha.

14/12:
we changed hotel again, and this is the grandest of the 3 hotels we stayed at!!! plus 10min away from airport. haha.

DISNEYLAND!!! OHMYFREAK IT'S DAMN FREAKING AWESOME OMGGGGGG I LOVE DISNEYLAND!!!

OF ALL THE THINGS I WANTED TO DO, I WANTED TO RIDE THE BUZZ LIGHTYEAR RIDE I SAW ON TV A FEW YEARS AGO!!! i still remember watching it on tv and thought it was awesome.

AND I GOT TO RIDE IT!!! WE WERE SUPPOSED TO KILL THE ENEMY'S ARMY!!! he comes from planet Z, that guy rmb? buzz's enemy!

the best part of disneyland was FANTASYLAND (the princesses land) hehe we rode on the horses on the ride, the kiddy ride it was awesome, i love it! and madhatter's tea cups which jie scream like crazy.

apparently idk why but me and jie end up being first of our batch to go on the rides when we queue up HAHA.

the second best part was the "IT'S A SMALL WORLD" ride!!! i saw it on tv too, people singing that song, but idk what it was, AND IT TURNED OUT TO BE MARVELOUS OMGGG!!!

IT WAS A BOAT RIDE THROUGH DIFFERENT COUNTIRES AND THE LITTLE DOLLS SINGING THAT SONF IN DIFF LANGUAGES!!! the whole surroundings and the figurines were the highlights, although omg i was so scared of the tribal one cos it was a painting thingy that was freaking big and look like the toilet type of drawing T-T

in disneyland there was also so many big pictures that scared me T-T

but apparently i wasn't scared of mascots anymore!!! HEHEHE but jie is -.- idk why though.

tarzan'a treehouse was interesting too!!! and of course the highlight was THE FIREWORKS!!
at 8pm FIREWORKS will come out of SLEEPING BEAUTY'S CASTLE!!!

people were sitting in front of the castle way before time and some annoying woman wanted me to sit down but i didnt then she pulled my bag and my mum and her fought by shouting. she was really annoying and there was no space to sit down anyway!!! and she pretend she's wheelchair bound when she was standing and walking perfectly fine..

anyway, i still enjoyed the fireworks with music, and it was REALLY REALLY A BLAST!!! after the whole show i told that woman "I CAN SUE YOU FOR HARRASSING ME" heh heh in that bitch's face! i walked off before she could say anything.

15/12:
ate buffet breakfast at hotel and OMG walau we thought it ends at 11, but it ends at 10 and me and jie went down at 10 -.- luckily mum and dad went earlier so we grabbed all the food and slowly ate past 10 hehehe.

after that, mum and dad wanted to split D; me and jie hard to decide what to do...
in the end, mum went SHOPPING with jie, i went MOUNTAIN CLIMBING with dad.

haha actually not climbing lah, we took cable car to the mountain peaks!!! and took loads of pics on the 25 min journey there. i tell you, my legs were jelly at first it's so freaking high up okay.. and the cable car moves fast at times omggg..

dad had fun with his DSLR finally his time to have fun HAHA. while i stuck to my tiny camera. should've taken jie's HOLGA when she wanted to lend me tsk.
my dad and sis love photography, so we have like 2 DSLRs, a HOLGA, and many small cameras that i use hehe.

umm, oh on the mountains there was a village called NGONG PING VILLAGE!! dad and i hanged around there for awhile, went for a "walking with buddha" show (which i strongly don't believe in), and took pics! and walau there's SUBWAY and STARBUCKS in the middle of the mountains?!?! /facepalm can't stand it you know. mountains also have this type of thing..

we had to check out by one, so we left the village at 12.30, haha and cable car-ed back!!! reached the station at 1 on the dot, but still had to walk to hotel.
LUCKILY, CABLE CAR WAS CONNECTED TO SHOPPING CENTRE CONNECTED TO OUR HOTEL HAHA.

checked out, went mall to eat, but i shopped with mum instead hehe and then went airport at 2 by hotel bus.
hanged around hotel, flight at 4pm, reached here around 8 plus with delayed flight.

YAWNSSS. can't believe i'm awake still!!!

i enjoyed HONG KONG alot!!! i like the food and the nightlights there hehe. but then, everyday without fail MUM will SCOLD ME. for any reason omgg. at ocean park, at disneyland, when we shop, when we eat, when we're in our rooms (jie and i had one room, parents another, BUT, mum calls in so often omggg)...

i can't communicate with my mum, really. i find her annoying, and she scolds me for everything.
BLEH. but other than her, the trip was fun!!

hohoho and half the time i wished junsu was there... at ocean park, at disneyland, on the cable car..

one time

2010-12-09T11:02:00.005+08:00

is it blur? aiggo haha it's so cute!!! 2PM MACROS FTW!!!

kekeke the focus is junsu!

can't get enough of DA JUNSU~

somehow, justin bieber's ONE TIME keeps playing in my head last night till today, and i didn't even listen to it!!! i never even heard the song properly before!!! -.-

anyway, yesterday was a mixture of emotions...

it was a good experience :)

went with selina, saw su wai, virtually saw chloe (sms) haha and tiffany and her cousin. waited super long, at least there was air con in the room. made friends with a boy who's 1.5 years younger than me but was more mature than me -.- it so happened he was before me so we talked. :D

since we had like half a day to wait, we practiced tgt, me, selina and the boy. it was good that we did that.

just before our turn came, isabel, ldr shu min and chermaine came!!! wah haha all seniors.

but i wasn't nervous. i told myself it was not time to be scared!

i was first in my batch to start. it was good, i didn't chicken out, but guess this is not my chance. it's ok, it's not really what i wanted anyway.

it would've been good though, if i made it.

people around me were confident that i could make it. because they seemed to look for people like me. someone even said i was unique~ haha but it's ok. God has other plans for me then.

anyway, after that went to orchard with selina and isabel!!! ate dinner and walk walk. and ate ice cream that was OMGGG. and we saw nightlights and christmas trees!!! love the nightlights. they should blast christmas music. i wanna be in the christmas mood.

looks like my junsu date's gotta wait. HAHA.

rawr. i wonder when i'll get over junsu.

just like how i got over teuk/key/jinwoon/doojoon/heechul(why did i even like him).

they were my top 5 right!!! yeah yeah!!

HOHOHO HAHAHA.

i'm crazyyy. i just want junsu.

i'm gonna go every time we have this opportunity, since i've experienced it, and make it in!

i think right, i may be hua xin, but i won't two time in a relationship~

oh ya we finshed watching PRINCESS PROSECUTOR!!! me and my mum. HAHA. it's freaking awesome.

I WILL DO IT!

2010-12-07T10:48:00.002+08:00

HELLO :)

i'm still in love with 2pm, and of course junsu :)

everytime i see his signature i feel so happy :) i can't believe it happened, i can't believe this is true. it felt so impossible, but now it's ever so real.

for me, as long as i am determined i'll get something, will do anything for it, and just trust in God, i'll get it!!! but if i don't get it, it's God's plan :D

we don't always succeed in life, but somehow i feel tmr's my calling.

fit the pieces together, like in princess prosecutor, and i see, this is my life.

i feel ready, and i'm not going to be scared. tomorrow, i'll trust in God, i will not worry or be anxious, because i have God with me!

and i'll do my best, i'm determined.

this is the side of me. the strong side.
that you will see.

the biggest chance so far. and it seems like God has planned everything out for me.
whatever the outcome is tomorrow, i know for sure God is there and is always there for me.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

my da ju jiu (1st uncle) from my mum's side came back from USA a few days ago!!! he didn't bring my cousins along though :((( but we had family dinner at quality hotel on sunday night and last night went ahma's house to celebrate his birthday!

so sad only got me and my older boy cousin, and the rest are adults! but anyway, nothing much haha. and my older cousin TOOK A PIC WITH BEAST AND 4MINUTE DURING THE YOG OMGGGGGGGG he said he was supposed to find more people!!! if only i talked to him about kpop earlier!!! HAHA

but yay he says next time he got this chance again he'll tell me :DDD haha i was spazzing about MNET and 2PM to him xDDD farenheit too! kekeke saw farenheit on tv channel 8 sunday night and they sang "xin teng ni de xin teng", my fav song!!! but their dancing... kinda not so good.

and they singing also abit... weird. HAHA but they still got many fans.

okayy!!! BYE

MNET ULTIMATE LIVE IN ASIA!

2010-12-05T16:26:00.010+08:00

HELLO! HAHAHA okay i'm back and ready to spam my blog with my MNET ULTIMATE LIVE IN ASIA CONCERT FAN ACCOUNT~

okay, so after 2PM'S FANMEET, slept at like 12plus am, and woke up the next morning at 7am to get ready to queue for MNET!!! i've never felt so alive before, i still can't believe i managed to get out of bed!

/sidetrack/ i had a dream of joong ki coming to our church and i treated him the way i wanted to treat junsu! like squealing, but i managed to say "sarangheyo" haha which i didn't say to junsu :( and we ate lunch tgt?! i also dreamt that dongwoon came to our church but he was crying D; so random.. another star came too, i forgot who..

OKAY, so woke up at 7am, got ready, left house at 8 plus with sis, cabbed to MBS and cut into the queue with selina and shu min! haha people didn't mind, and the girl behind us went for 2pm's fanmeet and she kept smiling at me~ so it was good.

the queue was freaking long, but somehow i think we got into the next 1000 after the first 1000 that got the coloured tags to go in earlier. and we just got in by a close shave! very lucky.
we got moved into EXPO HALL B, where they will stamp our tickets with UV stamp, and we must leave the place and come back at 1.30pm.

after we got stamped, we went to eat lunch at the food court there. it's freaking big and expensive! but the food's good lah haha. then after that, we went back earlier, and guess what? they already let people in at like 12 plus!!! we discovered when we recognised some people who were with us. so we went in, and they said we were "row 4", and there were alot of fans already -.- so we hopped rows and went behind row 2 haha. and luckily we did that!

let's see, more people joined us. there were me, my sis, selina, shu min, jia xin, faith, her friend, tiffany and her friends, reena and her friends! haha so many people, but in the end we didn't stand tgt. also met the friends i made from 2pm fanmeet! we talked and exchange numbers! :D

from 1.30pm onwards, we were to sit in expo hall b until 5.30pm! so we stoned, talked, went toilet, eat snacks, read storybook, sleep etc.
from 4.30pm, the coloured tags people started moving though.

okay so it became our turn to move in, and WOOHOO it was okay. the hall is very big and we managed to stand freaking near. like 5 human rows from the front of the first stage!!! but of course, people could die, it's really packed.
they showed all the artistes MVs on the big screen and small screens, and people were already screaming.. finally, at about 6.1opm, THEY SHOWED MBLAQ'S VIDEO OF THEIR NAMES INDIVIDUALLY COMING OUT!!

THEN, THE FREAKING SCREEN WENT UP, AND 5 HOT GUYS STOOD THERE. EVERYONE IMMEDIATELY SCREAMED AND PUSHED AND WE ALMOST DIED. BUT YEAH MANN!!!

now i shall spaz for each group in order of appearance as much as i can remember:

MBLAQ
they sang "OH YEAH" first, then "Y", then self-intro, then they did solo performances.
seungho, joon and G.O. sang a song (i think its them), then thunder did a solo song which was oh major good, then G.O. sang a really SWEET SONG i heard before its a love song and i love that song, then JOON DANCED LIKE A BALLERINA OMG HE'S SO FLEXIBLE REALLY PRO, and MIR DANCED YO, and RAPPED i think.
seungho also danced solo i think, and after that THEY ALL PERFORMED "ONE BETTER DAY" AND I WAS SO HAPPY I LOVE THAT SONG AHHH!!! that was also their last stage ;(

okay MIR ABSOLUTELY LOVES OUR SIDE SO MUCH!!! HE KEPT COMING HERE, LOOKING HERE, AND SOMETIMES HE HESITATES BUT EVENTUALLY SMILES AND WAVES/POINTS AT US!!! I KEPT WAVING AT HIM AND MADE A HEART FOR HIM!!! /because he looks like hongki/ haha i'm half serious about that.
AND JOON'S REALLY HOT YEAHH!!!
for once also, I THOUGHT THAT G.O. WAS HANDSOME!!! really different from computer, he looked really different real life like skinnier and prettier?!?! at first i couldn't recognise him!!!

MISS A
there wasn't much screaming, thank God, and not much pushing here. it was easy to see them cos no one was blocking much, and i didn't have to tiptoe much too.
they sang "BREATHE", some random song (i think), then self-intro, then danced to lady gaga's poker face (WHICH WAS AWESOME YO!!!), then there was a video of SUZY (who didn't make it here), and after that solo performances!!
MIN danced, FEI sang (and oh gosh it sounds out of tune but she's my fav!), and SEXY JIA DANCED YO!!

i became a MISS A fangirl after all their performances. i was just thinking, oh gosh they are really talented and amazing and i'm not exaggerating. in fact, i used to not like them lol. especially min. she's still my least fav though HAHA. but min's good at talking.

their last stage was of course, "BAD GIRL GOOD GIRL" and i loved it! haha cos we can sing along the SHUT UP part kekeke.

2AM
PEOPLE STARTED MOVEING NEARER THE STAGE AFTER MBLAQ, IDK HOW BUT THERE WAS SPACE.

THEY SANG "even if i die i can't let you go", "confession of a friend", "I DID WRONG" (OH YEAHH MY FAV YEAH!!!), "NO. 1" (the sec 4s went crazy cos mrs lim always played it for geog lessons xD), and a few more ballads i think.

half of the time they went to the other stage, where we can't see at all except on the screens, which was a bummer cos JIN WOON LOOKED FREAKING HOT ON THE SCREEN AND I SHOUTED "JIN WOON"!!! AND THE PEOPLE AROUND ME LAUGHED XD HAHA because i was like "oh jin woon!!!" everytime he sang at our stage, i'll shout "JIN WOON" and selina had to cover her ears xD

hmm, oh FOR ONCE AGAIN, I THOUGHT JO KWON WAS HANDSOME!! LIKE G.O. he looked like a man yesterday, finally. but HAHA HE DANCED ABRACADABRA, HOOT AND SOME OTHER GIRL GROUP DANCES FOR ONE BALLAD.

AND WALAU THEY GAVE TEDDY BEARS TO FANS!! 4 LUCKY FANS OH AND I DIDN'T GET IT :(
i'm happy they did 'I DID WRONG" at our stage, cos i really love that song!!! WOOHOO

let's see, seulong kept looking at our side since he was standing nearest to us, and saw us wave at him! BUT I WAS WAVING AT JINWOON WHO'S AT THE OTHER SIDE -.-
it was then that i really hoped JUNSU will stand near our side later.

BEAST
i was kinda blocked for beast's performances!!! after 2AM went back in, PEOPLE STARTED MOVING FORWARD AGAIN!!! and i moved too, but argh blocked!!!
DUJUN WAS STANDING AT THE OTHER END, AND I WAS RATHER SAD, BUT DONGWOON WAS AT OUR SIDE!!!

they performed "special" (oh gosh i didn't know this song existed), and dujun stood at our side!!, then they self-intro and OUR ADORABLE MAKNAE DONGWOON TALKED ALOT!!!
yoseob was so cute because BEAST thanked everyone for coming, then he added "ESPECIALLY THOSE WHO CHEERED FOR YOSEOB" AND DID A CUTE FACE TO US HAHA!!!

after self-intro, they performed "SOOM" !!! AND OMG DUJUN I SAW HIM BREATHING SMACK IN FRONT OF ME YO!!! you know the "BREATHE IN BREATHE OUT" PART, HE WAS BREATHING IN FRONT OF ME AND I SAW HIS BODY HAHAHA!!!
dujun, the other reason why i went for mnet!

AND JUNHYUNG WAS HOT TOO!!! i kept shouting for DUJUN, JUNHYUNG AND DONGWOON!!! kekeke after SOOM, they sang OASIS on the other stage, then came back for
"MYSTERY" AND SAW THEIR HEADS DO THE TURNING THING!!!

the last performance was "BEAUTIFUL"!!!
OH YEAH THAT MADE MY DAY AHHHH I LOVE BEAUTIFUL AND THEY PERFORMED IT!!! AND THEY BEST THING IS, THE "DUJUN,DONGWOON,YOSEOB" MOMENT WAS AT MY FREAKING SIDE!!! in front of me!!! AND I SAW DUJUN AND DONGWOON INTERACTION, MY FAV MOMENT!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHH loved it!!!
AND JUNHYUNG SINGING "TAKE MY HAND AND FLY!!" i sang along with him!!! oh hehehe

2PM
needless to say, everyone moved freaking forward once the screen went down!!! and i somehow got pushed freaking front next to charlotte(friend from 2pm fanmeet), so she sort of took care of me!! HAHA and my other side were fanboys who were tough, can't push them!!

anyway, i'm so relieved i wasn't blocked much at my current position because i moved :)
when the screen went up, they sat on chairs so we couldn't see them yet. they were singing something i forgot!!

but when they stood up they sang "DON'T STOP CAN'T STOP"!!! and i sang along!!!
then they sang other songs like "angel" where they wore angel wings!!!
and "only you" where they threw flowers and wooyoung was throwing at our side!! he threw lollipops too!! junsu was near me but so sad i didn't get it :( but i love "ONLY YOU"!!!

they did a self-intro and junsu said he LIVED IN SINGAPORE BEFORE!!! he tweeted that too hehe. and oh they were talking about "fly like a G6" and junsu made some funny noise, he's so funny!!! HEHEHEHE junsu talked alot!!! and near my side, he likes our side alot!!!

they also sang a ballad which i don't know the name, "tired of waiting", and "10 points out of 10" where we danced along with them!!! at the "10 points out of 10" parts!! YEAH MAN I WAS SO HIGH!!!

they also performed "I'LL BE BACK" WHERE OMG JUNSU MY BABY WORE RED, ONLY ONE TO WEAR RED MY COLOUR YO! I WAS SO HAPPY AND HE SAID "COME ON LET'S GO" AFTER HIS LINE, ALL MY FRIENDS KNOW I MELT AT THAT PART!!! i was really hoping he'll shout "let's go" AND HE REALLY DID, IN FACT, LONGER!! I LOVE HIM!!!

they also performed "without you" AND WOOYOUNG'S SOLO!! the very sad part that i like, i got to see it!!! so happy!!!

after that, they performed "again and again" and the last song was "HEARTBEAT"!!!

FOR EVERY SINGLE SONG, I WILL SHOUT "JUNSU!!! JUNSU OPPA!!!" DURING HIS SOLOS WHEN HE'S NOT SINGING, AND JUMP AND WAVE MY HANDS IN THE AIR!!! just for him, and also i'll jump when he's looking at our side to catch his attention, i'm pretty sure he saw me, cos i'm the only goof that jumped and shouted like mad. i really shout like mad, i became junsu's no. 1 fangirl :DDD

i was saving my jumps for him!!! it's only you my junsu, it's only you~

for 2pm, JUNSU, WOOYOUNG, CHANSUNG AND JUNHO really loved our section alot HAHA. especially channie and wooyoung? haha and really junsu too.

there was one point in time junsu was staring at our direction, and somehow i looked into his eyes, and he looked back but i'm not sure if he really did, but during that, i smiled and waved at him. he saw me waving i think, and he was like squinting his eyes, wanting to do something yet hesitating idk... he kept scanning the crowd, i'm not kidding. just like MIR. was junsu looking for me? hehe if only i brought my board, yeah i forgot to bring :( but quite packed so it's better not to bring.

oh ya the fanboys next to me were like lol?! when i kept shouting for junsu haha. must thank cedar for making us do cheers! cos i was the only one who kept cheering for my junsu :)))

somehow i feel there's a connection between me and junsu. i'm not kidding! his handshake felt so right... his eyes, kept staring. i don't know.. i hope he remembers me, but i know he really loved singapore haha because he kept smiling!!! in fact, 2pm were very happy :D

after 2pm performed, they went back in, then MBLAQ, MISS A, 2AM AND 2PM CAME BACK OUT AGAIN YO!!! grand finale, all walked on the stages then bowed in front!!!
chansung THREW HIS TOWEL AT OUR DIRECTION AND MY FRIEND CAUGHT IT!!! she's from 2pm fanmeet one haha so lucky.

okay phew i finally finished my fan account.
my ears still can't hear properly even though it's a day already. and my neck hurts but i can stand it. MY TOES OH GOSH, TIP TOE FOR 4 HOURS IS NO JOKE MAN. I PERSEVERED FOR 2PM, I TOLD MYSELF "FOR JUNSU, YOU MUST TIP TOE, YOU MUST SHOW HIM YOU SUPPORT HIM!!!"

after the concert we went to drink at the foodcourt. long queue at drink stall haha. i drank watermelon juice again!! so nice.

2 days in a row i skipped dinner haha, so now my appetite's not so good.
will post pics soon.

ok BYE!!! I WILL MARRY JUNSU OPPA WHEN I GROW UP!

2PM FANMEET!

2010-12-05T12:07:00.002+08:00

HELLO!!! YESTERDAY WAS MNET CONCERT, I HAVE ALOT TO SAY, BUT I SHALL START WITH 2PM'S FANMEET!!!

OKAY so their fanmeet was held on 3rd Dec at IMM garden plaza, starting at 7.30pm.

150 lucky fans will get to have their autographs, and the rest will only get to see them.

so i went to IMM with my sis at around 9plus in the morning, but all we saw were KIM HYUN JOONG fans!!! there were loads of them!! even ajummas!!! haha we walked around the mall but couldn't find 2PM fans :(((
then i saw 2 girls wearing 2PM SHIRTS, so i asked them and they told us where to queue!! it was across IMM! on the pavement next to a stretch of green grass, and it was dirty floor, stinky and full of ants!!!
there were not many people yet, and i asked the person in front of me what to do and he told me to go to the front to write my name down.
so i went to write my name down, AND I WAS NUMBER 154!!! my bubble burst, 154 is so close to 150 yet so far!! plus i was scared that people will cut queue :( nevertheless, i did not give up! i know my love for JUNSU will bring me through xD

jie stayed with me until about 2 plus, where she bought lunch for me in between too :) and she's really the best sister ever, because she didn't have to follow me but she did! haha.. after she left, i was left all alone and the girl behind me was super irritating she talked super loud and annoying!! she kept complaining blah blah.. and so digusting..
but the 2 girls in front of me talked to me and we became friends!! haha

so i talked to the girls in front, read my storybook, as we waited under the hot sun with alot of ants.. at around 3 plus, they finally moved us into the garden plaza and i'm really lucky because i think i was the 140 plus person to get in!!! A CLOSE SHAVE TO NOT GETTING AUTOGRAPHS!!!! they strictly only allow 150 people, and we lucky fans got a VIP 2PM chop on our arms and tickets haha..
i know i was 140 plus because a few others managed to get into our area before they closed the barricades on us. the rest stood behind us, in another barricade.

we were all very happy!! and i made friends with the people around me!! haha so we happily waited for another 3 hours, talked, ate, stone..
they started playing music around 6 plus, but we wanted 2pm music! so a fangirl gave her cd to them to play it!!! haha and at "I'LL BE BACK", everyone fanchanted and me and some people around me did the thumbs-up thing haha it was really fun!!

they came late. a little later than 7.30pm, but it was ok. and AHHHH ok junsu wore a cap, but his hair was awesome!! he was so hot!! so were the rest of 2pm!!! WOOHOO!

they self-intro, were being asked some questions, but fans kept screaming it was horrible!! i was being squashed badly!! but i flashed my junsu board and junsu saw it!!!

after the questions, they proceeded to the fansign, and i was the 3rd batch of 10 to go on stage!! i really had to make sure i had JUNSU because i came here for him, and I GOT HIM!!! I FREAKING GOT HIM THAT I WAS SO HAPPY I THINK I SQUEALED AT HIM!!!

i ran to him, put my poster down, then he looked at me, then i said 'JUNSU OPPA!!!" i think he wanted to say something but i was too happy i kept staring at his hand haha, so he signed on my poster, and i think he said "ok, thank you!" then i ahhhh~ at him, and i was holding my board all along, and after he signed finish he stuck his hand out, AND I SHOOK HIS HAND!! AHHHHHH MY LOVE!!! HIS HANDSHAKE WAS FIRM AND HIS HAND WAS COMFY!! HAHA
I CAN SAY AT THAT MOMENT, i just felt so secure and warm!!! he's so sweet! and his eyes, they are small but cute!! they twinkle, and his smile is gorgeous! his face is quite big, and he's just so mine 8D

after he shook my hand, i held my board in front of him, said "junsu!!!!!" and the looked at me, and said 'oh hehehehe" and smiled sheepishly! haha his laughter is so cute!!!

taec was next to him and i think he was looking at me like i'm some really happy junsu fangirl! HAHA i didn't want to look at the rest of 2pm, so junsu will know how much i love him, but i don't regret it!! i mean, i still saw them after all~

IT WAS MY FIRST FANSIGN, AND I GOT JUNSU, MY LOVE!!! many didn't get who they wanted, so i'm really fortunate and happy!!! HIS SIGNATURE GOT HEART SHAPE HAHA.

oh they signed on posters that they gave us before we went up, and the cd was redundant -.-

i gave junsu a gift, but they didn't allow us to bring up, so i gave the person there. i'm sure they received it! i gave him a small letter and my lucky star earring HAHA. so i really hope he received it.

after the whole fansign, they backface the fans to take picture, then TAEC BEATBOX FOR JUNSU TO SING THE CHORUS OF "I'LL BE BACK" AND OMG IT WAS AWESOME!!! junsu's voice so nice!!!

after that they asked some more questions, and left.
it was rather short, ended around 8.10pm, but it was good.

hehehe. after the whole event, i met selina at the back and we went home together! she didn't get in the 150, but that's because she queued much later! it was fun anyway :) oh and we drank watermelon juice haha.

reached home around 10 plus, and smiled super happily to myself.

my friends will know how much i wanted junsu's autograph, how much i went through to get it, to the extent of going alone! and how much i really love junsu! actually i wasn't alone, i had God with me :D

now i love him so much more!!!
i will support him forever! and i hope one day he'll know me.
I WANNA MARRY JUNSU OPPA!!! i really do.

haha i know that God gave me this chance to shake junsu's hand, and get his autograph, and i know that he does what's best for me. so i really thank God in my heart for everything :D i know he planned it all already!! i'm so happy :DDD

okay, shall end my 2PM FANMEET POST HERE!

The world smiles back

2010-12-02T00:37:00.003+08:00

The world seems brighter when you're being loved.
I feel so fortunate to be surrounded by really good friends.
They make me less impatient and vulgar.

I think everyone's learning to tolerate one another more now :)

Took a flu jab today, it was freaking pain but I didn't make a noise at all!!! I kept thinking of junsu, doojoon and ... And it worked~

Speaking of which,I did the boards for junsu and dujun!!! Kekeke
First time touching scissors in a long time, and cutting the most paper at one shot. I can't cut properly :/ left handers thing.
But the boards are super pretty I love them!!!

I want junsu's autograph. I want to get as close to him as possible. I hope God will let me :D I really heart junsu, gahhh. I hope everything goes smoothly, from tmr to Saturday. I hope I can get as close to the stage as possible! Junsu, i hope you see me!!!

If I really like/love someone, I'll do arts and crafts for that person, because i suck at it. What I'm saying is, it takes alot of effort from me, so I must really like someone to do something arty for that person. Haha

Ok so random~ princess prosecutor is freaking nice. Everyone go watch!!! It's worth your time!
Bye~ nights, it's 1am

What if I said I love you? ... Cos i can't stop thinking about you.

2010-11-30T23:54:00.002+08:00

HELLO!

went to watch HARRY POTTER with my sis today. it was super last minute, but since we're sisters its ok. haha and the hall was empty. like only 10 people omggg. so we sat anywhere we wanted to HAHA. but i prefer crowded cinemas, makes it nicer haha.

I WANNA WATCH NARNIA!!! muahahaa i love narnia so much :D i like the prince caspian guy (ben barnes) haha. but i like the show too.

after that did MANICURE!!! with mum~ xD and so paiseh, suddenly leader ming zhen and badi appeared!!! and they talked to my sis and stood there very long, and i was so embarrassed T-T like drying my nails.. then leader min came too T-T haha tonight's coals '10 campfire night, so jie is at campfire nowww.

after manicure came back home. can't wait for sis to come back, I WANNA WATCH PRINCESS PROSECUTOR AGAIN!!

2010-11-30T01:15:00.002+08:00

I had the weird feeling the whole day. Like I'm anticipating something, like I'm missing something, like I'm laughing to myself once every hour.
Like checking my touchie every hour.

It's like I'm waiting for something to happen...

It's been a long time since I felt this way.

Sometimes I wish I could run out, run out to the park or somewhere near, and see you there. And just see you from afar. Hohoho that's all I wanna do and it's stupid I know.

It's not love. Idk what this is.

Hohoho it's 1am in the morning and I'm typing this shit. I just watched 2 eps of princess prosecutor with my sis and mum, and it's really awesome everyone go watch this drama!!!
So this is how someone treats someone they like. Interesting. Really a drama.

I felt so happy that the feeling has not subsided. It's good I guess...
Still, I feel a part of me is taken away and it's empty now.

talento 8, J orchestra

2010-11-29T09:03:00.003+08:00

i'm back!!! and i shall continue my post. i know it's very long, i'm so lo-so.

YJ AND JO CAME TO MY CONCERT!!! i was so touched, you know when they smsed me that i might see a surprise and hint that they coming, i totally didn't believe them at all. because how would they know where to buy the tix? and they wont come for this kind of thing one.
BUT THEN, THEY REALLY CAME!!! and they planned a whole scheme haha.
stupid me, the "briefing for CIP at kovan" was a hoax man -.- and on sat they were like hiding smth from me, and i was abit angry!!! xD

turns out they called my sis after we went plaza sing, and they waited for me to board my train before they boarded it too! and no wonder yj asked me if i was home alrd, if i on bus alrd all that...
so they called my sis to ask where's my music school, went there and bought tix!!

i met them during the 1hour break too haha and they bought flowers and made cards for me!!! i was super touched omg. the fact that they came for me was really sweet ^-^ i was already touched that they smsed me good luck all those, and that it was ok if no one went to watch me.

actually i shouldn't have been sad you know. i didn't tell anyone much about my concert and stuff, so no one actually really knows the details. unless they read my blog. and i didn't want to ask many people to come cos i was afraid of rejection, haha. my pride very big :(

i have people to call good friends, but i'm really not a good friend to many. i keep saying i have no friends, or that my friends don't care and all that, and i made them upset :( i'm really sorry to everyone. just that sometimes i emo.. but i know i shouldn't say all those too.

and i also wana thank others for smsing me!!! really make me happy that people care ^-^
some people also said they wanted to come after my emo post, but i told them not to come cos i felt bad. :x

this is the first time i played in an orchestra. i'm really happy that my family and yj and jo were able to watch me in my first concert!!! :D

after the concert last night, we went to orchard road!!! dad drove past all the christmas lights and i LOVED it so much!!! you know i love christmas lights at orchard!!! and christmas trees!!! we went to eat too, at orchard. and took pics of the lights!!!

haha so yesterday i was really happy. yesterday was the happiest half-day of my life!!!

felt the warmth of friendships, played successfully in an orchestra, made new friends in the music school, went orchard road to see nightlights, and (therewasasmallinfatuation)

i think i'm crazy. i was really happy last night i couldn't stop grinning to myself haha. it was fun talking to the people in my orchestra, turns out they were friendly! and mostly younger than me -.- so i talked to them like i am "lao da" HAHA but its so fun talking to people younger than you!

OH OH and saw mr foo's daughter!!! she so small and cute and look like him xD and she had a tiara on her head HAHA.

wheeee okay i should end my post.
BYE.

oh gosh this is way cool, 2PM AT MAMA AWARDS:

WAHHH JUNSU SINGING + PIANO!!!

5MORE DAYS!!! LOVE 2PM!!

2010-11-28T23:10:00.002+08:00

HELLO :)))
I HAD A BLAST TODAY!!! I'M SO HAPPY NOW I WANNA EXPLODE!!!

SO TODAY'S CONCERT DAY!!!

went to church in the morning, and they talked to us about next year! we're moving to saturday~ i half support the idea, but you know, i'm traditional, sunday should be the official church day. HAHA.

after that came home around 2 plus.

then i was stressing out, like super scared i can't play well, or reach there late, or don't know where to go all that. so i practised for awhile at home, and prayed to God for everything.
then i slept, then woke up 4plus to get ready.

i wore the dress we bought for arts fest handbells HAHA. i bet i wear it the most in handbells cos i got all these opportunities to wear! and borowed yj's outer coat.
OH OH hahaha i tried BB cream and powder!! my mum bought for me. hehe i like leh! so cute the spongy thingy you use to put powder on your face~

we left house at 5pm, headed down to NUS! yong siew toh conservatory~ a very famous place for music!
reached in time? around 5.45pm, AND OMG there were so many small kids backstage was so noisy and packed!!! and i didn't know where to go T-T then i asked one of the teachers, and she said "J ORCHESTRA GO UPSTAIRS",then i went up but idk where to go, then went back down, AND FOUND MY ORCHESTRA PEOPLE ,so PHEW!!!
then the woman ask us go up again -.- but this time she followed us!!!

AND WE GOT A DRESSING ROOM TO OURSELVES~ haha the J and S orchestras are all on this level, at different room though. i felt so happy to be in a dressing room, like an artiste!!! xD
we took out our violins and went down for rehearsal~
after the rehearsal, i felt GREAT!!! i managed to play all the notes correctly~ i was so happy :DDD
after that we had 1 hour break before the concert start.

so i went back to my family~ mum bought dinner at kovan before we went there. i'm so fortunate to have a mother to do everything for me ;)
so ate my dinner(yoshinoya) with them, then went back into the concert hall.

met my new made friends from the orchestra, then we slacked/walked around tgt :)

our item is 2nd last, so we had alot of time before that. sometimes we went to watch the concert on the tv backstage, sometimes we stoned in the dressing room, sometimes we walk around doing nothing xD HAHA.

but then when it was nearing our time, we were all in the room, then we were deciding when to go down when a teacher came and told us to go down HAHA. so nice, that so many of us were tgt :) i'm one of the oldest btw -.-

OH YA, i finally met my partner. cos we play in pairs, and she's 17!! and very nice :D we talked super alot and it was fun!! haha i never see her before cos when she go, i never go prac, when i go she never go xD

then we kinda stoned very long backstage, cos the guitar people still waiting for their turn. we were after them.

time passed quite fast, AND IT WAS OUR TURN~ i wasn't nervous man! i think i overcame stage fright. it was more of fear of playing out of tune.
OH OH OH haha so paiseh, we were walking out alrd, then my teacher(aka conductor) pulled me back to talk to me, then i walked out and walked back in xD he told me something about sitting properly, but then i cut him off and asked if i was receiving award cos no one tell me anything!!then he said yes so ok :D ahaha and hmm, so paiseh i never sit properly -.-

then THE TIME CAME!!! mr foo conducted, and we played! WOOHOO but then it wasn't my best :( i was distracted!! i can't believe instead of looking at the paper i was looking at someone...
but phew, still managed to play~
i love it when people clap after the performance :)

after that i went back to backstage and queued up for receiving award~~~
because i got distinction~~~ and i got money!!! 20 dollar voucher for my school haha.

you know, i think my teacher, mr foo, is a very good person. the best principal ever! he spends money to reward his students, and i heard that the choir consisted of teachers and helpers as well, which is very heartwarming right~ and he also makes an effort to put up a concert every year :) i love my music school! edvox music school :)

and i felt so proud receiving the award :)

continuing this post tmr, my mum is ...

open house

2010-11-27T18:47:00.003+08:00

OMGGGG. RYEOWOOK LOOKED SO DIFFERENT LAST TIME!!! from a real boy, he looks like a girl now, and prettier x.x if SM ent chose ryeokwook with his previous image, they are so spot-on that he'll turn into some pretty boy one day.
i'm shocked.
but also, shinee's predebut photos all look so... not nice xD

anyway, CEDAR OPEN HOUSE TODAY! not many parents went though. why? i thought our school very good?
or their children too lousy to enroll in our school?
haha kidding. but walau this year top scorer 280+ only? tsk tsk. standard drop so much.

open house was... alot of older people came back, like my sis. and charlotte came back too!!! haha nothing much anyway.

after that went plaza sing with yj, jo, ze, and jx!
haha i can't believe that to me, spending money on food is wasting money but spending money on buying art materials to make a board for someone who might not even see it is not wasting money -.-
so bought some nice paper to make boards for JUNSU and DOOJOON!!! kekeke MNET concert on saturday~ super excited to see my junsu!!! HEHEHEHEHEHEHEEHE i think i will hyperventilate when i see him xD
i mean, junsu's so hot!!! AHAHAHA might be going airport to fetch them too~ WAHAHAHA 2PM~!!!

JUNSU JUNSU JUNSU!!! DOOJOON DOOJOON DOOJOON!!!

not bad already okay, i reduced my list of idol-likes X) now jo and ly can't say i have an unending list of husbands.

but what about junhyung? D: AND DONGWOON?! ahhh.. hmm.. nvm, if i make the names of the different group members, later they think i huaxin..

hmm, what about MBLAQ and 2AM? mblaq i'm neutral.. at least MIR looks like HONGKI, i can pretend he's HONGKI and feel happy ^-^
AHH JINWOON!!! supposedly my top 5 favourite leh. but now it died off HAHA. but he's funny.. hmm at least i saw 2AM before. OH YA I SAW 2AM BEFORE!!! which means he's checked off the list of people i wanna see.

ok ok it shall be JUNSU and DOOJOON!

and my 2 loves took a pic tgt last night~ and doojoon posted on twitter!!! damn happy i was super happy!!! two hotties in one pic~

JUNHYUNG DON'T FLIRT WITH HYORI!!! luckily doojoon didn't go near hyori xD

2PM!!!

:DDD junsu sings alot here.

I WATCHED THIS MOVIE WITH MY SIS. 71 INTO THE FIRE AND OMG I FELL IN LOVE WITH TOP!!! i'm not a big fan of TOP, coz he's not my type, but when he was commanding in the show he looked freaking hot xD i think i like guys that shout xD like when junsu shouted GO~ in i'll be back. shouting=man=hot=i like
the movie is super nice also, angsty, WAR and really sad.

sayonara~

2010-11-26T10:58:00.002+08:00

I'm gonna change for the better. Just watch.

But my personality won't change, I'll still be frank, straight forward, violent, and sometimes shout at people.

I'll just learn to be more tolerant.
And listen to others more.

Which is something so hard to do. I do things my way most of the time,not caring about people. Some don't mind, I don't know why, but I feel bad anyway.

It's so funny how some people come to my blog, read, then pretend they weren't here.

tsk

2010-11-25T16:39:00.003+08:00

HELLO :)
went to school for cca today.
feeling rather annoyed. but such small things shall not affect me.

we were supposed to meet discipline mistress at 12pm, but WOW, SHE'S NO WHERE TO BE SEEN. number 1, it wasted our time, number 2, how can a discipline mistress not honour her word to meet us?! can we still take her seriously? i don't know.
we waited for half an hour, called her office many times, and she's not there.

anyway, after that, went for lunch with yj, xt, jo, ze and lh. then went for violin lesson.
oh gosh, i'm kinda worried for the concert on sunday ><
i'm afraid i can't play well :(

and i'll be receiving award :D my teacher really doesn't tell me much leh, if he didn't tell me today i think i'd just go there blur blur... i didn't know i was receiving award lor.

my family will be there to support me, but i didn't want them to waste money D;
and no friends will be there for me :( i didn't ask many, because i know none of my friends will ever go for such a thing. but i was just thinking, if i had really really close friends, they'd go right?
ah well, guess not.

now i feel so friendless. i realised all my sec 3 classmates are only there to study/play with, not one to confide in or do those you know, sleepovers and close stuff..
oh so sad. maybe i expect too much from my friends. idk.

i'm becoming more impatient, more daring these days.

if i find any more reason, i'll quit. and i mean it.

baking~

2010-11-24T11:24:00.003+08:00

HELLO :)

it's a wednesday morning.

yesterday was a tired day idk why. partly for ss3 tickets i guess.
then after that, jie baked and i helped. we crumbled a whole pack of digestive biscuits, mostly i did it, xD and make some lemony thingy..

we made icing too hehe, OMG I LOVE THE ICING!! first time making it, and it melts in the mouth!!! hahha so nice :D

the biscuit, or whatever you call it, tastes NICE!! wheee and no heating required.

then we also cycled to ahma's house and bought lunch for her, and ate with her.

nothing much... just that jie nowadays is doing errands around the house HAHA. she's free anyway.

times flies too fast. i hope things can slow down more.

currently listening to: avril lavigne-innocence

sistic sucks

2010-11-23T10:39:00.006+08:00

ARGH didn't get the tickets.
nevermind.

stupid sistic.
if it were a hoax i'd sue them.

at first i got in, then the whatever shit verification inccorect, idk how tht happened anyway.
hopefully people sell their tix, hopefully there's s second concert.

if not, i'm gonna stalk them. i'm gonna see teuk and chul before they go army i don't care. maybe chul won't go, but teuk is.

:(
i shall comfort myself.

SMEXY JUNHO!!! if only it was junsu xD

HAHA wooyoung vs jokwon. and jokwon does it again -.- he absurd dancing

nickhun really sounds like jason mraz!! his pronounciation is so accurate!!! :D

and see jinwoon and changmin do it!

CHANSUNG AND HIS CAT!! JEONG-GAM!! so cute the cat ^-^

MY JUNSU!!! hearts :)

mosh pit tickets please

2010-11-23T08:56:00.002+08:00

HELLO :)

had cca yesterday, from 8am-4pm O.O so much for a holiday T-T
i went late though :X and didn't get much of a scolding anyway.
lol, anyway, i'm not scared of teacher scolding~

gonna meet discipline mistress on thursday. only going cos i have cca on that day, so might as well.

well at least cca wasn't slack yesterday, if not i'd have totally given up on syf. migh wanna quit. i have enough points anyway. but then after hearing us play our second song, imma give this a second chance.
i like the song, but if they change song or change the bells i'm playing, i'm gonna quit. my first song notes suck anyway, and i don't like that song/the arrangement.

you know, i could annotate the whole situation.
i started out in handbells playing F5G5 chimes, and then moved on to F5G5 bells. so they were the first bells i ever played.
and now, for the second song, i'm playing F5G5 bells! so if i wanna be drama, it's like i started my handbells life with F5G5, and i end it with F5G5.
HEHE. you can use all the cheeem words and make it sound so literature.

so actually the only reason i'm staying for syf is for my F5G5 bells.
and that i like the second song.

anyway, after handbells ytd went ahma's house to visit her, then cos my sis cycled there i took the bike and cycled back :PPP
then we went SAKAE for dinner.
jie wanted to bake today so we bought baking ingredients and rent dvds!!!

now i'm waiting, for SISTIC to open, to get hold of the moshpit tickets.
i hope i can get it, and i'm praying to God. haha God will make a way, when there seems to be no way. but sometimes when we don't get what we want, well, God knows whats good for us.

PARODYS

2010-11-21T21:03:00.002+08:00

I STARTED WATCHING PARODYS AGAIN AND OHGOSH THIS IS DAEBAK.

DAMN FUNNY HAHAHAHA KIKWANG THOUGHT HE'S PREGNANT!! and junhyung bad boy xD

HAHAHA KFC ONEW XD

THIS IS DAMN FUNNY HAHA. "go choke on a chicken bone" haha
and minho's rap LMAO XD !!!!

hehehehe

haha this is qutie funny xD lmao AJ love XD

OH GOSH THIS IS SO DAMN FUNNY "FAKED INJURY..SKIPPED SINGAPORE" LMAO XD and jjong's ''I thought I'd finally found a girl shorter than me even in heels.''
xD shin sekyung scandal

HAHHAHA say no to drugs!

kekeke ok BYE.

SWOOOSH

2010-11-21T19:08:00.001+08:00

HELLO :)
went to church in the morning, and i was the only one in my class to turn up!!! half expected it, cos meredith is in KL, daphne at camp, but kumiko and peixin promised to come!!!
but then kumiko's car broke down halfway, and peixin idk. maybe cos daphne never come she also never come.

HAHA, but it's ok. i had one-to-one with aunty clarinda ;) and learnt alot. see, my faith does not waver. even if everyone doesn't come, i still came.

just like how i go for baptism class alone. today was the last session! woohoo..

i'm actually not alone, God's always with me.

went cycling today too! around 5 plus, because the sun sets near then, and it becomes a beautiful orange-y hue!
and i went alone! WOOHOO cycling alone is refreshing and i love it. no one to bother me, no one to talk to, no one to disturb me trying to take in the surroundings.
so i cycled on my road, that long stretch that i love the most :D
then i cycled to the terrace houses area, and went to the highest slope possible, cos the road gets elevated as the houses line it.
and the only reason why i'd use all my energy to go up the freaking steep slopes is to SWOOOOSH down afterwards ;)

it was so funny, i was about to SWOOOOOOSH down when some small boy takes his bike and comes next to me on the gravel road, and then somehow our timing was the same, 1,2,3, GOOO!!! hahaha so we swoooooshed down the same time. people walking by could think we're siblings! haha and he's so cute!! as in small-kiddy-boy cute.
and i think i'm a paedophile :(
OFFICIALLY.
gosh. i feel so pervish..

oh i also went to the park that is in the middle of nowhere and saw my p6 friend there!!! i cycled behind her kekeke. AND I SAW HEETEUK!!! you remember, heeteuk the cat? kekeke i think she recognises me, but is scared of me :(

but it's ok, i know i'm scary. everyone's scared of me xD

OH GOSH LOVE THEM, LOVE BEAST!!!
and damn junhyung's freaking cute. AHHHH. his smile, his hair, his everything WALALALA.
AND DOOJOON+DONGWOON+YOSEOB MOMENT AT 0.19S IS DAMN CUTE OMGG. HAHAHAAHA so cute!!! hehehehehehehehe but i want the kissy dongwoon back!!!
kikwang's so cute too!!! 0.26s :D
i hope they perform beautiful in singapore. I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE MY BEASTLY BEASTS! ^-^
1.31s-1.35s HYUNSEUNG beating KIKWANG'S CHEST!!! omggggg HEHEHE so fanservice!!! if that was onkey i'd die. but kekeke aiyo, if i didn't know better i'd think hyunseung secretly likess kikwang lmao xD

wassup with life and cute small boys?
wassup with my paedo-ness?

SIGH. i'm not paedo but omggg.
grow up soon.

i'm still older.

yoyoyo

2010-11-20T23:05:00.003+08:00

HELLO :)
let's see, today is a hectic day.
i had violin class, then went VIJAYA's house(sec 4 cedarian) for deepavali lunch + movie marathon, then went for orchestra practice at night!
PHEW!!! and orchestra prac was 1.5h omg.. something funny happened at practice again today.
i couldn't play 3 bars of the song well, so conductor was fed up and asked "WHO'S YOUR TEACHER?!" then there was a pause, i was thinking wait..huh?!, then suddenly we both LAUGHED. and i answered "YOU LAH" lmao, so he said "then it's my fault lah xD"
haha i tried playing those 3 bars in the morning too, i can do it lah, just need more practice. the song's rather fast and they're a string of quavers so... YEAH.

btw, THE CONCERT'S NEXT SUNDAY!!! and no one's coming to watch me!! :( actually i didn't ask anyone, who would be int anyway? it's classical. lmao, unless i've got appreciative friends.
i don't think so..

and it was fun at VIJAYA's house~ vanessa and rachel C. were there too. and other sec 4s, hehe i'm the only sec 3~ but vijaya invited me!! so nice :D tried indian food, it was NICE!!! we watched 2 movies and took pics! it was fun :)

AHHHH BEAST! LOVE THEM!!
ahhhh no more doojoon&dongwoon interaction, it became doojoon&yoseob today!!! WHY?!?! AWW MAN :(((

i'm feeling random, so i shall reveal my ranking for BEAST:
1. DOOJOON
2. JUNHYUNG
3. DONGWOON
4. KIKWANG
5. HYUNSEUNG
6. YOSEOB

dongwoon fell :(( replaced by junhyung and now i feel bad D: but i'm so changeable, unpredictable, and i like so many people at once xD

your smile. your eyes. your words. you're hot then you're cold.
i don't know why you shyed, but i hope i'm guessing right.
it feels so wrong. it is so wrong. i really mind it but it'll go away.
soon.

fun fun fun

2010-11-19T21:11:00.003+08:00

HELLO :)
i had an awesome time today.
sort of.

went thrifting with sy, then walked around bugis street and junction.
the second level changed! and OMG if i had like a million dollars i'd buy all the bags there. at least all the nice ones! :((( haha idk why i like bags so much n__n and shoes too :X

anyway, i'm happy because i got what i wanted/needed!
should i say what i bought?
i bought sheer leggings, 2 belts(and got 1 free), FLORAL high waist shorts and a tube.
i love the high waist shorts so much!!! :DDD sy helped me try it on with my new belt and hehehe love it :D the tube's for the clothes that are too big for me/too revealing.

so good, YAYYYY. next time i shall buy a vintage watch and oversized tops.
when i feel not guilty for spending money.

AND, we ate at pastamania today!!! I'VE BEEN DYING TO EAT CREAM PASTA!!! watched BEAST'S ALMIGHTY yesterday and it was the ep where they cooked pasta. OH GOSH and DOOJOON & DONGWOON COOKED CREAM PASTA!!!
i'm so happy they got paired tgt!! my fav pairing in BEAST!!! kekeke and they picked the RED balls!!! so they wore RED chef costumes!!! RED!!! seems like my lucky colour!

i currently love BEAST most now :)
and today's music bank was all the solo artistes + snsd + 2am + fcuz + BEAST. AND YEAH, i love beast's the most :)))

i didn't melt BUT OHMYGOSH JUNHYUNG!!! JUNHYUNG JUNHYUNG I LOVE HIM HERE!!! HIS CLOTHES MAKE HIM LOOK SO MAN AND HOT AND HIS HAIR MAKES HIM SO CUTE!!! AND HE'S THE ONLY ONE WEARING WHITE!!! and he's so hot when he raps n_n

THEIR DANCE IS SO COOL and beast is such an awesome pro group okay!!! they are so united! :) (and junhyung's so hot)

0.15s-0.21s DOOJOON!!! LOOK AT DONGWOON MAKING A KISSY FACE AT HIM!!! AHHH MY 2 FAVS!
0.25s doojoon finally sees the kissy :) but gives him the wth face T-T omg so funny yoseob is stoning next to doojoon like he's in shock xD
0.28s KIKWANG!!! he's so shuai but then everyone likes him so ;(
i like how BEAST is so happy here, and how every move is not rigid like 1.37-1.38 HYUNSEUNG'S STICK-OUT TONGUE FACE!!! and the other "couples" also do other things. hehe but throughout the perf you can really see how freestyle they are.
SO AWESOME!!!

kekeke i think i like junhyung but don't worry, doojoon's still my top fav!!! in beast almighty he's so nice!!! he makes sure everyone is happy!!! especially the pasta ep where he helped kikwang&hyunseung ^-^

AHAHAHA ok junhyung is HOT, but he didn't make me melt! i realise so far only JUNSU made me melt like crazy.. xD

can't wait for mnet! i'm gonna shout until doojoon and junsu looks at me :D

btw, snsd won but i'm showing this vid because THE MCS ARE LEAVING!!! T-T ohgosh i feel so sad :((( they are so awesome!! it's sad that many don't appreciate them, and don't even know their names!!! :( but they've been great! :) and the male mc, joong ki, IS COMING SINGAPORE IN DEC!!! i saw a poster at bugis :D excited!!! wanna see him!! he looks like onew. HAHA.

k BYE.

HEEREN

2010-11-17T22:59:00.002+08:00

HELLO :)

i woke up at 11plus today oh gosh it's the latest i ever woke up in my life. HAHA really. even if i sleep very late, i wont wake up late cos i can't sleep with lights. and daylight seeps through my curtains so.. but now i have super dark curtains i can't even see myself when i off the lights. or my bed. HAHA.
but now i sleep with my mum, i wanna.

so today i slacked, like freaking slacked. then went to hospital to visit ahma. yeah she have some infection but she's ok :D san jiu jiu and jiu ma were there too and they bought jerry for ahma!!! you know tom & jerry? jerry is so cute hehhehee. cute mousey!!!

then we went HEEREN to eat jap buffet!!! mum wanted.. and OMG i eat so much until i wanna puke i'm serious. indigestion O.O tsk.. then we walked around orchard, go taka!!! i wanted to go kinokuniya to see stationery but bleh. so tiny. the shops at raffles city are nicer :D

one of the things i love to do is walk aroudn orchard at night, especially nearing christmas!!! i love the city nightlights and during christmas there's christmas trees and songs playing!!!
HAHA if i have a bf we must definitely go walk walk around orchard at night :)

i think i'm contradicting.
i like the beach and waves and sea and cycling.
and i like city life too.

You're always there in my thoughts
But that doesn't mean that it's on

The little voice in my head won't let me forget
The little voice in my head is never misled
All of this noise is what keeps me from making a mess
The little voice in my head just won't let me get with you

started listening to hilary duff's songs again. love her songs :)

2C '09 CHALET

2010-11-16T21:02:00.002+08:00

HELLO. back from 2C'09 CLASS CHALET!!! gosh i love my ex-classmates so much!!! miss the old times, and i realise we all love to sing. HAHA.

went to chalet with chel, fel and zel after handbells ytd, and they were bbq-ing. HEHEHE not bad, the food is super nice and cooked and woohoo i love BBQs!!! HAHAHA i cooked too!! :D and charlotte's mum made a big tub of beehoon. kekeke, we started singing, cheering and eating!!!
some guyss came over and asked us to play with them but we didn't :P
we talked, walked, and BBQ-ed MARSHMALLOWS!!! hehehe i like the mushy feeling inside the crispy outside :D

(oh ya we went to whitesands to eat abit before going to chalet and the guy give us free lemonade. he kept talking to us while we were eating, i think cos the place very empty HAHA.)

we cleared up about 10 plus i think. then everyone took turns to bathe/play cards/sleep. HEHE then at 12am we watched movie OMG. damn scary but i never really watch, it was horror movie.

then we slept around 3 plus am, and it was super squeezy!!! but i think i managed to sleep and knock-out for a few hours. we slept until like 9 plus, then went macs for breakfast~ then we went back to the room to watch movie again xD

after movie we went to walk walk on the beach!!! and play ball.. i realised that throwing stones into the sea is an awesome way of venting my anger. really, it works.
and i could toss the stones and make them hop a few times!!!
after that we went back to the room, watched one more movie, then went cycling.

WE PLANNED TO CYCLE, and i really wanted to cycle, BUT THEN. it started raining cats and dogs and since only me, wenqi and bebe haven't rented bikes, we decided not to cycle anymore. the rest cycled/bladed :((( i was rather sad but no mood to cycle so oh well...that shop also damn small and the bikes don't fit us so..
we stoned at the rental shop until the rain subsided, then we ran back to the chalet to get our bags and head to ehub~ there we met ying yi!! and she called me 5 times before that and i didn't pick up!!! luckily we spotted her!!!

THEN we all went to ehub to eat chicken rice!!! wq said it was nice so we went there. after that we went back home~~~ now i think i should be tired but i'm not. i reached home 7 plus..

i like staying out.. esp at night, because i love the smell of the night! and i love going to the beach~woohoo...

i thought about things.. everytime i threw a stone the only anger i could think of was... idk why, and i don't want to care, but it keeps coming back to me!!! :(((
what did i do to deserve such torture? boohoo.
i need a distraction.

AHHHHHHH TEUKCHUL KISS AT THE END!!! AHHHHHH I LOVE TEUKCHUL!!! HEHEHEHEEHE yeah baby!!! hope they do this in singapore too~ xD nono, i don't want them to gay, since i love both of them xD

guess this helps :D

k bye.

B2ST

2010-11-14T17:03:00.004+08:00

LOVE THEM!!! and i love this song!!! :))) HEHEHE so sweet and cheery :D

YEAH MAN I WAS ANTICIPATING JUNSU'S "GO!" AND HE REALLY SAID IT OH LOVE HIM LOVE HIM!!!

i got orchestra practice later at NUS but i lazy go omg... why did i even join.. i didn't even practice lah, good luck to me. :/// it's so... i don't even like the song. sigh oh well. life's like that.

i realised i didn't talk about camp. HANDBELL CAMP. it was... i'm glad i went home early. the first day was still ok, but the second day i was pissed. there are so many pockets of time that i can just totally slack and read my book, idk how manny pages i read.
it was rather... not well planned but oh well, who expects much.
rather waste of time too... our cca need camp for what? more like sports need.
i honestly went only cos i paid money. but the food was... omg. worse than the initial yog food that people complain about. but then i dont really care about food so yeah. just bleh, i wasted time and money T-T damn sad.

paid money for tmr's chalet too. i'm damn tired but i'm going for my money. T-T idk why money matters so much to me. just can't let it go. HAHA.
hope it'll be fun though..

如果說後悔可以殺一個人
我已經為妳死掉多少次了呢
i'm so confused.
i thought it'll be nothing but i couldn't get your face out of my head.
ARGHHHHHH >:(
i dislike you.

313

2010-11-13T23:56:00.002+08:00

my fav new song so far ;D

i like this show because at first jiro doesn't like the girl, HAHA. its interesting.

mmmmmmhmmmmmmmm i'm hungry, i feel like munching, and its 12.05am now.

went 313 just now :D bought stuff from cotton on. HEHE and walked through the 4 levels of f21!!! and HMV :)
love 313, especially that time when i spent 100+ with my mum xD

i shall sleep soon. and dream of jiro! HAHA. lmao.
maybe junsu. or doojoon. or idk who. xD

BACK FROM CAMP

2010-11-13T15:41:00.003+08:00

oh so tired... but i don't wanna sleeeep. it's the afternoon now. i planned to do many things today but i decided to cancel everything and stone at home. HAHA. think i should go cycle later.
i've been watching videos for about... 4 hours already OMG.

AHHHHHHH i'm in love with jiro again OMG thanks to that ep of shinee in taiwan!!! oghdfjghiouthgbkkbfgih and FARENHEIT is COMING SINGAPORE on 5TH DEC its the second half of the MNET CONCERT if only the ticket could bring us in for both days!!! >:)

hahaha then not only will i see junsu and doojoon and faint, i'd see jiro and nosebleed!! HAHA.
can't wait for 4th dec! it's gonna be AWESOME!!! with jx :)

MAYBE I SHOULD STALK FARENHEIT OMG OMG I SHOULD DO THAT. shall go find people to join me MUAHAHHAA.

STILL LOVE IT!!! gahhhh jiro is so shuai HAHAHA

tao hua xiao mei(momo love)!!! HAHA i shall continue watching this drama. i stopped at idk which ep... they kiss so many times!!! >:( but jiro's so shuai still :D

HEHEHEHE DOOJOON!!! his english is the best in beast!!!

AHAHAHA my two favs!!! kiseop is from ukiss~

BIG TIME RUSH!!! it's one of those nickelodeon shows i love!!! ;DDD and they can sing~ actually this show is about them being singers so yeah :) I LIKE JAMES!!! the one singing from 0.14s-0.24s!!! ;)

JAMES!!! AND KENDALL :) i ship two of them haha. AND THEY ALSO THINK HARRY POTTER > TWILIGHT!!! yeah man twilight you go DOWNNN!!! james seem like a nice guy :D

and and and i just realised that JAMES was the guy acting as "shane" on the icarly episode i watched lasttime and i was thinking "waa that guy so shuai" HAHA. so coincidence!!! but that was super long ago, and big time rush is quite recent.

OMG AFTER I TYPED THAT I WATCHED THIS VIDEO. evidence that james acted as shane!! XD so coincidental!!!

i see many aunties and many kids. haha but BIG TIME RUSH ROCKS!!!

james is at the extreme right~

but asian > eurasians on my list. idk why, i'm more attracted to asian stars ;D
thats why:

HEHEHE BEAST!! i watched this just before going for handbell camp!!! and I THINK I LIKE JUNHYUNG T-T AND KIKWANG. MORE THAN DOOJOON T-T oh noooo :((( kikwang's the one with the nerdy specs ;) and junhyung raps at 1.05s-1.10s, he raps in between the song also but its easier to point out who he is here. haha and dongwoon looks weird with blonde short hair!!!
i think i love the whole of beast :)

OH WON BIN. former FT ISLAND member. he backed out to go solo, and he debuts today. my heart pain. HE KINDA LOOKS LIKE HONGKI NOW T-T i wonder how the members feel...

the first time i saw this group i thought they were cooL. VNT feat. MINHO!!! im neutral now HAHA.

WHEN WAS THIS?!?!?! nonetheless, i love you junsu! HE AND JIRO LOOK ALIKE!!! maybe thats why i like both of them HAHA.

K BYE.

FUCK YEAH MT PAPER OVER

2010-11-10T16:45:00.001+08:00

HELLO!!! CHINESE O LEVELS IS FINALLY OVER!!! FUCK YEAHHH!!! ALL THE HARDCORE TUITION HAS PAID OFF. yes, if you were wondering, i had 10 hours of tuition on monday and tuesday.
all the uneven meal timings, meals in the car, endless papers and compos and yan yus and cheng yus all paid off!!! and my sis told me to say "I'M A FREE BITCH BABY!!!" lmao haha
btw i realised the 10 hours of tuition was free! 8D it was rather effective though! :D and it was fun cos there were so many of us and we were all "in the same boat" haha.

anyway, now i can starve myself and not go hungry for hours. and i don't even need breakfast.
idk why but my appetite these days just decreased.

ANYWAY, OMG I JUST WATCHED FINISH AN EPISODE OF SHINEE IN TAIWAN WITH MY SIS!!! JIRO WAS A HOST!!! haha he was my fav in farenheit last time and i realised he freaking looks like JUNSU!!! waahahaa and i like both of them!!! 8D

ITS DAMN FUNNY AND CUTE AND HAHAHAHAHAAHA ONEW'S SO TOOT AND CUTE!!! HAHAHA actually i don't like taiwanese variety shows cos they are rather lame but then with shinee on it, i'd watch it HAHA. and its so funny hahahaha AND THERE'S ONKEY!!! (which was the reason why my sis and i wanted to watch lmao)

anyway, i missed out alot thanks to o levels!

KEY DAMN DIVA OMG BUT THEN SINGING THE SONG WITHOUT CHANGING LYRICS MEANS HE'S A GIRL!!! which makes him gay ;( he sang "BOYS TRYING TO TOUCH MY JUNK"!!! EEEEEEKK haha anyway key's not gay. right?

jjong crying ;( OUT OF HAPPINESS ;D THAT THE FANS CARED FOR HIM!! awww be tough man, shin sekyung haven't cry he cry already -.-

ONEW'S CHINESE IS DAMN GOOD OMG!!! AND IT'S JAY CHOU'S SONG!!!

for probably the first time in my life, I THINK MINHO IS HOT!!! ahhh the way he sing is so 8D especially at the last part so umph!!!

I'M JEALOUS OF TAIWAN FANS!!!

haha ok i'm going to watch more vids before I GO FOR CAMP TMR.
like walau. grrr if the camp was not immediately after our paper i dun mind lah, but then like that so hard to enjoy!!! >:( and i haven't pack bag. arghhh.
k i shall stop ranting. anyway, still have to go.

BYE.

WHY JUNSU SO HOT?

2010-11-06T14:06:00.002+08:00

I ALMOST DIED WATCHING MUSIC BANK YESTERDAY.

JUNSU AT THE START IS JUST *MELTS* !!! AHHHHHHHH I THINK I FELL IN LOVE WITH HIS "GO!"~ hahaha i don't know why but i thought he was so super hot in this performance ^-^ so fierce his stare. SO SHUAI!!! ahhhhhh ok i shall stop squealing like some crazy person.

haha and joanne and liying thinks that i always say my biases are hot, and i say the same thing for everyone i like BUT NO LOR OMG OVER HERE JUNSU IS EXTREMELY HOT!

AND THERE WAS A SPECIAL STAGE FOR "J5", i think they just did it for fun. J5 cos their names start with j haha and JUNSU AND JINWOON!!! two biases together :D
1.23s OMG JUNSU'S EYES SPARKLE!!! AHHHHHH SO CUTE!!!

sooyoung looks damn tall among all the other shorties HAHA. but she fell in my list D; NOW OMG YOONA IS DAMN PRETTY AND SEXY!!! and jessica looks so cute with her hair but i still won't like her xD sunny's still at the bottom of my list. oh seohyun looks better in hoot promotions, i used to think she was fat HAHA. but she's hot here.
anyway, YOONA'S STILL THE BEST. ok i shall stop talking about girls.. i'm straight, not like xt. haha

LMAO HAHAHAHA TEUK NEVER FAILS TO AMUSE ME XD THIS IS SO GOING TO BE MY RINGTONE, although my phone's always silent mode.

MY TWO BIASES TEUK AND HONGKI!!! HEHEHEHEHE i like to see my biases together :)
actually seunghyun's my bias in ft island but hahaha.

hmmm.. i forgot what i want to say.

AH OH WELL. bye:)

VICTORIOUS!

2010-11-04T18:40:00.002+08:00

SNAP! this is how i looked like immediately after cutting my hair~ hahaha and now it's wavy again :( it always looks the best right after i cut my hair at the salon because they blow it to make it nice HAHA that's why we always patronise them..

and my mum asked the hair salonist (btw her name's JOANNE xD) to do treatment for my hair -.- and i was like "MA WHAT THEY DOING?".. suddenly they put something on my hair OKAYY..

and there's a new brownie shop next to it!! OMG THE BROWNIES ARE SUPER NICE!!! and quite cheap!!! WHEEEE~

ANYWAY. today's a rather interesting day. went to school for lesson extension, english + triple science lessons T-T, then had chinese after that. but me, yj and fel had to leave early, like 5min early and we BRISKWALKED TO THE OLD FOLKS' HOME round the corner!!! we were supposed to perform a song for the elderly!!! and we made it in time PHEWW. actually they were stalling time for us xD

HAHAHA and wheeee, i feel so proud of myself for playing all my notes right even though i didn't practice much :X haha and i saw some elderly smile at us!!! and they clapped too :) it was so nice! but when i see the old people i feel so sad for them :( i won't ever put my parents there :(

anyway, i found it interesting cos it feel so cool, y'know, to like rush rush go somewhere to perform after school... know what i mean? haha anyway i'm so glad i'm in a performing arts cca.

AND AND AND i love this nickelodeon show called VICTORIOUS!!! it's like iCarly, Drake&Josh, True Jackson, VP, Big Time Rush- nickelodeon-produced shows. hehehe i prefer nicelodeon to disney, like JYP to SM. get it? disney's pretty on the surface, but nick's got that warm feeling. their shows have that nice resolution and lighting that makes them nice to watch!
AND i like this type of comedy HAHAHA.

and victoria justice is so pretty!!!

i watched some episodes weeks ago, but today i watched the first ep! they showed it on nick haha.

and she's got twitter~ i wonder if it's really her i'm following though...

silhouette 2

2010-10-31T21:14:00.002+08:00

Not long after that musing encounter, we met again. somewhere among the crowd, her voice smuggled its way into my ear. it wasn't for me to hear, but it made me cautious.

And then, music started playing from the big retails down the muffled streets:
You make me
Feel like I'm living a Teenage Dream
The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's runaway
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back

SUNDAY

2010-10-31T20:46:00.003+08:00

INKI:

BEAST!!! eveerytime i look at them, the thought of seeing them soon makes me go gaga :DD hahaha wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee love the whole of beast! plus since i'm watching
B2ST almighty now.

then everytime i see 2pm, the same thought goes into my brain!! HEHEHEHE idk how sd i'd be if i missed this concert... maybe not that sad, i still think stalking is better, you see them close up!

i think fans are over reacting. sometimes, jjong doesn't even look sad but everyone says he does O.O are they blind or dumb? anyway, but here he looks rather sad at the start..

i can't believe he freaking bowed to the fans to apologise, FOR WHAT? FOR DATING? APOLOGISE FOR WHAT!!! those fans don't even deserve it man. they aren't even fans O.O ok i can't find the vid now, but WALAU, and 3 times 90 degrees bow ok!!!

THRILLER!!! kikwang looks shuai haha but OMG MINZY BUTT DANCE ON THE FLOOR IS..... rather disturbing..

kekeke this is from ytd's mu core! woohoo FT ISLAND!!!

went to church today! it was games~ but i'd rather have class :< haha although class means only me and meredith, but i like it :D we learn alot.. aunty c's a really good teacher :D so after all the games, we asked for class! HAHAHA which is actually talking lah, but we still learn :)
i'm going to get baptised during christmas! i think... i'm going for baptism classes.. hohoho

OH dad brought me to some bak kut teh place for lunch!! some old old place in some random building thingy. but i like this type of old old places :D places that mum won't appreciate! hoho i like to go to different places in singapore!
and that's like what we always do in lower sec~

anyway, i think my life's so neutral now. the happiness makes up for the sadness, and i feel like life's rather...zen?

psh.

kekeke they are so cute!! HAHAHAHAHAA its so funny how minho and key do the same actions at the same time LMAO HAHAHAAH and so funny how they imitate hongki :D

caught in the rain

2010-10-29T21:57:00.003+08:00

HELLO. nothing much happened today.

i walked in the rain home. if not for my bag and my eyes, i'd have walked slower! it was pouring down so heavily it was more like i was bathing O.O

and thank God my eyes were fine! although when i blinked i thought something was going to happen T-T

let's spaz. MUSIC BANK:

2AM COMEBACK STAGE:

kekeke JIN WOON'S(first to sing) HAIR!!! LIKE KEY'S IN RING DING DONG!!! HEHEHE YES ME LIKE, but it doesn't look good on him. and his eyes are so small, when he closes them, IT BECOMES NOTHING!!! haha he looks like a meow meow cat ^-^ so cute!

UKISS:

LOVE KEVIN'S HIGH VOICE!! don't like dongho's voice(which i think he isn't even singing) xD dongho looks like a meow meow too! his eyes so small like a meow meow.
and love the kevin-soohyun interaction. OMG KEVIN'S SO SEXY.

SNSD:

shoot shoot shoot~hoot hoot hoot~ i like taeyeon! she looks younger here lmao. and yoona's the prettiest!!!
the song's catchy omg.

BEAST:

I DON'T KNOW WHY BUT I SUDDENLY LIKE JUNHYUNG(rapper at the start) OMG. nonono, haha must be the pikachu video my sis showed me xD anyway, he looks rather cute here HAHA another meow meow? i don't know why i hmm, don't really like doojoon here D; ohno!!! he's my forever bias!!! :(( but dongwoon :D even with his no fringe, me like! haha
AND I THINK I LIKE KIKWANG (the one everyone touches), but then everyone likes him anyway -.- i mean, HE'S HOT XD

2PM:

JUNSU!!! HEHEHEHEHEHEEE as always, so shuai ^-^ honestly chansung forever looks weird when it's his part in this song :(

2PM WON TODAY!!! AND JYP FAMILY LOVE ON STAGE~ eh eh, ask that miss A girl to get herself off my junsu!!! >:(

SHINEE:

i don't know what to say. TAEMIN MISSED HIS LINE!! haha that made me like him more haha it was so cute when he sang the last note only :) and i think his voice really hmm, improved alot! jjong is...well, happy? key is...is he faking happy? onew is... looking rather troubled, but his WINK at the end was *MELTS* haha. minho...probably the only normal one, him and taemin.

y'know what? i'm having weird thoughts about shinee..
KEY now feels like a woman. i'm not kidding okay. i feel like he's being treated and wants to be treated like a woman. His feminine features and behaviour probably seduced onew and jjong... ARGH you can freaking see it in hello baby and in variety shows okay. there's so much "love" going on.
and he looked pissed with jjong in their recent perf, which if i conclude it was cos of jjong's relationship, key's really gay or bi.
there has been like many instances where he looks angry with onew or jjong and everytime its as if they just broke up O.O and he's so happy that time when he and onew went dating in the park.

argh, key's just so feminine and womany and IDK!!! HE'S NOT MAN AT ALL.
i feel angry. idk why. maybe i feel cheated. that key's so female-like. how did i even end up liking him..

anyway, i feel like SM artistes are too pampered for my liking. :/ it's like if you poke them once, they'll crumble. the men are like women, the women are like babies.

UGH!! can't they be more man? :(

i don't even know why i'm outbursting now. sheeesh.

argh. anyway, idk how my violin lessons are gonna be replaced. they keep clashing with everything.

i shall go vent somewhere else. BYE.

silhouette

2010-10-28T23:09:00.002+08:00

Her silhouette stood out in the darkness. she was the first thing i noticed upon turning my head.
for a moment i thought she was someone else. I was abruptly mistaken.

as we sat down, intuition brought me to glance sidewards-for no better reason as to why we dream-and my eyes caught her silhouette again. somehow it felt planned. these things always happened to me; like there was some strong attraction between my soul and premonitions. my instincts never failed me, and i knew things like this will repeat three times.

i tried not so much to think about it, hoping all predictions remain false. i succeeded, if you may say, in preventing myself from looking at her again. in the short amount of time we'd remain there, i did everything i could to distract myself-and this was to test if my instincts were true.

the moment i had been anticipating gone as fast as it had come. this time, it wasn't initiated by me. she walked past me against the sunny background, where as i sat in the darkness, her silhouette, once again, flashed by me.

a smile crept across my face. i knew i was right.
now all i was left figuring is what would happen to us next.

BZZZ

2010-10-28T21:15:00.005+08:00

HELLO! i realise i blogged about my fan-chasing but i didn't blog about the CLASS OUTING!!

haha so ok, WE WON THE CLEANEST CLASS AWARD so we had a FREE LUGE&SKYRIDE at SENTOSA!!! so on sunday we went there :D
i sat the skyride before but OMG, THIS TIME IT'S STILL AS SCARY me and joanne were like screaming and dying haha... the luge was fun :D

after the rides, we went to palawan beach and while the rest of the class was eating, me, joanne and liying were playing on the beach!!! SHIOK AH!!! the sand was SUPER SOFT at ONE PARTICULAR AREA haha so we decided to engrave our confessions on the sand there lmao xD they almost got washed away haha. and we also went into the water until it reached our shorts and it was so nice to stand in the sea with the rippling waves.

i loved walking on the edge of the sea :D liying was just being some nugget who thinks the beach ain't romantic. haha joanne and i kept saying how sweet it'll be to go there at night and all that.. haha so then we pretend to chase after each other xD (don't worry, we aren't les)
after like a SUPER LONG WHILE, the rest of the class came and we all played :D

ANYWAY, that felt so long ago... today's the last day of school REJOICE! not, because there's still lesson extensions -.- got back report book today, hmm, i'm half pleased with my results. oh the shocking thing is that I'VE REACHED 100 HOURS OF CIP AND HAVE ENOUGH CCA POINTS TO MINUS 2 POINTS FOR O LEVELS!!! yeah man!!! i rock~ haha it actually means we don't have to go for syf next year..but we're still going.

this is my favourite jongkyung pic:

hehe so sweet!!! this is why i approve jonghyun dating shin se kyung. we never knew it could actually happen, even though he's said many times se kyung is his ideal, who would've thought he'd actually get to date her??

SM Entertainment, also carefully stated, “We heard that they met each other through other people. Their relationship is just now beginning.”
since when did SM become so humane?

OHMYFREAK KEY'S SO SAD, AND HE LOOKS SO ANGRY AT JONGHYUN!!! HE EVEN MOVED HIS STOOL FURTHER FROM HIM!!! OHMYGOSH...it seems like he could be angry over jonghyun+se kyung dating. :O he looks so sad and cute i wanna squeeze him! i hope he'll be happy :( (and it's kinda obvious they're lip-syncing when key sang onew's part -.-)

SNSD'S HOOT MV! ok lah, however, the whole concept feels so gaga-ish. agree? kinda looks like telephone~
hmm, i think yoona's the hottest/prettiest here, as she always has been.. although my bias is sooyoung, but nah, girls don't attract me. haha

OHMYGOSH JINWOON'S HAIRSTYLE IS LIKE KEY'S IN RING DING DONG, THE BANGS ONE, THE ONE THAT ATTRACTED ME!!! hahaha and jinwoon has always been my bias, this is so coincidental! hehe. in case you were wondering, jinwoon's the first to sing.

MINHO LOOKS RATHER COOL HERE. and i look forward to this new girl group! i believe they're from SM? they look so cool, but their names so cheena O.O

IF YOU'RE FEELING DEPRESSED OR FEEL LIKE BITCHING, WATCH THIS:

SERIOUSLY, WHAT'S HER PROBLEM OMG.. poor 2pm, to be harrassed by such an ardent fan. at least we don't do that. WE AREN'T EVEN CLOSE TO THAT.

this concludes my post.

SARANG SARANG SARANG

2010-10-26T22:07:00.003+08:00

FT ISLAND!!!

MINHWAN :)

SEUNGHYUN!!!

HONGKI!!!

i think my fan account is awesome haha. i really don't wanna post and block it but oh well. haha I'M STILL IN LOVE WITH SEUNGHYUN

actually i'm confused..

I THINK I LOVE HONGKI MORE. haha actually i don't know

anyway, i really think ft island is awesome.

i watched the kpop night fancam of LOVE LOVE LOVE but stopped it soon after, because ohman it was so awesome hongki's voice was all over the hall and i regretted not buying the tickets T-T

it's ok, next time i'll go for their concert :)

where it's only FT ISLAND :)

heh, suddenly have this craze over them. IDK WHY IT TOOK ME SO LONG.

but KEY's still forever mine
today felt like a boarding school. lessons in the morning, all 1 HOUR EACH PERIOD, then recess, then lessons again, then LUNCH, then CHINESE LESSONS till 5pm. bzz i'm bushed.

gonna play my violin now.

BYE.

BEFORE KPOP NIGHT, 23RD OCT 2010

2010-10-25T21:18:00.002+08:00

HELLO!!! here's my fan account of before kpop night:

SO, me, liying and julia met at changi airport on saturday at 12pm, cos liying THOUGHT that we could at least see SHINee at the airport, but then i told her it was VIP terminal, and the flight details also made it seem like it was VIP, SO, we cabbed to orchard central where the official restaurant for KPOP NIGHT was.

i was really hoping to at least see FT ISLAND that day cos i really really like them alot... yeah, but then when we reached, the restaurant was closed, actually, it was closed for the idols i think but then no one was there anyway. but we did not give up! we went up one level cos ZEA fans were running up, and then when we reached level 8, SOME GUY FREAKING WALKED PAST US INTO THE RESTAURANT WITH A SECURITY GUARD BEHIND HIM, and we were like, OMG!!! THEN, SOME OTHER GUY WALKED PAST US WITH GUARD IN FRONT OF HIM, INTO THE TOILET, AND WHEN HE WALKED PAST US, HE SMILED AT US ALTHOUGH WE STONED AT HIM!!!

THEN, WHEN WE WALKED PAST THE RESTAURANT, WE SAW ZEA FREAKING EATING!!! then we realise that guy was from zea. haha but we don't really like zea so :/ IF ONLY IT WAS SEUNGHYUN OR HONGKI OR KEY T-T

after that, we left the place, saw many FAN VANS outside the mall, and many zea fans running to their vans, so we guessed that zea was probably eating finish soon. THEN, WE CABBED TO EXPO!!!

and omg, this is the BEST PART. liying walked us to the back carpark of hall 2, and there were barricades there so we decided to wait there. then we were standing next to a van, we thought it was a fan van, BUT OMG, after like 5 min, the van drove into the open barricades and we immediately stood at the barricades. THEN, SUDDENLY, FT ISLAND CAME OUT OF HALL 2 AND FREAKING WALKED INTO THE VAN WHICH WAS DIRECTLY IN FRONT OF US!!!

AND SEUNGHYUN WAVED AT US!!! I WAS SHOUTING "SEUNGHYUN OPPA!! HONGKI OPPA!! OPPA!!" HAHAHA and i'm definite that he saw us, cos there were only like 20 fans there, since it was a place not many fans would think of going :D hehehe then as the van drove away, MINHWAN PULLED THE CURTAINS AND WAVED AT US!!! AHHHH

i was so happy i almost cried ;) you know how much i adore FT ISLAND, and although it pains me to watch fancams of them singing my now favourite song "love love love", i think seunghyun's wave mended my heart ^-^ and i watched other hotel fancams, but in all of them, seunghyun looked quite pissed and so did the rest of ft island, so that was probably the BEST moment we could ever have :)

so we decided to wait there for shinee/big bang to come for rehearsals. after like 1 hour plus, which was very long, more fans came, more fan vans, some empty vans came. THEN, after a really long wait, SHINEE ARRIVED!!! but we kena blocked, so couldn't see much, i think i caught taemin's hair? haha was rather sad we missed that chance..

BUT THEN, WE COULD HEAR THEIR REHEARSALS FROM OUTSIDE THE HALL!! many fans crazy one ah, they started screaming after each member sang, and key had the loudest screams tsk!!! HE'S MINE!! HAHA and i'm not so crazy ok, i'd rather hear him sing than scream lor.

THEN after another long wait, BIG BANG ARRIVED!!! we kena blocked by a damn van this time, was really pitiful, but it's ok, luckily i don't really like them, although it'd be awesome to see taeyang and GD. haha sigh.. some fans were really sad ;(

BUT THEN, a moment later, rather abruptly, SHINEE CAME OUT OF THE HALL AND INTO THE VAN AND THIS TIME, I SAW ALL OF THEM!!! TAEMIN AND MINHO EVEN LOOKED AT US!!! although onew was like head-in to the van haha. key walked last so it was good!! and we thought we saw jonghyun but then realised later that he wasn't there :( oh and in the van one of them waved at us :) i think it was key or taemin hehe.

after that, we immediately cabbed to the HOTEL!!! together with hazirah, she said tammy's cousin was having a wedding there so we could have some access to the hotel :D hehehe!!
and just when we reached the hotel, many fans were lined up along some red carpet outside the entrance of the hotel, and in that moment, THE BOSS came out of the hotel!!! we couldn't really see cos we were at the back, but i was so happy it wasn't ft island ;)))

then we thought we could just go into the hotel cos tammy was inside, but some woman didn't allow us :( BUT LUCKY FOR US, AND I MEAN REALLY LUCKY, lasttime we stalked CN BLUE, we found a way to get into the hotel via kou fu!!! HAHAHAH oh yeah!!!! we soon got in the hotel, almost got chased out, but luckily tammy was there, so the guard let us off :) then we stood at the staircase overlooking the ground floor where all the groups will walk to get out of the hotel.

after another short wait, INFINITE left the hotel!!! we could see them very clearly, and one of them waved in our direction hehehe, although we were elavated. we could see them walk from inside the hotel, and when we went to the other side of the staircase, we could see what was happening outside, YAY!!!

then after awhile, ZEA left the hotel!!! yay stunning guys, they were so good to the fans, one guy actually took a fanboard from a fan, and when they were outside the hotel, they stopped on the red carpet to wave at every fan, they were so good!!! but too bad for us, we were up there inside the hotel so we didn't get it, but oh well, its zea anyway xD

after that, the hotel staff told us to get off the staircase!!! we were to either go up or down. i decided to go down, so the rest followed :) actually i thought that downstairs was better, since the idols could see you and you could see them, so i was quite happy for this chance. also, before this, the manager didn't allow us to stay downstairs cos they had a limit to the fans standing there :(

and i think we really have alot of affinity with FT ISLAND, cos when we were downstairs, THEY CAME OUT!!! HEHEHE and seunghyun looked happy :) he was listening to his mp3, andi shouted "HONGKI OPPA! SEUNGHYUN OPPA!" and i think hongki heard me, cos after that he smiled at the fans, although not me :( but AHH, HE WAS SO SHUAI AND DAZZLING AND his cheeks were so cute!! HAHAHAH and jonghun was so hot, and minhwan and jae jin were so cute!!! HEHEHEHEE. it totally made my day again :)

however, after that, they becamse stricter and asked us to move further behind, i think cos next was shinee and after the fan incident in indonesia, i think they wanted to precaution. anyway, lucky for us we still could see them.

and true enough, SHINEE came out!!! WOOHOO this time we saw their whole body, AND KEY WAVED AT US!!! GAHHHH my awesome key :) onew walked quite fast though. and taemin was with onew. minho did smile i think, but he walked fast too. IT WAS KEY WHO WAVED!!!

haha ok then after that we left the hotel and ate dinner together :)

i think that we really had alot of luck with ft island, because the first encounter was a close shave, if we were any later, we would have missed them! plus seunghyun was in a good mood :) then the second encounter, we were asked to move down, which means they could see us too! so it was another good thing :)

and i think i'm really lucky, cos my biases were the ones who WAVED!!! KEY AND SEUNGHYUN!! minhwan waved too, hehe but that was in the van ;)

ok i think i feel much better now. i was rather sad not going kpop night after watching "love love love" fancams, cos i really hold that song close to my heart and it's a dream to see them perform it live in front of me, but i missed it even though it was in singapore. but i told myself, at least seunghyun waved :) i couldn't find fancams of it, i hope the girl who took the fancam would upload it, i'd be really grateful to her, cos that's my only memory of seunghyun :)

it's in my head, forever etched there, i'd never forget it! hehe. the next time ft island comes again, i'm so going! although they came many times before....OH YEAH, MY SIS HAS SEUNGHYUN'S FREAKING AUTOGRAPH! AND IT'S NEXT TO ME NOW. damn, i'm so blur xD haha ok, i shall continue to support ft island!

and shining shinee :)

2010-10-19T18:06:00.003+08:00

we had a CAREER talk today, by high achievers and i think our trainer is AWESOME!!!
she's so pro to be so engaging haha. and the things she said were interesting to know too! like alot of stories..

so now i'm thinking alot about my future. actually i've thought about it long ago, but hmm, not quite sure what i wanna be when i grow up.

but since my interest in music is growing, it shall be one of my considerations :) it could be a hobby or a part-time job?

OH i watched 2 episodes of "burning flames 3" cos they played it on tv just now. WOOHOO HEHEHEHE and then the more i look at BOSCO, the more i like him! HAHAHAH he's so shuai! and his character in the show very nice, haha.

ok i'm so hua xin!!! NOW, at this moment, i go crazy over KEY, JUNSU, HONG KI, SEUNG HYUN, LEETEUK, HEECHUL, DOOJOON, HAN GENG, JIN WOON, BOSCO + ALL THE SHUAI HK ACTORS i forgot their names xD...

hahaha siao one leh me. i think they're the reason why i HEHEHEHE HAHAHAHA all day. so funny haha.

OH SOMETHING weird? HAPPENED JUST NOW.
i was running to the bus stop hoping to catch my bus, then a group of students from don't know which school were walking towards the bus stop too, then one of the guys suddenly shout to me "EH CHILL, RELAX" "CHILL CHILL" but i was too keen on catching my bus that i didn't respond.
THEN I MISSED MY BUS -.- THEN the guy and his friends walked to the bus stop, then he stopped in front of me, asked "ARE WE FRIENDS?" a few times, then i don't know what to say so i NODDED to shake him off omg. then he did a thumbs-up and waved goodbye.

haha it was a rather interesting encounter. and then my friends came and laughed at me -.- tskkk i could've caught my bus if the uncle waited a second more!

ahhhhhh ok i can't stop thinking about bosco now HAHAHAHAHHAHA. everytime i watch hk dramas it's like that haha. cos always got the common actors, bosco, raymond, the dinosaur guy, the dinosaur guy no. 2.. i forgot the dinosaurs' names haha but my sis and i call them that xD

oh i was looking for dramas to watch, idk what to watch now. i wanna watch GLEE but then can't find full season online. rawr ok i wanna watch uk-based movies!!!
ok i shall bzz now.

poof

hehehe think i was going to let you off?

WHEEE!~

AHH HONG KI SO CUTE HAHA

HAHA good job key, i don't support jongkey!!

HAHAHA hongki~

pshh

2010-10-18T20:50:00.002+08:00

i think i have a split personality.
but i don't feel like talking about it. today has been a really annoying day.

i feel really annoyed at how they operate, and feel annoyed that i have to play that, but then i'm half ok with it, yet half pissed.
now i'm ok with what i have, cos i really don't give a damn about it anymore.

if i say i was angry now, i'd be angry at how they lead us, and how much time has been wasted this year. i feel really disappointed that things turn out this way.

but then i think, why should i care so much? then i think again, because the time wasted is my time. and for how much it has changed since 2 years ago. it was more intense last time, but now it's like a passing wave. idk.

we can continue being like this, and i'd feel really sad that i belong here.

oh well, there's more to life than to mull over this, so from now on, i will not give a damn and just accept it as it is. amen.

okay idk what else to say.

oh ya, sorry to my friends who feel that they've cared for me, yet i still say they don't. :x
aiya don't say sorry to me, it's just me being emo here.

this is how i'd describe myself:
a jelly in a shell.

swimming!

2010-10-16T18:47:00.003+08:00

HELLO :D

hmm, ok i thought there was violin class today, went there, then realised OH SHOOTS no class today cos teacher not around -.- SHEESH. hahaha waste my time D;

but then i went to meet yj to SWIM after that :D hahaha it was such a sunny day today, it's a good time to swim :D kekeke but then most of the time we were just talking in the pool.. but we swam some laps after every conversation HAHA.

then after that we met xt for our NUS physics project. rawr why did we even agree to do the project??? it's so... DOTS. ok but oh well, but then we didn't do much in the end XD

oh borrowed CHINESE story books from the library. i've been itching to read them idk why haha but its a good thing. i scared i read one page then give up -.-

anyway, i was just thinking thinking thinking last night, and i felt like i probably have many good friends, but not one friend who i can tell everything to. like EVERYTHING.

i realise, why am i always the one listening to people's woes and worries, but no one listens to mine? i receive phone calls, smses, even at home my sister, everyone uses me like a teddy bear they can talk to, and this teddy bear does not have a mouth to tell them about it's life.
you know, sometimes i just wanna hang up, wanna shut out, all these worries?
why am i so nice? sometimes i need someone too yknow.
and why am i so emotional these days? sigh.

OH YEAH, I CAN PLAY FT ISLAND'S LOVE LOVE LOVE ON THE VIOLIN AND PIANO!!! gonna try on the guitar too :DDD i love love love that song and ft now! haha

and here's today's music core, with key and taemin as MCs:

BEAST!!! WOOHOO THEY ROCK!!! TODAY'S BEAST'S 1ST ANNIVERSARY BTW!! LOVE THEM! and i'm finally going to see them after the failed times when they came lasttime. haha

2PM'S COMEBACK!!! OH JUNSU! 1.24s-1.39s AHHHHH HE'S SO HOT HAHAHA. and i'm going to see them on dec 4th!!! woohoo :)

SHINEE!!! they are sitting down thanks to some annoying fans who made jonghyun and key injured. and key is injured at his CHEST i don't know how that happen but if i find out who touched him, oh that person will regret! haha kidding.

FT ISLAND!!! kekeke i suddenly really like ft island! they've risen from my charts haha lasttime my sis always talk about them but i didn't like them at all. i'm the type that needs to experience/hear for myself to see if i like them haha and now i do!
i play it on the violin now kekeke love this song so much!
and their other songs :)

ok this may sound wrong but then i saw a girl who looks like seunghyun(the rapper in this vid), and i think she's cool :x ok actually not really, her dressing is like a kid, i think she's around my age? and she's left-handed O.O i saw her using her chopsticks with her left hand. OK OMG THIS IS SO GAY I'M SORRY. i'm straight but aiya, why girls keep looking like guys and guy look like girls nowadays? it's so confusing sometimes XD

ok all the red words are what i wrote after i came back from dinner xD i wrote this post before dinner initially haha

HELLO

2010-10-15T19:00:00.001+08:00

HELLO :DDD
IT'S BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE I'VE BEEN HERE LOL. ok but i'm back now.
the writing feeling is GONE. yeah haha quite unbelievable that i've not blogged for THIS LONG...

i shall just give a summary of my life.

OK SO, EXAMS ENDED YESTERDAY!!! YES I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!! HEHEHE but then o level chinese coming up -.- yeah, and we started chinese lessons today! UGHHHHHH.
but i'm going to work hard to produce that a1 :D

so, the papers were... not that bad lah, considering the fact that i'm someone who doesn't really care about anything much xD as in, since it's over, what's the point of moaning over a careless mistake and all that stuff?
i'm so sensible HAHAHAHA.

OKAY SO AFTER EXAMS YESTERDAY, IMMEDIATELY, ME AND RACHEL WENT TO FIND CHARLOTTE!!!
at tjc! hahaha then we ate lunch with char's friends, then we went to char's house, put our things down, change, then...

WE WENT CYCLING!!! YES AT EAST COAST PARK OMG HAHA I WAS SO FREAKING HAPPY AND SATISFIED!!! i like it how afterour major exams we always go east coast to cycle ^-^ and i was the organiser~ HAHAHA my love for cycling :)

we did this last year too!

then SHIOK AH!!! SEA BREEZE SO SHUANG, SO NICE SO :DDD cycled for an hour, then ate ice cream, play in the sea AND OMG I SAW A JELLYFISH OMG OMG OMG!!!
I WAS SO SCARED I WAS SCREAMING LIKE SOME CRAZY PERSON HAHAHAA
COS IT LOOKED LIKE PLASTIC, THEN CHARLOTTE ANYHOW SAY "AIYA JUST PLASTIC, OR MAYBE JELLYFISH?" THEN REALLY JELLYFISH!!!

hahaha then i didnt dare to go in the sea again D; but at least we went until knee level before the jellyfish incident :D hahaha

then we stood on the breakwater, then we, actually ME, SCREAMED!! WOOHOOO so shuang, the cool breeze! THEN I SAW ANOTHER JELLYFISH OMG!!!!!!

THEN I RAN FAR FAR AWAY ONTHE SAND HAHAHAHAA. after playing in the sea, we cycled to the toilet, washed up, then cycled back to return the bikes :D

I HAD A SILVER BIKE WITH A RED BELL!!!!!!! YAY SO HAPPY :D hahaha

after that we walked back to char's house, then ate watermelon and JAMMED!!
YEAH BABY WE PLAYED SO MANY SONGS!!! we attempted the LADY GAGA MEDLEY which char discovered, then fireflies(which was super hard!!!), VIDA LA VIDA(as always), superman, fifteen, when i'm with you, etc etc.
AND CHAR TAUGHT ME THE CADD9 CHORD!!!

WOOHOO I'M SO HAPPY NOW WE CAN PLAY SO MANY SONGS NICELY!!! CADD9 HAS A REALLY HMM, NICE SOUND? HEHEHE so awesome ;)

i'm gonna polish up my guitar playing, and play more songs on my violin, and maybe piano, and hmm, i can't do much for drums unless i have the set so OH WELL. haha and yay, i shall jam with my dad since exams are overr!!!

AND AND AND I WANNA WATCH GLEE!!! HAHAHA

i think that i've become back to normal. and by normal, i don't mean back to spazzing over kpop, i mean, like before that. you know, before everything.
there was one point in time when my motto in life was to SMILE! haha and i was just some happy girl going to school and laughing alot.

WELL, i don't know, i think i'm back to being the laughing one :D
at least with my old classmates. yeah, actually, only with my old classmates.
yay, i like being my old self!
now life feels like it's all about the smart people trying to be smart in front of the other smart people and i'm just...
honestly i hate it. i'm not smart, but the people around me are, and sometimes i feel like i'm being looked down on.
and then i build a defensive shield over myself.

i don't know why i'm saying this. but i'm the type who does the things i wanna do, say the things i wanna say, without a care. HAHAHA. it's just me.

anyway, let's go back to the happy mood!
ok so yeah, i'm hanging out with my old classmates more now!!! haha today lunched with chel, nadia and wenqi! and i got to be happy :D hahaha

and i think i've become quite "hua xin" leh!!! ok all along i've liked junsu, but now, after watching this:

I DIED OMG JUNSU IS SO HOT!!! ESPECIALLY 0.44S OMG AT THAT MOMENT HIS POSE IS SO!!! i melted. hahaha i think he is so my type here!!! hahaha and i think his character also. very funny one haha.
wooohoo it was really O.O watching this mv.

and i LOVE LOVE LOVE this concept for ft island's mv!!! i LOVE LOVE LOVE the gothic-ness of the video, the puppet-humans, the background, the resolution, the setting, IT'S SO uahhuahhauahh! hahaha so hmm, brings out some weird emotion from me. like hmm, think about all the nice, deep memories in life? not that i have many HAHAHA.
and i love hongki's voice.
i think i've brought myself to look up to ft island.
they are the first band that i really look up to :)

now i think kpop is moer like a business than music. i mean, they always talk about their companies and how the concept is like the company's idea, but if you're the one singing a song, shouldn't it come from you? and your character should not be imaged by a bunch of money-making freaks. they may look nice, shinee, suju but when it comes to the soul of music, i'm sorry, i don't think they fit into one i'd look up to.

i'll just like them cos they somehow attract me, but hahaha, it just stops there.

but come to think of it, there's not really anyone who's not being shaped by a company in the music industry. only the solo artists. and from the previous generations. not ours.

OH WELL. hahaha since when did i become so sensible?

k BYE. pizza awaits me thanks to my pizza-craving sister xD

CHINESE PAPER

2010-09-28T14:36:00.003+08:00

HELLO :) higher chinese paper is finally over! woohoo feel so relaxed now!

7 more papers to go, all will start in two weeks time! needa study damn hard now.

paper 1 was not as hard as i expected it to be, almost wrote yi lun wen but did bao zhang in the end :P haha
gong han i took like 1 hr, almost scared can't finish everything :X

paper 2 was rushing for time sia! walau mr eng false alarm say 14 min left i still at the 2nd compre haven't do summary i was like FUCK under my breath sia.
luckily the summary this time not so hard, first draft just nice 80 words lol.
i was like rushing through all the si kao questions.
but overall not bad i thought, the passages not much of hard words PHEWW.

keke leeteuk so toot when he landed HAHAHAHAA XD so funny

ryeowook's first kick! accroding to heechul hahaha.

suju volley-soccer! haha eh i can't tell which one is teukie D:

lol leeteuk's such a cheater-bug! he ran without the hurdles -.- hahaha

AHHHH they buly leeteuk! hahaha topless teuk!! XD heechul rocks for putting this up~
kekeke

that day heechul tweeted the photo of him and leeteuk during their AHEM parts in bonamana!!! teukchul!!! hehehehehe so happy hahaha

okay i realise all my vids contain teuk today 8D

hhahah can't wait for shinee's comeback song "Hello" and B2ST's comeback song "SOOM" !!! woohoo yeah man :D

kay, BYE.

ENGLISH PAPER overrrrr

2010-09-27T13:28:00.002+08:00

HELLO :)

english exam is overrr!! so fast, how time flies, and i remember how at this time of the year last year i got hooked on teuk xD hahahahahah ok so funny but OMG i was rewatching jojo and sheeeet, i miss shinee and key D; and i can't believe i'm going to miss the k-pop night GRRR. our stalking plans must MUST work, i'm going to see key again :D and hopefully this time i can pass him a gift! HAHAHA. i wish ah.
last time we had eye contact!!! like 2 metres away from each other! so close yet so far sigh...

anyway, my love for english has been proven today! haha for the first time in my life, i actually did an exposition! i've never even practised exposition before or even know its format and all that stuff but somehow i felt like God was telling me to try.
i'm serious. so i wrote about "words" haha. and i had some bible verses in my exposition! the exposition song we learnt last year really helped, and although the tune was stupid, i remembered this: "we use expository writing to explain, provide the reader with some information, ...give examples..." smth like that, so i applied it! :D i'm so pro. still rmb.

yup. i thought of it more like something fun to do rather than an examination :)

0.31s-0.35s DAMNIT KEY'S SO HOT!!! AHHHHHH!!!
0.36s-0.44s EVEN ONEW SEEMS HOT!!! OMG XD
1.39s1.47s kekekeke eh the camera shoudld've stayed on him all the time!!!
1.53s AHHHH HAHAHA
3.26s-3.27s :DDD

hahaha oh i had this weird dream last night about onkey!! omg hahahaa they were acting in some drama i think i thought it was hello baby ep 12 then key called onew his "armour" and kissed him OMG haha and it wasn't a passionate kiss but it was on the lips i know this is so wrong but omg xD then i remember after i saw that i immediately told xinting! HAHAHA sheesh my dreams!

kay i shall stare at pictures of key and study for HCL paper tmr!
BYE!

DISTINCTION!

2010-09-25T17:29:00.003+08:00

HELLO :)

hehehe today is a great day so far! :D

so i started off with violin class, and UNEXPECTEDLY, MY RESULTS WERE OUT!!!

I WAS SO FREAKING SCARED I DIDN'T WANT TO KNOW MY MARKS!!! i didn't even want to see the paper for fear of disappointment T-T so my teacher read out all the comments, showed me the last digit, the first digit, and after i seemed composed, he put my certificate and comments on the music stand and said "congratulations, you've got a distinction :D"

AND THEN I WAS BRIMMING FROM EAR TO EAR!!! HAHAHAHAHA but i wasn't that happy idk why D: maybe cos i only got 136 out of 150. haha previously my teacher said that if i get 135 and above, i can skip grade 4 and take grade 5 next year :D

haha AND I DID IT!!! WOOHOO praise God :) and must thank my teacher aka principal for teaching me :)))

my mistakes came from my aural tests! yeah i knew that, don't know why this year i deproved D; i got full marks for aural last year :( then MY SCALES IMPROVED!!! 2 marks to full marks!!! and my SIGHT-READING improved too :D my songs also improved, each getting 28/30 :D

my teacher says that i could've done better if not for my squeaky violin. i shall do better for grade 5 and aim for a higher distinction!!! ;D but my main objective now is to play well for the orchestra piece :D

hehehe and maybe because of my marks, my teacher said i must go for the orchestra thingy ;D hahaha and i improved in playing today! (although i only practised last night :X) hehe he said i played correctly~ now i need to increase my tempo :D

and i tell you, its really hard to play on a violin without any markings, which means i have to be able to play by hearing completely. :( very hard, but i did it, i played in tune for the piece today! HEHEHE I THINK I ROCK OMG XD

i think violinists and pianists are really different. violinists need to know the notes very well and how they sound, but pianists just need to play cos the piano is already in tune. so i think that even though i'm only grade 3, i may be better than some higher grade pianist in terms of playing by ear :PPP
haha i'm being ego here but it's true~~~
and i love my new violin! the sound produced is so nice :)

haha and after violin class i met up with nithya for STATIONERY SHOPPING! haha we bought new pens for exam at popular, then lunched tgt ;D haha it was so nice cos we talked alot :)
and after that we took bus home tgt! :) we live very near each other btw haha.

yup, and OH YA i had a night mare last night T-T and a dream in the morning. my nightmare ended at 7am, then i woke up to spit phlegm, and went back to sleep. this time i forced myself to dream something nice then a story started and the story ended at 9am, and i woke up. haha somehow i estimated that the dream lasted 2hrs and it really did ;D

the nightmare was so freaky!!! its not monsters or anything but aiyo, it felt so real but i'd really object to it. i felt so manipulated in the nightmare O.O i control myself, nobody tells me what to feel!!! humph.

there's this hong kong drama that we watched and it ended last night. it's called "cupid stupid". the drama's really nice!!! but sad ending :(

i don't know how to explain this but i feel so much in a good mood today that everything's going right. all these small things bring some warm feeling in the midst of the darkness of exams.
ah, i feel like nothing's missing in my life.

~ happy :)

k BYE.

HAPPY MID-AUTUMN FESTIVAL

2010-09-22T14:34:00.004+08:00

HAPPY MID-AUTUMN FESTIVAL!!!

kekeke it's finally the time of the year when you can eat mooncakes, play lanterns and candles and admire the roundness of the moon! HAHAHA it's totally my favourite festival :DDD (if you didn't already know that)

leeteuk: "YES!!! LET'S EAT MOONCAKES!"
hahaha and in Korea they call it CHUSEOK holiday! :)

i got to play lanterns, candles and sparklers with jie and isabel on sunday night! haha there was almost practically no one playing but us :( cos everyone played on saturday :(

but after awhile there were some small kids :D with electronic lanterns =_= what happened to preserving the culture of celebrating mid-autumn? tsk haha i only like to eat traditional mooncakes with the yolk in the centre and baked skin :DDD hahaha feel like eating it now!!!

woohoo ok i think i'm in a good mood today, maybe because it's mid-autumn.. there were some incidents that happened that made me reminisce:
-i met my primary school BEST FRIEND on the way home!!! it was so freaking coincidental!!!
-the two small boys 2 floors above me took the same lift as me! haha it's been a long time since i've seen them.
-ahma was telling me about her past, of course i knew some of it already but some thoughts were interesting :D

yeah, ok and my life is rather mono-coloured now. except for a few occasional blotches ;)

it was weird texting but then i realised you're actually pretty nice.
so much nicer than your bitches.
WEIRD.

k bye.

my life in a post

2010-09-19T12:23:00.002+08:00

life isn't going well for me.
i think.

once again i have 1001 things to do.
and what's bothering me is this:
- i have sinus infection (so the doctor says)
- holiday homework to complete
- current homework to complete
- exams to study for
- I'M PLAYING IN AN ORCHESTRA as violin part 1-most important part :P

i think i'm going to either DIE or learn to MANAGE MY TIME.
not to mention i have a social life~ haha
but anyway, i guess everyone's mugging so there's no social life for anyone now.

my life is pretty awesome right? i'm trying to think positive all the tinme, thinking that God must have a reason for putting so much on me.
i guess i can pull through this-and my drowsy medicine, if i trust in God.

i mean, if you were me, you'd be dying right? not to mention the jet-lag i had this week. or rather, excessive sleep and tiredness. i still pulled through.

i figured its not that bad, it may be stressful, but my life has more meaning than others. i get to play in an orchestra! and my teacher has such high hopes on me. (only 8 people are playing violin part 1) although i kinda skipped orchestra practice last night. he just told me yesterday, and i just got the scores yesterday, and i couldn't go last night cos my parents had dinner appointment.

OH IT WAS COOL. we went to "THE JEWEL BOX" last night. the one at mount faber. go google it or smth, the place is so scenic and awesome. the night breeze kinda reminded me of london.

but then i was in a bad mood coughing last night so it was pretty screwed. oh but the toilet damn chio omg there's even a sofa there. its like classy to the max. you don't even see this in hotel toilets.

yeah i shall upload photos when i feel like it :)

i kinda skipped church today. i feel bad but then i feel sick so i didn't go. i just snuck some time to rant here.

anyway, MID-AUTUMN FESTIVAL is coming soon! its like my favourite festival ever!!! it has always been, if you know me :) hahaha i love mooncakes, and seeing the full moon, playing lanterns and candles ;)

and we're going to play candles and lanterns tonight!!! me, jie and isabel~ :D if everything goes well i guess. woohoo i hope nothing spoils it, i really wanna play :D

and i hope i get well soon. of all times i have to fall sick now :( feel kinda jinxed but then God has a reason for everything so i feel better knowing that.

OH YA i bought a NEW VIOLIN yesterday. i had to, because i grew and i need a bigger violin. so now i have a FULL SIZE violin that costs 850 bucks. mum didn't want to buy the 1600 bucks violin so oh well. it's not expensive for a full size violin that will last me till grade 7 okay, plus my violin is cheaper than the market rate, cos my teacher imports them himself and hand-mantle the violins.

and it's once again, damn chio!!! i chose the one with a more open sound, the other one had a mellow sound. i went with my mum and sis and my teacher to choose the violin. it's not just any violin that will do, it has to be one which i like. you know, the sound and the everything. :D

but then now i feel bad to my old violin :( but my sis says it's time to move on. i hope it won't feel sad. i'll still play with it :D

ok i shall look on the bright side of life!
my life is interesting.
my life is way better than most people.
i'm talented~
and i ROCK SOCKS!
i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. amen!

i gotta feeling

2010-09-15T14:49:00.004+08:00

apparently people were spamming my twitter timeline with "TAEMIN'S HAIR-BOWL CUT" and how they think it's horrible yesterday, so i decided to check it out.

AND I THINK HE'S SO CUTE!!! ahhhh haha i like his hair like this :D although i never really liked taemin. back to the replay days~ just more cute now haha.

TEUK! sexy legs~ with minho, the hyung-whore xD tsk tsk

ya anyway, yesterday was some idol sports day thingy. here are some fancams:

ahh hahahaha taemin bully leader!

JJONG IS SO FAST OMG...

star king:

OMG its so cool yet so scary/disgusting...
poor taemin XD hahaha

i haven't got back into the spazzing mood yet after the uk trip. cos of the homework that's piling up like shit + my freaking long naps... i slept for like 3 hours in the afternoon ytd and 6 hours at night, i feel like a pig... it's really very hard to force myself to wake up leh, like total knockout.
and even when i open my eyes, it's so hard to push myself up from bed/sofa. :(
so i decided, i'm not going to sleep in the afternoons again. I WILL PERSEVERE.
haha at least i'm not jet-lagged. just tired.

i got some weird feeling in me.
and i kinda miss the people, the life there..

even more the randomnest of all...
it's weird.

jet-lag

2010-09-13T15:12:00.001+08:00

i love singapore but I MISS LONDON T-T

okayy, i really feel weird, luckily my jet-lag isn't that bad CUZ
i survived school today. barely like during bio i was half-dead seriously gosh.

but the good thing is that no one collected holiday hw. -peace-

sheesh i have like 101 things to doooo and i'm so tired.

i FORGOT all my dreams the past week :( omg i miss dreaming, i want my dreams back :C they say it's because i'm so tired i don't even dream, i just SLEEP. zzz

yeah my limbs were immovable when i slept ytd O.O

OH and we survived jogging!!! and we jogged super fast~ haha anisha they'all didn't joggg!!! so we are pro :D
some people ponned school too~
so we are really pro :D

anyway, i think i'm going to sleep. sorry for not going cca, cuz even if i went, i'll be too tired to concentrate. miss handbells though :C
and my limbs feel dead.

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anyway, i seriously miss london :((( and the people :((( and the life there :(((
boohoo and now we're back to classrooms and studying and homework.
at least studying there was nice...

OH YEAH, CAMBRIDGE BECAME THE TOP MEDICAL SCHOOL WHILE WE WERE THERE HAHAHAHA. it was harvard at first, but so coincidence they became top when we were there ~ oh yeah~ must have been our presence xD

boohoo idk why but then i really miss the whole group.
it's really weird. maybe cos it took my whole sept holiday xD

i feel happy for the wrong reasons...

ONKEY!!! :) onew was jealous that taemin played with key, so he knocked taemin down! HAHAA...

i feel so gay okay i shall bathe and sleep.

BYE.

I'M BACK

2010-09-12T16:49:00.002+08:00

HELLO :)
I'M BACK FROM LONDON, CAMBRIDGE and there's so much to say that i don't feel like saying anything..

it was just AWESOME.

feeling quite tired now, so BYE!

btw, since i watched it:

WOOHOO.
yawns, 1 week deprivation of computer, BUT i'm surviving :)

BYE.

GOING TO UK!

2010-09-03T19:51:00.001+08:00

HELLO :)

going to the airport in less than 3 hours.

GOODBYE SINGAPORE! GOODBYE EVERYONE!

oh yes, i'm sick! (sore throat) :((( so i gotta bring my medicine OVERSEAS!!!

and the doctor gave me cough and running nose med in case i fall sick there :) haha i hope not! i guess it's recovering :)

YAY! OKAY GONNA pack up some stuff and get mentally prepared for the trip!

SEEYA ALL, SEPTEMBER 12TH, NEXT SUNDAY! <3 YA ALL!!!

and take care everyone! tag on my tagboard too~~~

UK TRIP...

2010-09-02T17:51:00.003+08:00

HEY! I'M GOING TO UK TMR O-M-G i don't even feel like i'm flying tmr!!!

it feels normal still... like life still remains the same...

i hope the excited feeling comes tmr! maybe at the airport...

i'm kinda excited! hahaha we're going to stay in a HOSTEL, and i'm rooming with JULIA!!! and it seems like we have our own toilet? according to julia that hostel provides that :) hahaha
actually common toilet also not bad, but own toilet nicer :D and i got my ahem walau of all times come now..

woohoo~ we're going LONDON! yes be jealous :P and of course, we're going to STUDY in CAMBRIDGE!!! 5 days of different areas in SCIENCE.

heh. yeah can't wait!

imma take loads of scenic pictures!!! :) i hope it's like some really english-english place that we're going to and that there'll be nice views :D woohoo love nature~

i packed my bag already but my mum's like... so anxious... i'm like... still ...

anyway, there's like tons of holiday hw so we'll have to bring it there.

OH YES, gonna be back on the 12th! and next day got school -.-
yeah, sucks! gonna get jet-lag..

ok yeah hope everything will be ok there :)

i should be able to tweet/fb there since there's internet in the rooms. maybe blog if got computer. hehe.

ok MISS ME YA? haha
i'm gonna miss my classmates/close friends, but i'm gonna enjoy myself there too~

kekeke. ok must thank my parents for giving me such an opportunity :) i'm not gonna let them down, i'm gonna make full use of my time there :D

k, seeya soon. <3 i'll probably blog again tmr.

BYE!

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!!!

2010-08-31T14:53:00.004+08:00

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY TEACHERS!!!
woohoo love all our teachers!!! :)))

celebrations in school were not bad, hahaha.
we had some self-defence thingy first, the whole school, and it was so funny and retarded haha.
but it was cool hahaha.

then after that we had the teacher-student games, but then we didn't play so we watched them play and walk around aimlessly.

after that was the indoor concert~
haha the cheer-leading was quite nice, except some were really bitchy. but i thought GARDE was damn pro lah, walau the teachers blind one, don't let them win. :(
there were videos, awards to teachers and a performance by the new teachers!
HAHAHA the performance was SO FUNNY OMG it was super epic xD

mr huttons(how to spell) CROSS-DRESSED as taylor swift which was omg so traumatising xD
hahah then they performed "SORRY SORRY" at the end it was damn FUNNY!!! hahaha especially the mr teo pretend to dance like eunhyuk hahaha... it goes to show that teachers actually watch the sorry sorry live hahaha.

yeah. after that went back pri school with chel and yi xin and gina(junior:D) and met the other cedarians/PL-lites there :)
WOOHOO PL ROCKS hahaha. i still miss the pri school days... saw alison and angelyn at the bus stop!!! miss them and the rest!!! there were quite alot of cedarians who went back to PL haha our uniform so obvious somemore. including our handbell juniors hahah.

this year we got to go into the hall to watch the concert!!! yeah man! hahaha see all the tiny pri school students, so cute!!! and their performances were so kiddy :X there was a PL superstar performance and they sang "lao shu ai da mi" WHICH WAS LIKE... how many years ago a hit song LOL. HAHAHA

yeah, then saw some familiar teachers, but then most of my teachers left PL already :( at least my favourite ones :( but then we ran into mrs yap!!! WOOHOO :)

most importantly, with the remaining number of sec 3s who actually bother to go back to PL, we got to meet up with our ex-classmates!!! hahaah and i think i know the most number of people who went back :P hahahah i'm so famous~
i even saw my kindergarten friend there XD

yeah. then after that i crossed the road home! hehehehe.

it's scary how they're so similar.

baby~ oh you made me smile so much :)
and i keep replaying the same song...

VIOLIN EXAM OVER!

2010-08-30T15:09:00.003+08:00

YEAH MAN VIOLIN GRADE 3 EXAM IS FINALLY OVER!!! all the hours, all the painful fingers, all the aching neck, my three pieces, scales, appegios, dominant sevenths, chromatic scales, ALL PAID OFF!!! TEEHEE

okay so i was debating on whether i should go to school today or not. in the end, i went to school. haha although i almost didn't go cos WE STILL HAD FREE STARHUB CHANNELS AND OMG THEY WERE SHOWING MY FAVOURITE HK MOVIE "THE WHITE DRAGON" EARLY IN THE MORNING!!! yeah, i was so HAPPY!!! watched abit then went to school ;(
tsk, they should show it in the afternoon mah, who wake up so early to watch one?

anyway, later going to watch another movie "ai, duan le xian" hehehehe. forgot the eng name. YEAH MAN, i love hk movies to the max!!!
and i got to watch my 72 tenants of prosperity last night!!! teehee so happy :D bosco :D

yeah, ok so then i went for the first 3 periods, including the eng summary TA, then after that ms ong followed me down to sign the form then i went for violin~
found a room on the 3rd level and started to practice my scales etc and 3 pieces :D
and and and michelle tuned my violin for me! my first violin teacher!!! yeah.
after awhile my piano accompaniment teacher came, ALONG with my violin teacher/principal!

i felt better this time since my violin teacher was there! the past 2 years i was aloneee.. yeah haha so i appreciated it :)

after awhile, it was time to go down!
the teachers outside the examination room all smiled at me :D i felt better :) michelle and my piano accompaniment teacher then followed me in(michelle helped my tune my violin again)

played my three pieces, then teacher went out, then i was tested on my scales etc, followed by sight reading, followed by aural tests.

in 10 min, I WAS DONE!!! left the room smiling :D and the teachers outside smiled back :Dkekeke

yep, then went to eat lunch with mum/buy things, then came home and slept. i'm so tired... if you already know why. haha but i must say i'm feeling quite relaxed now.

i left:
-pack bag for uk trip
-study for chem, math and bio tests

xt says i look very stressed~

well here's to make up for my stressful life:

I LIKE THIS PIC!! i don't know why it's so tiny but they look so cool here!!! whoops shin dong is missing :X this is during the incheon hallayu concert ytd.

TEUKIE!!! :))) TEEHEE he looks so shuai here!

HEECHUL the red chilli xD hahahahaha so tootly-cute xD

i fell in love with this guy:

he's a hk actor/singer!! alex fong lik sun! haha i watched a movie called "bullet and brain" and he was so cool/shuai in the show~ xD

kay, BYE!

2010-08-29T16:49:00.002+08:00

feeling quite stressed now:

-violin exam tmr
-flying to UK on friday
-small class tests for like idk how many subjects the coming week

and i've not packed my freaking bag for UK. and i'm going there for 10 days?

SHEESH. and violin exam tmr!!! so fast, how time flies.

and i've not studied a single bit for any of the shit tests we're going to get.

and i'm figuring out how to download videos now. all the converting stuff arghhhh.

so if you think that your life is far more stressful than mine, kindly share it.
and i'm still here when i should be packing my bag/studying/practising my violin.

not to mention the temptation to watch all the hk movies since we've got 2 days free of all starhub channels thanks to their lousy service which cracked up our tv for a few days.

and when i thought i could finally watch my "72 tenants of prosperity", my parents wanna go out for dinner.
ARGHHH and i freaking told them beforehand like arghh!!!
and i don't wanna go out lah WTF I HAVE LIKE SO MUCH THINGS TO DO SIA.

btw, here's shinee's perf today:

dear God, please let everything be ok. amen.

2010-08-25T18:12:00.003+08:00

HELLO..

RED is my lucky colour~~~ it was my lucky colour yesterday hahaha.
and because of that, watch this:

kekeke DOOJOON! hahaha

and idk why, but then i started watching BEAST videos ytd...

AND WOAH JOON IS OLDER THAN DOOJOON!!! doojoon looks older xD hahaha it's weird to hear doojoon calling joon "hyung"

HEH HEH HEH.

ok yeah. i realise i'm flying next friday O.M.G.

SUNDAY

2010-08-22T18:13:00.002+08:00

HELLO.

had YOG again today... this time i VOLUNTEERED to guard the call room :D

i'm so nice ahaha. anyway today not as many events as yesterday... ended quite early and was slack too haha.

i guess it's because it's a sunday. YAWNS.

slept for like 2 hours just now? hahahaa

i'm refreshed. lalala

going to see my classmates again tmr O.O its been 7 days... and we'll see one another for 12 consecutive days..

HAHAH.

HERE'S SHINEE'S PERFORMANCE TODAY:

WOOHOO :D like taemin's hair!!! so glad he cut it.
shinee didn't win today again :( RAWR BOA WON T-T
but it's ok, shinee's always first to us! :D

TEEN TOP! :)

SM TOWN CONCERT:

IT WAS A RANDOM FANCAM AND OMG AHHHHHHHHH LEETEUK AND HEECHUL MOMENT. and this is quite sick xD hahahaha but AHHH.

jessica's sexy!

K BYE~

YOG CALL ROOM!!!

2010-08-21T17:21:00.002+08:00

HELLO :)
today had to wake up early for YOG!!! i was sleeping so soundly :C
but then it paid off, was quite fun!!!

and i think i'm quite lucky? haha because i got quite a good job and was with nice people :)

so let's start:
first, rachel, yj and i took the first half hr shift to guard our bags, then after that, we started our official CALL ROOM duty!!!

then, the guy assigned me to a table with 4 adults, ALONE. while yj and rachel were to guard the door xD hahaha ok so i was actually quite scared, i was alone...
and i thought the adults were around our age but one was actually 24 OMG haha i thought she was younger. they're all in their 20s. 1 guy and 3 girls.

haha so my job was to make sure the ATHELETES paste their stickers correctly everywhere and to make sure everything is ok...
but today quite slack, we only had 4 events to take care of, so only 4 batches of atheletes. cos there were other teams assigned to do the other events too.

SOOO... i realise most of the time i'm helping the GUYS paste their stickers on their THIGHS, you know, upper thighs, near their sensitive part O.O
and somemore i had to put safety pins on the stickers and you know how the material of their clothes stick to their body O.O
i'm traumatised T-T

the guys were friendlier than the girls!!! cos they got to warm up in the call room, then some of the guy atheletes SMILE AT ME!!! hahaha so i smile back! i said good luck to some of them :)

but no korean D: i hope tmr have! hahaha

then OH OH OH THE BEST PART IS, cos my duty ended early, the adults at my station brought me to go see MERLY AND LEO, the mascots!!! hahaha then after that they brought me to the spectators' stand to watch the last 2 races!!! WOOHOO!!! it was 100m race~ i like 100m race :D haha so exciting.

i think i was the only cedarian who did that :P

that's why i say i'm so lucky~ hahaha

after YOG, went out with joanne, liying, julia, to marina square.
we intended to find CN BLUE'S HOTEL, but then we were just taking a gamble at it. haha so we went to CONRAD HOTEL, MADARIN ORIENTAL HOTEL but then don't have. we were too tired to walk to RITZ CARLTON, and PAN PACIFIC looked deserted.
HAHAHA XD
after hotel-hopping, we window shopped, went to the arcade thingy where they blasted k-pop songs starting from shinee's song :D
haha then we went to eat ICE CREAM, expensive high-class ice cream at MOF :)

and this is my ice cream! teehee the waffle looks like a hart-shape, so cool!
it was some hokkaido sesame ice cream.

today's music core SUCKS. there's no shinee D:
but here's GP BASIC debutting:

THEY ARE FREAKING YOUNG.
EXCEPT FOR ONE WHO'S TWELVE, THE REST ARE FOURTEEN WTF.
i will never support them/admire them! they are so young!!! and their voices are so kiddy EWWWW. especially the youngest one, she shouldn't rap O.O
they should grow older first, it's so WRONG.
this is so WRONG. it's pedophile-ing.

ok since there's no SHINEE today, here's SE7EN:

LIKE HIS HAIR! :)

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i remembered.
do you?

CN BLUE!!!

2010-08-20T20:52:00.002+08:00

HELLO.

CN TO THE BLUE!!! OMG CN BLUE IN SINGAPORE!!! kinda expected this day to come, but didn't think it was so fast. the first time they had a fansign in korea, it was extremely chaotic, they are so famous.
and i liked them since they debutted!!! ok damn sad not going to see them D: and they're having the fansign now in singapore as i'm typing this.
i feel so deprived T-T always wanted to see cn blue!!!
they're actually a BAND, so its like different from the other groups.
hahaha luckily i have no extreme bias in the group, otherwise i'd be hopping around the house now. HAHAHA. but i like jung shin and jong hyun more :)

SHINEE'S PERFORMANCE TODAY!!! so sad BOA won again :( it's ok, SHINEE ROCKS :)
btw taemin's hair is nicerrr. and jonghyun cracked his voice XD

BACKSTAGE~

lalalala. i read somewhere about how SHINEE likes to workout. and while jonghyun and minho build their muscles, key prefers to go CYCLING by the han river!!! :DDD so cool!!! hahaha and onew is neutral. taemin didn't do anything, i guess he's still a kid. haha

ok tmr there's YOG. and i have to wake up at like 6am. RAWR!!! the school is mean, they put 3C's duties over the weekend so we don't get to skip school, but we study so hard already lor. tsk.
and i have to skip church T-T

and the uniform is really eww. i tell you, i'm not going to walk around in it!!! my pants drop even though it's the smallest size, and even the pouch drops O.O

yeah ok anyway, kinda look forward to it since i'm in CALL ROOM~ did that for AYG last year too! close contact with atheletes~ get to touch them i think. hahaha

yeah. oh today physics was so funny cos mrs yeo was talking about pressure then she started talking about CAMELS, then you'd just think it's a one minute interesting side-track thing, BUT THEN, SHE STARTS FLASHING SLIDES AND SLIDES OF CAMEL PICS, CAMEL ADAPTATIONS ANF FUCNTIONS AND EVEN CAMEL JOKES.
lmao i found it so funny hahahahaha. don't you think so?!!! XD hahahahahaha

hmm.
i realise you only know how much people care for you when you feel that all hope is lost...
and i realise how many people actually care for me automatically, and that they don't mind sharing the burden with me :)
i feel so blessed having many friends who are there for me no matter what happens.
i love my friends! :)

SHEESH

2010-08-18T18:15:00.002+08:00

we had makeup class today for TOP period. and HAD FUN DRAWING ON XINTING'S FACE kekeke. hahaha and LIYING'S FACE.

that xinting wanted to get back at me, but luckily i'm fast.

i'm so scared for the english debate tmr.

don't ever count on my luck, trust my intuition. next time i say "i really have a feeling i'm gonna get 1", don't let me ballot.

can't believe my intuition's so freaking spot-on. GOOD LUCK TO US.

and being opposition to "foreign talent is essential for economic growth" ain't helping.

there's going to be a K-POP CONCERT NIGHT on oct 23rd.
if BEAST comes i'm so going.

are you ready or not?

2010-08-17T17:23:00.005+08:00

HELLO :)
life is normal. MRS LIM spent half the geog period ytd spamming us with SHINee and yamapi love~~~kinda expected it.. kekeke i'm kinda into j-pop nowadays, miss the old songs i used to love :)
and so happy she played yamapi's new song!!! though he's not my fav in NEWS...
she should play HEY! SAY! JUMP! songs too.

the thai exchange pupils taught "NO OTHER" in school yesterday, but sadly we couldn't join them. AWWWW...

we played "pickleball" for PE today. so interesting, i didn't know there's such a lame name of a sport. it was fun anyway.

spreading the leeteuk love:

aww this picture is so sweet ok!!! leader carrying the the youngest :) teuk is strong!!! teehee

SO WHO'S THSI WOMAN? LADY GAGA?

NO, IT'S LADY HEE HEE AND HER FANBOYS!!!
lmao actually i don't like this concept, heechul please stop cross-dressing T-T
BE A MAN, LIKE THIS:

those pictures of suju cross-dressing in SS3 were rather disturbing :X hahaha especially the really skimpy ones. AHHHHHH. i hope they don't do that in singapore, i wanna see a man side xD

bringing to you TEEN TOP'S best couple, L. JOE AND CHUNJI!!! woohoo my two top favs! hahaha and they took this picture on Niel's birthday!

sunday's performance:

WHAT THE HECK IS KEY WEARING?! kekeke other than that, :DDD and their harmonising is good here :D lalala woohoo

SO PROUD OF THEM! DIDN'T EXPECT THEM TO WIN SINCE BOA CAME BACK, SO HAPPY :DDD the true power of shawols :)))

my heart melted listening to onew's voice in "i'm yours"! and they did a remake of our last year guitar song "every breath i take"? hahaha and JUILET!!! used to like that song last year :D woohoo shinee's english rock!~

i smiled.

i tried not to.

parodys!

2010-08-14T17:10:00.002+08:00

LMAO i thought i could stop but hahaha, no the list of EXTREMELY FUNNY parodys goes on:

here's SHINee's performance today!

oh gosh i love parodys HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA.
the list still goes on XD

contradictory

2010-08-14T16:12:00.004+08:00

what happened to me?
i've not lost hope at all.
why then, is my soul is giving up on me?
16 days, i thought i'm ready.
i'm not.

oh God, help me.

TGIF

2010-08-13T20:01:00.004+08:00

HELLO :)

i found a new ambition! it's weird for me to actually like that job...
but i'm going to work towards my ideal job and woohoo i'm happy :)

AND BEAST AND 4 MINUTE ARE IN SINGAPORE I ENVY THOSE WHO GET TO SEE THEM. T-T i'm missing my second chance of seeing DOOJOON!!! D; he's one of my top 5 male celebrities :( boohoo i'm really sad...

but here's something interesting:

she's so cool OMG she's really daring and ambitious!!! i admire her :)

oh yes, watched the HANNAH MONTANA MOVIE last night! it was showing on tv so yeah. haha and i cried. well almost, i didn't want to scare my mum/sis so i held my tears.

i cried here. hahaha aiyo, since when was i so sensitive?! O.O
but aiyo, so sad.
you can learn alot from the movie. surprisingly haha. i don't like miley cyrus but it's a good movie :)

i shall post about music bank!
sadly, SHINee didn't win, in fact they're 3rd place this week :(
IT'S EXTREMELY SADDENING T-T stupid sm, put BOA and SHINee together..
and yeah, BOA won. i still remember how she was a big hit about 5 years ago.

i think that only onew and key know how give out electric shocks. haha minho sometimes, but taemin and jonghyun are just..... hahaha
anyway, THEY'RE AWESOME! and they're still the BEST to me even if they didn't win.

i actually think he's kinda cute..

and i actually like her... xD haha i think son dambi is pretty and talented and her voice is the mature nice type:) JUST THAT, if she was less bimbo-ish and wore a longer skirt i think alot of guys would like her :D i think heechul likes her (good taste)

TEEN TOP!!! 1.05s-1.10s my fav chunji part! ^-^ hahaha i think chunji's cute but i don't think he's my type.

i'm only watching SECRET's performance because leeteuk and eunhyuk chose zinger as their ideal girl.
and zinger is the short hair girl. okay i think she looks quite mature...and boy-ish

and for apparently the same reason, i watch NINE MUSES because leeteuk picked two of them to be in the group:

by the way, they're all MODELS, and i think their singing SUCKS and their dancing SUCKS and they are FREAKING SKINNY, it's so not appealing...
and he picked the girl at 1.31s-1.36s, which i thought was one of the better ones, but then he also picked the girl at 2.25s-2.39s which i thought was EWWWW OMG TEUK HAS BAD TASTE...
the 1.31s-1.36s girl kinda looks like taeyeon right? i think she's more of leeteuk's type. haha and i think leeteuk likes those mature, abit boy-ish, quite cool kinda girls. NOT BAD... but then i think he likes pretty girls too haha.

my pet cat HEETEUK! :)

2010-08-10T18:40:00.004+08:00

HELLO :)

i'm so happy today!!! because, I TOUCHED A CAT!!! :DDD honestly speaking, it's the first time in my life. haha all along i've just seen cats, want to have a cat, talk about cats, but NEVER TOUCHED ONE YET.

well, i was scared that it'd scratch me...

BUT TODAY, with ISABEL's help, I TOUCHED A CAT!!! AND STROKED IT!!!
:DDD ok at first, me,jie and isabel met up for LUNCH. wanted to cycle to bel's house before going to eat but then jie's wheel kena deflated, the stupid pump didn't work, so we didn't cycle.
I WAS SO SAD...

then we went to eat at the korean restaurant AGAIN XD hahahaha we keep going there leh! tskk... then after lunch we went popular, then walk abit, then decided to go to the SWINGS AT THE PLAYGROUND with the sandy pit. KEKEKE

on our way there we took some balloons! because there were balloons all around tied to railings, then everyone took the balloons, but we were lucky, there was 1 dark blue, 1 light blue, and 1 yellow balloon left!!! WOOHOO me and bel took the blue ones, and of course jie took the yellow one :D

then we walked to the sandy playground!!! and then, we saw A GINGER-COLOURED CAT!!! it was walking past us, hahaha but then it ran when it saw us D;
we sat on the swings, and i kept persuading bel to go touch it.

at the first attempt, the cat raised it's hackles to her!!! D; so sad the cat so scary. bel thought maybe the cat will come only if you give it food T-T
after that we just played on the swing and i was D;
then right, a boy came, and the cat went to him!!! we were :OOO so shocked! haha from fierce cat to super friendly cat. i think it's attracted to the boy since it's a female cat? hahaha
so looks like not only food does the trick!

so while the boy is stroking the cat, i was whining to isabel "please isabel, go touch the cat!!! i want to touch the cat!!! D;;; T-T go ask the boy!!! go touch the cat!!!" hahaha and i went on and on but everytime she said 'OK", i pulled her back xD hahaha cos paiseh mah, the boy touching..

oh ya, we still had our balloons with us xD hahaha
then um um, i think the boy knows we wanted to touch the cat, so he left after awhile. then while the cat is still friendly and all, we ran to the cat and isabel second attempt to touch it.
THIS TIME IT WORKED!!! WOOHOO

so i touched the cat too!!! after being scared + hesitant xD WOOHOO THANKS TO ISABEL!~
my sis didn't even touch it, she was just near it hahaha xD i know lah, she also scared of touching animals.

THEN, the most funny thing happened. we accidentally let go of isabel's balloon xD hahaha it was like FLYING FREELY IN THE SKY, IT'S SO FUNNY WHEN IT'S SO FAR AWAY YOU STILL SEE IT, LIKE A SMALL SPECK, IT'S DAMN FUNNY XDDD
haha partly my fault, but i didn't know jie wanted to pass the balloon to me, i took the other things though xD hahahaha

so then i released mine too (which kena stuck in tree T-T), then me and bel released jie's balloon! woohoo it flew away too :)

it was so fun/funny, i think i laughed alot today until stomach pain. haha

the best part is, I NAMED THE CAT HEETEUK. yup, haha at first i told bel i'd name it "pat bing soo", cos jie and bel gave me a "fake cat" for my birthday and named it "pat bing soo", but then i said "pat bing soo/ heeteuk" HAHAAHA she expected it.

hmm, it's a good thing the cat's in the neighbourhood, maybe i can go visit it after school someday :) WOOHOO!!! and call it "heeteuk'!!! :)

here's the cat:

me touching it!!! after bel touched it xD

free-ing jie's balloon!!!

IT'S SO COOOOOL!!! FLYING FREEELY!!! :)))

yup, after that, came back home ;)

ok "heeteuk" sounds weird right? it shall be the korean name. "pat bing soo" shall be the chinese name. i shall go think of an english name ;)

k BYE!!!

by the way, watched this drama today. only this ep. watched it long ago but then they showed it again.
the main point is to watch from 2.20s-4.52s :DDD i love it man, it's so romantic!!!
ok EWWWWW i did not just say that. :X
but the cycling part is just ^-^ bosco so strong, he can cycle linda on his back! and they so "pei" ^-^ the ice cream part so nice too :) and it's at night!!!

forget it

2010-08-09T21:08:00.003+08:00

from today onwards, i told myself i'd be a cold-hearted girl.
i want to forget, but i'm remembering more.

it's such a torture, just:
.

;( what's the point, when nothing's gonna work out?
face the fact, this is what it really is.

i'm telling myself to stop dreaming, stop thinking things will be all sweet and nice.
there will be no happily-ever-after, nothing to smile for.
that's if, i don't forget.

forget forget forget.
the more i tell myself to, the more i remember.

i don't think of it through the day, but when night comes, and i try to sleep, images just keep flashing, and i'm smiling, thinking of the short memories, then i open my eyes and tell myself to stop thinking of all that.

it hurts, like a dagger in my heart.

but no, from today onwards, i'm not going to think about it, i'm going to move on, and be a cold-hearted girl.

there's nothing to expect.

-cold-hearted girl

BYFD!!!

2010-08-08T21:14:00.003+08:00

HELLO :)
woohoo had a long day in church today! it was BYFD(bring your friend day)!!!
hahaha yup, and it was FUN! :)

i'm so tired now...
meredith and i should've been the best BFFs!!! hahaha our 3-legged soccer cordination is pro xD
hahaha planning a BIG surprise for our dear friend, kumiko! :) haha she doesn't come here anyway, so she won't know ;P

kekeke oh our group won 1st today!! woohoo we so pro!! :D

just watched some inkigayo performances, SHINee WON AGAIN!!! I'M SO HAPPY :DDD
hahaha and sean likes the song! i don't like the song, but i like them and the moves :D
ok wait i think he just likes the dance. hahaha

i didn't post any music show videos this weekend right? haha should i?
but i wanted to keep this post video-free..
oh forget it, MBLAQ just made me wanna share it:

ahhhhh oh man they all look so shuai today! on their goodbye stage! love their song "one better day"
0.33s-0.37s THUNDER!
1.35s-1.51s MIR!!! teeehee ^-^
2.41s-2.48s JOON!!! i like how he looks friendly here haha

0.21s-0.27s CHUNJI!!!
1.05s-1.08s LOVE THIS PART!!!
ohmygosh haha i just realised how tight their pants are ahhhhh i'm not sick but xD

0.55s-1.02s KEY!!!
1.43s teehee like this part the hands thingy. WE SHOULD REALLY DO IT IN SCHOOL, SO FUNNY!!! XD
1.50s-1.52s ONEW'S ELECTRICITY!!!
2.23s-2.27s i think xinting likes this part! haha me too!!
2.35s-2.41s HAHA i like this part when everyone does that funny sliding-butt-hand move when onew sings hahaha
2.52s-3.07s MINHO'S RAP!

YEAH MAN SHINEE FTW!!! :)

THIS IS SO COOL!!! :D

ok this is quite gay but it's key so :D hahaha HIS ENGLISH IS PRO!!! not bad uh!

if you are easily disturbed by coarse jokes and language, don't watch what i'm gonna post.
this is going to be quite CENSORED but then i like parodys cos they make me laugh so:

hahaha lmao at taemin cutting key's hair and taking minho's monkey/monkey chair.
and taemin's "gayyyyy" part fit with the song so funny xD
it's funny how the lyrics sync with the song hahaha

the first part is abit the disturbing but the chorus onwards is so funny HAHAHAH!!!

i know i spell "parodies" as "parodys", i know it's wrong spelling but i like it that way so :PPP

yep, ok it's late, i wanna sleep.
and for mu bank and mu core, maybe i'll post... i usually post for my reference haha it works ;)

BYE.

SHINEE SECOND WIN ON MUSIC BANK!!! :)

2010-08-06T22:28:00.002+08:00

TODAY WE HAD NATIONAL DAY CELEBRATIONS!!! it was quite fun and ended at like 10 plus :O so early. at first our view was blocked by a tree, so we went up to the auditorium there to stand. actually it was quite boring... because of the award ceremony haha but then the concert in the hall was nice and especially the singing was YAY :) WE CHOO=CHOO-TRAINED IN THE HALL!!! as always hahaha but i think alot of peoples' bags kena stepped on. hahaha last year was more fun :)

i've got alot of vids to share, even though i feel like sleeping but aiyah i don't know why i'm here anyway.
i'm in a dilemma now, i don't know what i should do for a certain thing AIYAHHHHH. God, tell me what to doooo D; i feel so bad asking God all the tiny things whenever i pray to Him... i know God can do so much more :) trying to find an answer... PRAY!!!

arghgababababa i'm quite not good at making decisions, this reminds me of the times when we stalk celebrities xD

i'll try to find my answer, meanwhile, here are some interesting vids:

watch the last minute. i cried :(
i realised that when heechul appeared on strong heart that episode, i only watched the "teukigayo" segment, and didn't realise all the touching things he said. it was so touching i cried.
and especially in this vid, where he talks about what a good leader leeteuk is. aiyoh seeing leeteuk cry really makes me so heart pain ;(

HERE IT IS, but thaisub D; just watch them, the way heechul cries is like he's not crying xD his face still looks the same except that there are tears in his eyes D;
but leeteuk's one is like the whole face is crying T-T

HAHAHA lmao at the part where teuk wants the whole bedroom to be white and AHHH, THEY ACTUALLY SHARED A ROOM LASTTIME ;) yay i'm happy, considering the fact that heechul lives alone most of the time.

and somehow i found this vid.

i also watch one ep of strong heart where donghae talked, but then i lost it.

and TODAY'S MUSIC BANK but i wanna sleep. i watched the whole thing on TV though ;)
and WOOHOO SHINEE WON!! I WAS SO HAPPY I SMILED FOR SO LONG UNTIL MY MUM ASKED ME WHY IM SO HAPPY.
encore was SO FUNNY and there was onkey moment ^-^
i shall upload the vids tmr cos i wanna sleep.

HEHEHEHE

2010-08-04T15:59:00.005+08:00

this is from yesterday, cos i wrote halfway then didn't post :

HELLO :) today we went to the NATIONAL MUSEUM during TOP period~~~ and it was SO FUUNNN!!! :DDD hahaha we had some audio thingy which was like some FAT IPAD to "guide" us around and it was so fun pressing the numbers, but i think i made alot of noise trying to figure what number to press everytime xD hahaha paiseh.

OH and maths was super paiseh for me today. HAHAH cos right, we weren't supposed to use calculator to do the TRIGO part of the question, THEN to find the angle i need, i went to press press my calculator, AND mr tan CAUGHT ME!!! hahaha then he told me not to use my calculator, like very stern like that, then i was like 'NO NO NO NO NO 405 MINUS 360!"

HAHAHA then the whole class laugh xD "405 minus 360" was the angle i was trying to find xD aiyo, i lazy mental sums mah hahaha. then he also laugh HAHAHA. then right, he asked me the ANSWER to that question, then i didn't know he called my name cos he so SOFT, then after ching thong told me then i 'HUH?" at him then everyone laugh then hahaha wenqi told me the answer then i just blurted it out :D hahahahaha so funny i didn't even know what i was saying.

hahaha he says i remind him of MY SIS. hahaha cos we very blur. i think so too. xD

ya ok hahaha oh i cancelled my violin accompaniment today cos we were at the museum for so long i thought will kena late, so yeah. i ran after a bus today. actually i didn't intend to, i told myself i wasn't going to run after a bus, but then somehow my legs felt like running so i ran. xD not for the bus, but for my legs. HAHAHA

are you having the thrusday blues? (although i intended to post them yestreday), here are some vids to cheer you up:

heechul's cute english. it's a random vid, BUT SO FUNNY HAHAHA.
HERE'S WHERE YOU CAN SEE LEETEUK KEEPING PORN UNDER HIS BED. i bet you that book was kangin's book. i'm serious.

part 1~ the leeteuk's bed part is around 2.40s...

part 2- OHMYGOSH LEETEUK'S SO FUNNY HIS WAY OF MAKING HYORI LAUGH IS SO FUNNY!!! 2.17S-2.22S HAHAHAHAHAHA ohman if you don't wanna watch the whole vid, PLEASE WATCH FROM 2.17S-2.22S XD

i know my sense of humor is very low but i like teuk's type of funny hehehehe. it's not as lame as onew, and HE'S SO FUNNY :D to me. hahaha. that's why i like him alot :D
and notice how heechul kicked teuk after he almost "sweared" xD hahaha

the part where "kangin" went "crazy" was scary, but eunhyuk was so MAN enough to calm him
down, and teuk too ;) teehee BOTH OF THEM SO MAN!!! and han geng too, he "protected" hyori xD hahah but donghae hid behind heechul who just stood there, tsk not manly one them.. xD hahaha

shinee sukira part 1, hahaha last night they went on shim shim tapa tapa!!! i could've listen through itouch but then i slept xD hahahah anyway, still watching the other parts of them on SUKIRA!!! plus a bonus of watching teuk ^-^

lucifer dance version!!! actually i think SM posted this up because shinee like not so popular, cos they didn't win inkigayo... :( BUT I'M A LOYAL SHAWOL!!! :))) hahaha key's hair so funny, he tie so toot.

TODAY:

nothing much lah hahaha, had cca until 6.30pm, went out for dinner with family then i'm back! tmr HALF DAY!!! WOOHOO and no lessons :) yo national day yo!!! and we got FREE TICKETS TO YOG OPENING CEREMONY REHEARSAL. but damn, BEAST and 4 MINUTE will be there only for THE ACTUAL opening ceremony.

OH CCA WAS SO FUN COS COS COS DURING THE BREAKS WE PLAYED WITH THE LIE DETECTOR APP ON MY ITOUCH THEN HAHAHAHA OMG SHANNON'S ONE WAS SO EPIC XD LMAO HAHAHAHA i shall consider all the answers quite accurate ;)

BTW, i so toot i took a long time to understand what rehearsal meant and realised that when we were p5, we went for the NDP REHEARSAL, OMG I THOUGHT I WENT FOR THE REAL ONE XD hahaha kanasai i was so patriotic LOR!!!

PIC SPAM:

SHINEE AT SHIM SHIM TAPA!!!

HEECHUL IN BEIJING!

LEETEUK AT SUKIRA KTR :) he look so shuai here so i cropped him out ;D
teehee ok hope my twitter app on itouch work soon, otherwise D;